Tuesday evening, confused
Life is not simple. Well, duh, of course it's not. But I'm utterly confused. There's this guy that I liked last year at camp, and now he's back and I'm seeing him a lot, but I'm in love with this other guy who is incredibly gorgeous. The first guy is hot beyond anyone's wildest dreams, sweet, nice, shy, but not too much so, an incredible fighter, and people can tease me about him, because they've all been through it before. The second guy though is also nice, but in addition he's funny, I've known him for longer, and he's real. (Yes, I know I didn't say thier names. What, you think I would give names? If you know who I'm talking about, then you can help me, and if not, then you can just... um... give me your impressions? I don't know. But you'll deal without knowing who they are.) I promised myself I wouldn't like him like I did last year when I first saw he came back, but he's still really cool, and I don'e know if I want to let myself go and become Moe (for those of you who don't go to Lehman, become really... not romantic, but in love with everything, or in my case, him) or if I should shield myself from that. Because the thing is, the second guy is not interested in me as far as I can tell, while the first guy is a fictional character, so can be as in love with me as I want him to be. On the other hand, he is a fictional character, and not real, and the second guy is... I don't know. I could really go on about this for a very long time, so if anyone has any advice or anything, please tell me.
