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Wow, you know you're suffering ill effects from stress when your new boyfriend mentions that you grind your teeth all night and that he's concerned. >.< Normally I find pre- sleep activities incredibly relaxing.
I was looking forward to volunteering with READ Saskatoon, the volunteer literacy program, but had to cancel for now. My job went full time since I initially signed up for it. It's still something I'd like to do someday, but I am having trouble staying healthy and working full time, let alone working full time, trying to finish the thesis, doing SCM stuff - namely, ATN is already past the initial deadlines I set for it - and trying to spend much needed time with friends. I'm not sure what made me think I could handle another activity. My volunteer orientation was supposed to be tomorrow. Instead, I NEED to do more thesis work tomorrow during the day, and then I lead the Sensation Play workshop at work tomorrow night. My first time doing it - hope people come to it! No one did last time and I was left pouring the hot massage oil from the massage candle on myself and flogging my own hand.
I am sure enjoying my full-time with raise paycheques. Yesterday was payday and to celebrate I bought myself and coworkers 4 fancy cupcakes from the trendy new cupcake place. The flavour of the week is "chocolate & bacon." Srsly. Delicious! And a strange albeit kawaii cell-phone charm from the comic book store. A triangular milk carton/ cow figurine. So odd. So Asian. Retail therapy for the week completed. Unless I find something I have to have at the trade show: Taboo.
Urgh, so busy at work. We have a trade show this weekend and there is so much stuff to do. I have told myself I wouldn't be a "workaholic" at this job, unlike a couple of nights at my last full-time job, but tonight I did put in an extra 1.5 hrs just to get some stuff done for the trade show this weekend. Could I have left it for someone else to do? Probably, but the truth is the co-worker in tomorrow has so much on her plate, and I just don't trust the other co-worker to do the task without mistakes that would cause me more stress later. This concern is justified and has much supporting evidence, I might add. I'm finding that challenging. I found myself literally clenching my teeth on the bus ride home. Now it's midnight and I have to do the recycling.
Did you know that models are very self-conscious about their bodies? We had models in most of yesterday and today to choose the lingerie and club wear garments they will wear in the trade show fashion show. The model that was in tonight told me she had been asked to be in the show at the last moment (2 days ago) and was worried about squeezing in as much gym time and tanning as she could between now and Saturday. I thought she was already stunning, and told her so. We all have our insecurities in this culture. Lately I find myself somewhat ambivalent? towards my body. Neither loving nor hating, but overall rather positive most of the time. I have been having stress-related stomach problems, and have gained a bit of weight since December, but nothing a healthier diet and some regular exercise won't help with. When I can schedule the time in..... Despite that though, I have found myself rather confident when nude. A bit self conscious, but on the whole, much, much more confident and comfortable than I would have thought. I think K and his personality have a lot to do with that, also where I work and some new attitudes towards sexy female body types, all types, thanks to the Rosebud Burlesque Club performances and my friend's participation in them. K mentions that he really enjoyed the nude beach in Vancouver and seems quite comfortable with his body. That makes a huge difference. Of course...he has a nice body! Ahem.
I think I'm working something like 7 days in a row this week. Yes, admittedly I have tomorrow morning and afternoon off, but I still have the workshop in the evening and full days on either side of that. I miss having consecutive days off.
I was looking forward to volunteering with READ Saskatoon, the volunteer literacy program, but had to cancel for now. My job went full time since I initially signed up for it. It's still something I'd like to do someday, but I am having trouble staying healthy and working full time, let alone working full time, trying to finish the thesis, doing SCM stuff - namely, ATN is already past the initial deadlines I set for it - and trying to spend much needed time with friends. I'm not sure what made me think I could handle another activity. My volunteer orientation was supposed to be tomorrow. Instead, I NEED to do more thesis work tomorrow during the day, and then I lead the Sensation Play workshop at work tomorrow night. My first time doing it - hope people come to it! No one did last time and I was left pouring the hot massage oil from the massage candle on myself and flogging my own hand.
I am sure enjoying my full-time with raise paycheques. Yesterday was payday and to celebrate I bought myself and coworkers 4 fancy cupcakes from the trendy new cupcake place. The flavour of the week is "chocolate & bacon." Srsly. Delicious! And a strange albeit kawaii cell-phone charm from the comic book store. A triangular milk carton/ cow figurine. So odd. So Asian. Retail therapy for the week completed. Unless I find something I have to have at the trade show: Taboo.
Urgh, so busy at work. We have a trade show this weekend and there is so much stuff to do. I have told myself I wouldn't be a "workaholic" at this job, unlike a couple of nights at my last full-time job, but tonight I did put in an extra 1.5 hrs just to get some stuff done for the trade show this weekend. Could I have left it for someone else to do? Probably, but the truth is the co-worker in tomorrow has so much on her plate, and I just don't trust the other co-worker to do the task without mistakes that would cause me more stress later. This concern is justified and has much supporting evidence, I might add. I'm finding that challenging. I found myself literally clenching my teeth on the bus ride home. Now it's midnight and I have to do the recycling.
Did you know that models are very self-conscious about their bodies? We had models in most of yesterday and today to choose the lingerie and club wear garments they will wear in the trade show fashion show. The model that was in tonight told me she had been asked to be in the show at the last moment (2 days ago) and was worried about squeezing in as much gym time and tanning as she could between now and Saturday. I thought she was already stunning, and told her so. We all have our insecurities in this culture. Lately I find myself somewhat ambivalent? towards my body. Neither loving nor hating, but overall rather positive most of the time. I have been having stress-related stomach problems, and have gained a bit of weight since December, but nothing a healthier diet and some regular exercise won't help with. When I can schedule the time in..... Despite that though, I have found myself rather confident when nude. A bit self conscious, but on the whole, much, much more confident and comfortable than I would have thought. I think K and his personality have a lot to do with that, also where I work and some new attitudes towards sexy female body types, all types, thanks to the Rosebud Burlesque Club performances and my friend's participation in them. K mentions that he really enjoyed the nude beach in Vancouver and seems quite comfortable with his body. That makes a huge difference. Of course...he has a nice body! Ahem.
I think I'm working something like 7 days in a row this week. Yes, admittedly I have tomorrow morning and afternoon off, but I still have the workshop in the evening and full days on either side of that. I miss having consecutive days off.