i am totally aware that two entries ago was also entitled "countdown," but that was before beyonce's new video was out.
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we're getting close. i'm talking about 3.5 weeks out.
for the most part we are just ready to get past this part, go off on our european tour, and come back to a normal life. one where every waking moment isn't consumed with wedding planning activities and you aren't obsessed with checking the mailbox for response cards or checking your registry.
(on a side note: i've learned that people are not timely when it comes to response cards or purchasing weddings presents. at all. ...at our shower, i was convinced that no one loved us and that no one was coming because i had checked the bed bath and beyond site religiously, and nothing had been purchased. then like 50+ people show up. all of our gifts were purchased that morning).
but i guess life won't be totally "normal."
for one, i'm fairly certain that we will have a huge stack of credit card bills to pay off. i, for one, find that pretty outrageous because who would have thought that getting married lakeside on a mountain top would be this expensive!? but then on top of that: we'll be married.
OMG.
and no, this isn't a cold feet, freaking out kind of thing. we totally work and balance each other. like beyonce said in a recent interview (and yes, i am totally quoting a beyonce interview. she made it on to my list of cool chicks some time circa "irreplaceable"):
"We have been together since I was 20 years old. We took our time and developed an unbreakable friendship before we got married," she says. "But, like anything great and successful in your life, marriage takes hard work and sacrifice. It has to be something both you and your husband deeply want."
She adds: "The best thing about marriage is the amount of growth you have because you can no longer hide from your fears and insecurities. There's someone right there calling you out on your flaws and building you up when you need the support. If you are with the right person, it brings out the best version of you."
and honestly, we're kind of like beyonce and jay-z (except for the rich and famous part). i really do think that we bring out the best in each other. and, i think more than anything, he is my absolute best friend. and we both realize that love and marriage isn't always sunshine and smiles and pooping rainbows, but we still want this and are willing to work hard. and even when we get way old and essential parts don't function as they once did, i know that we'll be okay. because we're more than just that. for example, one of the many reasons why i love him is because he makes me laugh. and i make him laugh. and i laugh when i make him laugh (because i can be that funny sometimes). ...and i don't think things like that go away.
and so in 4 weeks when life doesn't go back to "pre-engagement normal," i think i will be okay with that. i'll have a husband and a new beginning and a future that we can't wait to get to.