Dreams
I had a couple of vivid dreams last night...
The first one, I was pregnant and going into labor. I go to the hospital and I am alone with the doctors. I tell the doctor to drug me up and I can feel scared, but in my a good way. I feel happy that I was able to become pregnant (it's a big fear of mine that I might not be able to) and I begin to get contractions and give birth. I am more scared of the pain, but there wasn't really much pain. And I give birth to a baby. The dream kind of ends there.
Second dream, I am getting ready to get married. Thing is, I am not getting married to Correl, I am getting married to Alex. It's a huge rush. I had to buy a dress that wasn't really a wedding dress, it was just a skirt and a top, not even white, which I thought was odd as I was putting it on. I don't even think it was a wedding, it was just a ceremony in front of a judge or something. I go to get lunch or something with my mom and grandfather and my mom is yelling at my grandfather (as usual) and I am getting pissed that she is being so mean to him on my wedding day. Then I begin to panic a little realizing, well I don't want to marry Alex. I think at this point my conscious begins to realize that well, I am not with Alex anymore, he's a nice guy and all, but I don't love him, I love Correl. So why the hell am I not marrying Correl? I go to find Alex to tell him I can't marry him and I think we are in my old house where I grew up (btw, my dreams take place there a lot) and I am going upstairs and he's telling me it's bad luck to see me before the wedding. It kind of stops there.
It's weird how much I can still remember the dreams... they are so clear in my mind.
The first one, I was pregnant and going into labor. I go to the hospital and I am alone with the doctors. I tell the doctor to drug me up and I can feel scared, but in my a good way. I feel happy that I was able to become pregnant (it's a big fear of mine that I might not be able to) and I begin to get contractions and give birth. I am more scared of the pain, but there wasn't really much pain. And I give birth to a baby. The dream kind of ends there.
Second dream, I am getting ready to get married. Thing is, I am not getting married to Correl, I am getting married to Alex. It's a huge rush. I had to buy a dress that wasn't really a wedding dress, it was just a skirt and a top, not even white, which I thought was odd as I was putting it on. I don't even think it was a wedding, it was just a ceremony in front of a judge or something. I go to get lunch or something with my mom and grandfather and my mom is yelling at my grandfather (as usual) and I am getting pissed that she is being so mean to him on my wedding day. Then I begin to panic a little realizing, well I don't want to marry Alex. I think at this point my conscious begins to realize that well, I am not with Alex anymore, he's a nice guy and all, but I don't love him, I love Correl. So why the hell am I not marrying Correl? I go to find Alex to tell him I can't marry him and I think we are in my old house where I grew up (btw, my dreams take place there a lot) and I am going upstairs and he's telling me it's bad luck to see me before the wedding. It kind of stops there.
It's weird how much I can still remember the dreams... they are so clear in my mind.