It will last, i know it will
Me and josh got into another fight. I think this was the worst. It lasted about 5 hours. He told me he wasn't mad at me and loved me more then anything but said that he knew I was going to leave him. I'm not going to. I finally found someone who makes me happy, makes me laugh, makes me feel loved and I'm not going to ruin it. He makes me feel like I belong here. Its like I was the one girl in his life he was looking for. Someone to love and to spend his life with. To also have the daughter he always wanted with. We know we love each other very much. I could never imagine how I would be without him. Times when I think about it I just feel like crying, and sometimes I do cry. The lyrics to Gwen Stefani's "The Real Thing" discribe how I feel for him:
"I've seen your face a thousand times
Have all your stories memorized
I've kissed your lips a million ways
But I still love to have you around
I've held you too many times to count
I think I know you inside out
And we're together most days
But I still love to have you around
You're the one I want and it's not just phase
You're the one I trust, our love is the real thing
Don't go away
My love (my love)
I want you to stay
In my life
Don't go away
My lover (my love)
I'm happiest when we spend time
You're a salty water ocean wave
You knock me down, you kiss my face
I know the storms will always come
But I still love to have you around
Heaven knows what will come next
So emotional, you're so complex
A rollercoaster built to crash
But I still love to have you around
You're the one I want and it's not just phase
You're the one I trust, our love is the real thing
Don't go away
My love (my love)
I want you to stay
In my life
Don't go away
My lover (my love)
I'm happiest when we spend time (it's only you and I)
It's you there when I close my eyes
And you in the morning
I never thought you'd still be mine
Or I'd really need to have you around
Don't go away
My love (my love)
I want you to stay
In my life
Don't go away
My lover (my love)
I need you, you're my love supply
Don't go away
My love (you're my love supply)
I want you to stay
In my life (every day, every night)
Don't go away
My love (you're my love supply)
I need you, you're my love supply"
"I've seen your face a thousand times
Have all your stories memorized
I've kissed your lips a million ways
But I still love to have you around
I've held you too many times to count
I think I know you inside out
And we're together most days
But I still love to have you around
You're the one I want and it's not just phase
You're the one I trust, our love is the real thing
Don't go away
My love (my love)
I want you to stay
In my life
Don't go away
My lover (my love)
I'm happiest when we spend time
You're a salty water ocean wave
You knock me down, you kiss my face
I know the storms will always come
But I still love to have you around
Heaven knows what will come next
So emotional, you're so complex
A rollercoaster built to crash
But I still love to have you around
You're the one I want and it's not just phase
You're the one I trust, our love is the real thing
Don't go away
My love (my love)
I want you to stay
In my life
Don't go away
My lover (my love)
I'm happiest when we spend time (it's only you and I)
It's you there when I close my eyes
And you in the morning
I never thought you'd still be mine
Or I'd really need to have you around
Don't go away
My love (my love)
I want you to stay
In my life
Don't go away
My lover (my love)
I need you, you're my love supply
Don't go away
My love (you're my love supply)
I want you to stay
In my life (every day, every night)
Don't go away
My love (you're my love supply)
I need you, you're my love supply"