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Type (Public or Private) Private
Who: Deidara and Orihime
Where: Dei and Hime's apartment
When: Saturday morning 11/4
Warnings: none except for drugs.
Deidara was still in bed and it was almost 12 in the afternoon. He usually didn't sleep that late but he spent just about all of last night working on a few projects in the art on campus. It was easier to work there since it didn't matter if he got clay all over the floor and such. He even took a dose of ecstasy just to keep him going through the night. He managed to get back to the apartment safely in the early hours of the morning when he started coming down from his high, making him dog tired. When he had entered the bedroom he had literally threw his clothes off and slipped into bed, being careful not to wake Orihime up.
Right now it was Saturday and thus he didn't have any classes, which he was grateful for. That meant he could sleep as long as he wanted to or at least till when Orihime needed to wake him up for something.
Orihime came to accept the fact that living with a man meant picking up after him. It was a man thing after all. She had decided to allow him to sleep until he was ready to wake up while she did the daily things around the house. Laundry was due to be clean, thus she she had picked up his clothes from the floor and brought them to the back room.
She had a habit, of emptying out pockets before throwing them to wash. Which was a good habit considering important things could be left in pockets when one didn't realize it. "Hnn?" Orihime had felt a small bag in one of Deidara's pants pockets and pulled it out. She started to examine the contents of the bag finding several small pills in it. Deidara was on medication? Examining them closer she noticed that they didn't look like any medicine she had ever seen before, and they weren't labeled for that matter. Then...realization hit her.
Deidara remained asleep oblivious to what Orihime just found. Usually after taking a pill he was out for a good long time. The pills were left in his pockets from last night. When he had come home he was so tired all he wanted to do was sleep, and thus forgot to take out the pills and hide them. Giving a small sigh he turned over in bed, curling up even more under the sheets.
Orihime wasn't exactly sure how to react to first. There was a huge feeling of heartbreak, and it made her feel like becoming angry. However, Orihime always found it hard to be angry. Though never hard at feeling hurt. She clutched the bag and went to their room seeing the sleeping Deidara. Walking over she grabbed his shoulder and started to shake him furiously. "Wake up."
Feeling someone shake him, Deidara cracked open his eyes as he rolled over onto his back to see Orihime over him. The tone of her voice sounded different, like she was upset or something. Rubbing his eyes in order to get the sleep out of them, he looked back up at her. "Hey. What's up yeah?" His voice was groggy which was no surprise considering that he just woke up.
"What's this?" She shoved the bad in his face. She wasn't going to beat around the bush. It was best to just go straight to the point.
"Huh?" He blinked a little and took the bag from her hand. He looked at it and realized that it was the drugs he had with him from last night and he went pale slightly. In his mind he cursed himself for being so careless as to forget about them. Now what was he going to do? Lying would only make it worse that was for sure, and techniqually he never lied about never taking drugs to begin with, just avoided the questions. Might as well tell the truth then. "It's a bag of Ecstacy yeah... I take you got it out of my pants pocket yeah?" Turning his head he looked at her.
"Why didn't you evern tell me you were doing drugs? Especially when I defended you when you were accussed of it the other day, by someone who obviously knew. Which then made me look like an idiot. Dei..."
Deidara moved and slowly sat up in bed, looking at the bag of pills in his hand. "I never denied that I didn't that any drugs yeah. As for why I didn't tell you, well it's not exactly information I volunteer. Besides most of the people in high school knew that I did drugs yeah. I guess I just assumed that you already knew and just didn't say anything about it yeah. But when you defended me that one time I realized you didn't know yeah. Seeing your reaction, I didn't know how to tell you that the accussation was true."
"You should've told me right then, Dei! This can kill you. It's bad enough I worry about other people killing you day in and day out. Now, I have to worry about killing yourself."
"I got scared about how you would react yeah! You seemed so dead set that I didn't do stuff like this that I didn't want to ruin it for you yeah." He sighed and set the bag down and knees up. Leaning forward he rested his arms on his knees and looked at her again. "Aren't you wondering why I take that stuff yeah?"
"So you just kept it from me. Did you think I was stupid and would never find out?" She took a step back. "Why?"
"That's not what I thought yeah. I thought when the time was right I would tell you yeah." Leaning back against the headboard he looked at her. "It's a long story so you might want to sit down yeah."
"I don't want to sit down."
