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[artemisa_m_p]

omg omg omg its coming back. that insatiable desire to have a boyfriend. i want one so bad im gonna cry. but i know that real relationships are never as good as the ones you imagine. especially since i get tired of boys fast. im what you call a heart breaker i guess. i dont think i am though. i mean i start to go on dates with a guy to see if i like him then it turns out i dont really and so i kinda ease out of things and then he gets all weird cuz to him i ended things out of no where or somehting. but isnt that the point of dating, to see if you like someone?!?!?!?!!?!?!? geez i swear. oh yeah also i lost another guy who i thought was my friend. but no he thought we were kinda dating when i never even gave him the slightest hint we were or that i wnated that. i never hugged him or kissed him or held his hand or flirted so i dunno where he got that idea. then after we clear things up and i tell him were just friends hes like ok cool. then a few days later hes like uh i cant talk to you cuz i still like you so bye. whats wrong w/ people!!?!?!? i know this may sound stuck up or condescending but hey its my journal so i dont care! but i still want a boy i wont get tired of atleast not for a while. i just havnt been able to meet any since reynard. blah.

on another note: I've been trying to slowly pull together this whole business thing and so far all ive done is confuse myself. I love business but i just dont understand it for the life of me. isnt that ironic? so ive been reading books like a mofo and asking questions on the LJ community entrepreneurs. i havnt been able to make much progress mainly b/c im so confused i dont even know which questions to ask. *le sigh* anyway i just felt like ranting sioce i havnt in a while and im really bored and cant sleep. i miss friends. i have more than i used to but theyre not th kind i really want. i also really need a guy a hot guy. i wonder if brian at aquatek is available, hmmmmm. *plots evil things*