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Hmm.. I haven't written here in hella days. And I really hate the fact that a month in California has already made my speech do a 180. Hella? Totally? I said awesome before, but its use has escalated. I've started calling everyone "kid", spontaneously saying "Good News!" like the professor. I've even begun to accept the fact that gas is $2.50 a gallon, and cigarettes are $4 a pack.
I love walking out on my doorstep and seeing mountains to the left of me, and promises of an ocean to the right. The cold nights, the warm days. The fact that people here actually like PBR, and Lucky Strikes. The open invitation of hospitality. The Constant Comment tea, with sugar.
Only having one phone in the house that I'm not obligated to answer. Not having to worry constantly if everything I say is offending someone's delicate sensibilities. Working again. Smiling. Things here aren't fake. Or maybe they are, and my sight is skewed. Maybe I like this ignorance.
I still feel a little out of place. But, the truth comes out eventually.
And.. there's something to look forward to now. A light at the end. Promises of a better tomorrow. Promised by someone who's word actually is stronger than oak. Someone who delivers. Someone who wants to deliver.
It feels good not to be lost anymore. It just ..it feels so good.
I love walking out on my doorstep and seeing mountains to the left of me, and promises of an ocean to the right. The cold nights, the warm days. The fact that people here actually like PBR, and Lucky Strikes. The open invitation of hospitality. The Constant Comment tea, with sugar.
Only having one phone in the house that I'm not obligated to answer. Not having to worry constantly if everything I say is offending someone's delicate sensibilities. Working again. Smiling. Things here aren't fake. Or maybe they are, and my sight is skewed. Maybe I like this ignorance.
I still feel a little out of place. But, the truth comes out eventually.
And.. there's something to look forward to now. A light at the end. Promises of a better tomorrow. Promised by someone who's word actually is stronger than oak. Someone who delivers. Someone who wants to deliver.
It feels good not to be lost anymore. It just ..it feels so good.