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2 December 2001
Bill doesn't want to officiate the ceremony, dear. I'll let you ask Charlie though, since he's angry with me too. We'll talk more when I get home. I love you.
Well, Arthur surprised me tonight. In a good way, while we were getting some decorations up for the holiday. I don't believe it. I've been toying with the idea of having another child for a while now, yet, it's my husband who finally brings up the discussion. He wants to be a Daddy again. Not that I blame him of course, because well, on some level, I'd love to be a Mummy again. I just....if he had said something six months ago, I would probably be pregnant now. I just, with work and all, I don't know if it's wise. I'd be willing to quit working again of course, I just, I don't know. Aside from that, there's also the fact that the children we have aren't keeping in touch as they should. I wish they would, but I know I can't force them. I also wish I knew for a fact I'd be seeing them all at Christmas, but that seems up in the air at the moment, and apparently I have succeeded in getting my two eldest mad at me. For different reasons of course, but, I don't like it. And yes, I'm beginning to see that maybe I shouldn't have asked Bill to officiate the vow renewal on his birthday, but...I'd rather not wait when it comes to that. I thought at the very least he'd do it because Mum asked. It's something that's very important to me, and I want all of my children to be there and participate. I suppose I'll put it on the back burner until the holidays and Arthur's birthday blows over though.