choke on this.
today was good for the most part. i was so tired today in college bio, it was horrible. I really felt like passing out and not waking up until like 3rd period. I dis-like when people hit me on the head with objects, such as; skeleton hands, books, rulers, and their hands. It's really annoying and my hair get's tangled, damn it. Idk, choir was the same as it alway's is. Spanish was the worst, i feel so bad for her. I love her to death, and i hate when my friends are upset. Esp. when you talk to them and theyre ready to cry right then and there. I don't know how to look at this situation either, i've tryed my best to comfort and make it seem like it's going to be alright. But i cant say it will, no one can tell you it's going to be alright. Nobody knows, how can you know? It's impossible to tell someone things will be alright, for all you know tomrrow they could fall off a bridge. I'm suprised at how i looked at this myself. I'm not at all bothered by this; a little mad yeah. But i'm not mad for myself, i'm mad at this person. Because you don't tell someone somthing like that and then just ingnore your feelings and do something totaly opposite. What exaclty where you thinking? Honestly. I can't even begin to imagine how i would have felt if i was put into the postion she was, i would want to kill you. You can't play with someone's emotions like that, you just can't. i love my burito, homo raping skank :D <3, anyway. Then i went to sawyer and was completly bored. Nothing ever goes down in that class room that is worth mentioning. People are dumbasses and i hate reading and sitting in silence. i don't know what we have even learned this year. All we've done is read and do vocab. Umm, real educational? Hellyeah. I'm listening to senses fail and i'm pretty chill. I'm really suprised about how confused i am, i don't know but i don't feel anything anymore. Well, like i did before. I'm over a lot of things, and persons. Its different now. and i realized today that my friendship means more to me then some kid. Cause i was mad, i really was. But, you see today i realized something else. I like this kid more then i thought i did, no it's not who your thinking, believe me. You can't really guess this unless i tell you pretty much everything. It's insane. Anyway, i'm so confused. I don't know what to think anymore.
Yesterday was youth group and Aaron's last day in jersey.
It's not going to be the same anymore, and i really can't believe he's gone.
Of course youth group is still awesome, and the people too. but going there and not having the one thing you really looked foward to hear/see? It's like a chunk of something is missing. But i guess in time we're going to have to get used to him not being here. I know he know's how much he's impacted some of the people in allentown and how much he's gonna be missed. He's a great person, i wish i could have gotten to know him much more then what i did. As tom said, "It's sad though, he seems like such a great guy, a really awesome dude."
I'm done with my thoughts for today.
i really do love livejournal a lot.
Yesterday was youth group and Aaron's last day in jersey.
It's not going to be the same anymore, and i really can't believe he's gone.
Of course youth group is still awesome, and the people too. but going there and not having the one thing you really looked foward to hear/see? It's like a chunk of something is missing. But i guess in time we're going to have to get used to him not being here. I know he know's how much he's impacted some of the people in allentown and how much he's gonna be missed. He's a great person, i wish i could have gotten to know him much more then what i did. As tom said, "It's sad though, he seems like such a great guy, a really awesome dude."
I'm done with my thoughts for today.
i really do love livejournal a lot.