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I don't think it's fair that I am having major allergy issues/a cold while I am trying to fix my anxiety issues but oh well.
( Cut for anxiety issue chat. Could be triggering for fellow phobic-anxiety sufferers )
( Cut for anxiety issue chat. Could be triggering for fellow phobic-anxiety sufferers )
I have asthma, and it turns out that around 80% of my asthma attacks? Have been anxiety attacks. When I was a little girl I used to be so terrified of not being able to breathe, that the moment I thought about it- I couldn't breathe. I went my entire childhood essentially causing my own attacks. I honestly can't believe I didn't realize it sooner, so many times my worst asthma attacks came from such random things- like if I realized I'd left my inhaler at home, or maybe I went to a friends house and forgot my favorite pillow. Getting separated from my parents, or losing something, getting in an argument with a friend.. all of those things caused major attacks and I never ONCE made the connection.
Then I went through a phase a couple years ago where I kept having non-asthma related panic attacks. I couldn't even tell you what was triggering them, but suddenly I would be freaking the fuck out, can't breathe, I felt crowded and smothered and I could be doing something as simple as cooking dinner! As a matter of fact, it got to where being in my small kitchen started my freakouts every dang time so I started avoiding the kitchen, which meant no cooking.. and yeah. That's when I finally decided to get some help.
Now I go on prozac about twice a year. I don't need it all the time but my anxiety seems to cycle and now that I recognize it, I know when to go in and get back on the meds.
Anyway. This wasn't really supposed to be about me, it was supposed to be me saying - I can relate to what you go through, and I'm glad you got to that point of enough is enough. You won't regret it!
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It's good! Relating to people is good. Enough certainly is enough, and it's time to do something about it. I don't want to start avoiding things because I know I will. I think half of my issue with going to placement is that it's in the city and just being so close to our cordon (the blocked of city centre) makes me feel like I can't breathe. I haven't avoided it yet, but it does cause me distress.
Anyway, thank you for your words. You are wonderful, and always have been! <3
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