"You know about how I grew up and about how I was treated yeah. It wasn't exactly the most happiest childhood around. When I was in junior high I had my first taste of ecstacy yeah. I thought when I took it I was feeling what real happiness was since I've never experienced it before yeah. It may not have been the real thing but at least it was a hell of a lot better then putting on a fake smile and pretend you were happy when all you felt inside was nothingness yeah."
"But, Dei, you don't have to be like that anymore, right? I mean, can't you try to quit?"
"It's not that easy to just quit yeah." He gave a slight smile as he watched her from the bed. "I'll admit, when I'm with you, I know what real happiness is and that it's not something that can be replaced with a drug yeah. But..." Giving a sigh he tried to think of the right way to explain this to her to where it would make sense. "But I never realized that I was taking it so much yeah. When I first started going out with you I would only really do it once a week, at most. It was usually at parties and such yeah. It wasn't until when you disappeared that I started using it more heavily yeah. And it wasn't just with ecstacy"
"I didn't expect you to drop it right there, Dei." She braved going sit down to next to him. "But it isn't like I'm going to let you do it on your own. Why do you think I'm here?"
"I've tried quit once yeah." He stated as he continued to watch her. "Imagine the worse flu you've had and times it by ten yeah. Also remember I tried to do this back when I first started high school so I wasn't taking it as heavily as I am now. Imagine what would happen if I quit now yeah."
"So you won't even try?" She felt her heart sink to the pit of her stomach again.
"I can try, but I'm saying it's not going to be pretty yeah."
"Well not everything in a relationship is supposed to be pretty. I can handle it. I'll help you through it all."
Deidara nodded and looked down at the little bag. Now that he said he was going to quit, he already started craving another hit. His hands tighten on the sheets as he nodded trying to restrain himself.
Orihime reached over and tugged the bag from his hand. "I can start helping by taking these and finding a place to hide them until I can get rid of them." She sighed and sat back with her hands in her lap. "We're going to have to think of a way to do something to replace taking a pill when you have the urge to pop one."
"That can help some yeah." Deidara said. "But it's not like I'm trying to quit smoking. This is way more intense yeah. Just popping something in my mouth is not going to cut it yeah."
"Don't worry. I'll find a way to help you."
"You might want to get rid of that stuff soon then yeah. It is illegal yeah."
"Don't worry. I will."
Who: Deidara and Orihime
Where: Dei and Hime's apartment
When: Saturday morning 11/4
Warnings: none except for drugs.
Deidara was still in bed and it was almost 12 in the afternoon. He usually didn't sleep that late but he spent just about all of last night working on a few projects in the art on campus. It was easier to work there since it didn't matter if he got clay all over the floor and such. He even took a dose of ecstasy just to keep him going through the night. He managed to get back to the apartment safely in the early hours of the morning when he started coming down from his high, making him dog tired. When he had entered the bedroom he had literally threw his clothes off and slipped into bed, being careful not to wake Orihime up.
Right now it was Saturday and thus he didn't have any classes, which he was grateful for. That meant he could sleep as long as he wanted to or at least till when Orihime needed to wake him up for something.
Orihime came to accept the fact that living with a man meant picking up after him. It was a man thing after all. She had decided to allow him to sleep until he was ready to wake up while she did the daily things around the house. Laundry was due to be clean, thus she she had picked up his clothes from the floor and brought them to the back room.
She had a habit, of emptying out pockets before throwing them to wash. Which was a good habit considering important things could be left in pockets when one didn't realize it. "Hnn?" Orihime had felt a small bag in one of Deidara's pants pockets and pulled it out. She started to examine the contents of the bag finding several small pills in it. Deidara was on medication? Examining them closer she noticed that they didn't look like any medicine she had ever seen before, and they weren't labeled for that matter. Then...realization hit her.
Deidara remained asleep oblivious to what Orihime just found. Usually after taking a pill he was out for a good long time. The pills were left in his pockets from last night. When he had come home he was so tired all he wanted to do was sleep, and thus forgot to take out the pills and hide them. Giving a small sigh he turned over in bed, curling up even more under the sheets.
Orihime wasn't exactly sure how to react to first. There was a huge feeling of heartbreak, and it made her feel like becoming angry. However, Orihime always found it hard to be angry. Though never hard at feeling hurt. She clutched the bag and went to their room seeing the sleeping Deidara. Walking over she grabbed his shoulder and started to shake him furiously. "Wake up."
