Terrible
I finally got to go out with them yesterday. We went to the beach and I am burned lol. Me and Josh hung out mostly and stayed in the ocean talking. We hugged and continued talking. He said he was sorry about lying to me about loving me but likes and cares about me. I forgave him. So we left and went to a park. He was climbing over everything like a monkey. It was really funny. After, before we left after I got yelled at by my mother, me and him went another way to the car. He told me he was sorry and said that he didn't kiss Lauren. I was telling him how badly I wanted to go away so he wrapped his arms around me and gave me a really long hug. All he could say was "I know...I know." On the way back to my house, me and him sat in the back. We held hands and cuddled. Then as I was leaving, he hugged me and we kissed and I left. I ended getting grounded till "further notice". I called Josh and told him quickly. He hated that. This morning...I got a message from him I'll never forget. "Sorry, I have to break up with you. I did kiss Lauren and I don't want you to date someone you don't trust." I hate how he feels he has to lie to make me feel better. I felt really sick after seeing it. I told him that its ok. I still really like him. I don't want to break up. I told him that everyone makes mistakes and we can get through this. He asked why would I want to go through with this after the way he acted and said that it might happen again. I talked to Lauren and she said she wouldn't let it happen again. I just hate not seeing him and him hanging out with her now because I...just can't trust her anymore. I'm sorry Lauren. I don't want him to break up with me because I really like him. I just wish things will get better but I don't know what to do. I just want to see him.