[Couples Therapy] W4: 2 - How much do you trust your partner?
It’s taking some effort...but I’m learning to trust my wife again.
Now, I’m fully aware that sounds a little bit odd, considering that my wife passed on quite a few years back, but trust me...it’s not nearly as peculiar as it sounds. I’m in a pretty strange situation...I found out recently that Gail had been lying to me throughout the whole course of our marriage.
About what? Well...that’s not really fit for public consumption. Suffice to say, I had to contend with some issues that never got resolved...mainly, because she lied to me and I didn’t even know said issues existed, if that makes a lick of sense.
She was never who she said she was...the things she did, the parts of her I always loved...I have no way of telling the real from the not, not anymore. Now you can call me a sucker, because at the end of the day that’s exactly what I am...but I could have forgiven Gail her lies. Even the big stuff...long as she wasn’t eating babies for breakfast or having an affair, I wouldn’t have given a rat’s ass.
Hell...I might have even been able to forgive her an affair. That’s how gone I am on this woman, even still.
This one, though...it took me from her when I should have stayed. Short of turning her...I know I couldn’t have saved her life. But if I’d known, for one second, that she had any idea of what I really was...
I could have been there.
It’s hard to make my head and heart agree to disagree on this one, but I’m getting there. I know Gail had no earthly way of knowing how the hell I’d react to her true nature before I died, and afterwards, it had just been too long. Telling me would have been a disaster by then, because we had to consider the kids by then...still, I find myself getting angry at her when I’m really angry at me for not knowing...for not being able to do things that I’m just not capable of doing.
After nearly forty years, I thought I’d made some peace with losing her and making peace with myself...I think that learning the truth about Gail was just my Angel opening my eyes one more time and making me realize how full of it I really am.
Even when she’s not around...she’s still taking care of me. And knowing that...I think I can trust that everything we had, while built on lies, was one of the most real slices of Heaven I will ever know.
Muse: Artie Jackson
Fandom: Original Character
Words: 445
Partner: Gail Jackson (canon - deceased)
Now, I’m fully aware that sounds a little bit odd, considering that my wife passed on quite a few years back, but trust me...it’s not nearly as peculiar as it sounds. I’m in a pretty strange situation...I found out recently that Gail had been lying to me throughout the whole course of our marriage.
About what? Well...that’s not really fit for public consumption. Suffice to say, I had to contend with some issues that never got resolved...mainly, because she lied to me and I didn’t even know said issues existed, if that makes a lick of sense.
She was never who she said she was...the things she did, the parts of her I always loved...I have no way of telling the real from the not, not anymore. Now you can call me a sucker, because at the end of the day that’s exactly what I am...but I could have forgiven Gail her lies. Even the big stuff...long as she wasn’t eating babies for breakfast or having an affair, I wouldn’t have given a rat’s ass.
Hell...I might have even been able to forgive her an affair. That’s how gone I am on this woman, even still.
This one, though...it took me from her when I should have stayed. Short of turning her...I know I couldn’t have saved her life. But if I’d known, for one second, that she had any idea of what I really was...
I could have been there.
It’s hard to make my head and heart agree to disagree on this one, but I’m getting there. I know Gail had no earthly way of knowing how the hell I’d react to her true nature before I died, and afterwards, it had just been too long. Telling me would have been a disaster by then, because we had to consider the kids by then...still, I find myself getting angry at her when I’m really angry at me for not knowing...for not being able to do things that I’m just not capable of doing.
After nearly forty years, I thought I’d made some peace with losing her and making peace with myself...I think that learning the truth about Gail was just my Angel opening my eyes one more time and making me realize how full of it I really am.
Even when she’s not around...she’s still taking care of me. And knowing that...I think I can trust that everything we had, while built on lies, was one of the most real slices of Heaven I will ever know.
Muse: Artie Jackson
Fandom: Original Character
Words: 445
Partner: Gail Jackson (canon - deceased)