Feeling someone shake him, Deidara cracked open his eyes as he rolled over onto his back to see Orihime over him. The tone of her voice sounded different, like she was upset or something. Rubbing his eyes in order to get the sleep out of them, he looked back up at her. "Hey. What's up yeah?" His voice was groggy which was no surprise considering that he just woke up.
"What's this?" She shoved the bad in his face. She wasn't going to beat around the bush. It was best to just go straight to the point.
"Huh?" He blinked a little and took the bag from her hand. He looked at it and realized that it was the drugs he had with him from last night and he went pale slightly. In his mind he cursed himself for being so careless as to forget about them. Now what was he going to do? Lying would only make it worse that was for sure, and techniqually he never lied about never taking drugs to begin with, just avoided the questions. Might as well tell the truth then. "It's a bag of Ecstacy yeah... I take you got it out of my pants pocket yeah?" Turning his head he looked at her.
"Why didn't you evern tell me you were doing drugs? Especially when I defended you when you were accussed of it the other day, by someone who obviously knew. Which then made me look like an idiot. Dei..."
Deidara moved and slowly sat up in bed, looking at the bag of pills in his hand. "I never denied that I didn't that any drugs yeah. As for why I didn't tell you, well it's not exactly information I volunteer. Besides most of the people in high school knew that I did drugs yeah. I guess I just assumed that you already knew and just didn't say anything about it yeah. But when you defended me that one time I realized you didn't know yeah. Seeing your reaction, I didn't know how to tell you that the accussation was true."
"You should've told me right then, Dei! This can kill you. It's bad enough I worry about other people killing you day in and day out. Now, I have to worry about killing yourself."
"I got scared about how you would react yeah! You seemed so dead set that I didn't do stuff like this that I didn't want to ruin it for you yeah." He sighed and set the bag down and knees up. Leaning forward he rested his arms on his knees and looked at her again. "Aren't you wondering why I take that stuff yeah?"
"So you just kept it from me. Did you think I was stupid and would never find out?" She took a step back. "Why?"
"That's not what I thought yeah. I thought when the time was right I would tell you yeah." Leaning back against the headboard he looked at her. "It's a long story so you might want to sit down yeah."
"I don't want to sit down."
"You know about how I grew up and about how I was treated yeah. It wasn't exactly the most happiest childhood around. When I was in junior high I had my first taste of ecstacy yeah. I thought when I took it I was feeling what real happiness was since I've never experienced it before yeah. It may not have been the real thing but at least it was a hell of a lot better then putting on a fake smile and pretend you were happy when all you felt inside was nothingness yeah."
"But, Dei, you don't have to be like that anymore, right? I mean, can't you try to quit?"
"It's not that easy to just quit yeah." He gave a slight smile as he watched her from the bed. "I'll admit, when I'm with you, I know what real happiness is and that it's not something that can be replaced with a drug yeah. But..." Giving a sigh he tried to think of the right way to explain this to her to where it would make sense. "But I never realized that I was taking it so much yeah. When I first started going out with you I would only really do it once a week, at most. It was usually at parties and such yeah. It wasn't until when you disappeared that I started using it more heavily yeah. And it wasn't just with ecstacy"
"I didn't expect you to drop it right there, Dei." She braved going sit down to next to him. "But it isn't like I'm going to let you do it on your own. Why do you think I'm here?"
"I've tried quit once yeah." He stated as he continued to watch her. "Imagine the worse flu you've had and times it by ten yeah. Also remember I tried to do this back when I first started high school so I wasn't taking it as heavily as I am now. Imagine what would happen if I quit now yeah."
"So you won't even try?" She felt her heart sink to the pit of her stomach again.
"I can try, but I'm saying it's not going to be pretty yeah."
"Well not everything in a relationship is supposed to be pretty. I can handle it. I'll help you through it all."
Deidara nodded and looked down at the little bag. Now that he said he was going to quit, he already started craving another hit. His hands tighten on the sheets as he nodded trying to restrain himself.
Orihime reached over and tugged the bag from his hand. "I can start helping by taking these and finding a place to hide them until I can get rid of them." She sighed and sat back with her hands in her lap. "We're going to have to think of a way to do something to replace taking a pill when you have the urge to pop one."
"That can help some yeah." Deidara said. "But it's not like I'm trying to quit smoking. This is way more intense yeah. Just popping something in my mouth is not going to cut it yeah."
"Don't worry. I'll find a way to help you."
"You might want to get rid of that stuff soon then yeah. It is illegal yeah."
"Don't worry. I will."