I believed in your confussion, so completely torn....

[artifical_hate]

This isnt simple,but you do what you have to do.I do what I have to do.My thoughts lingering the past two weeks.Everything and anything consumed Thy mind and I couldnt explain it to a single soul.For I hadnt understood what was going on myself.I just knew the feeling that I had and I tryed to push it away.The feeling of loneliness took me over.So

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[perserverence]

Couldn't explain to a single soul? The fact that you have been living a lie is about as great as the explaination can get. What you're telling me is for the past TWO weeks, you have lied by telling me you loved me. You know, it's nothing I love more then an honest girl. You told me yourself day in and day out, you speak what's on your mind, you don't hold anything back from anyone, you say it like it is. I guess that's what the word "love" does to you, but if you're gonna say it with the void of it's real meaning, then I'd rather you be brutally honest, then feed me sugar-coated the lies. For you to say, "The feeling of loneliness took me over", when did it even remotely cross your mind that I feel the same exact way, but then I thought, "I'll see her soon, if I mean as much to her as she means to me, she wouldn't break up with me for the distance factor." Although, I must say it was a stroke of genius to break up with me until A Perfect Circle. Never once did I say I never wanted to be your friend. I enjoyed our times together. Every time I told you I loved you, I meant every single one. Not once did you not cross my mind throughout my day. You were my first thought waking up every morning and you were my last thought going to bed at night. You were my everything and to come to the realization that I'm worth the price a few of your memories is taking it's toll on me. I don't want my things back. Honestly, I'd trade all of that and more for the truth. Sam, the last thing I want to do is start a fight with you. I hope it doesn't end this way, but if it's what you really want, then I suppose I'm fine with it. I just wish you would've told me two weeks ago. I hope to see you again in the near future. We've had a hell of a ride and I'm gonna miss ya. Good-bye :)

Forever unscarred, unfazed, and unaffected,
-Bobby Stonehill-

[artifical_hate]

Wow... Im speachless. We already talked about this. And I am sorry.