well well well...should've know better then to believe it was true
It appears as though my relationship is over. My boyfriend hasn't bothered to actually break up with me however I'm guessing the refusal to communicate with me for a week is my answer. Odd how not long ago we were speaking of wanting to be together and work things out and not a week later he won't speak to me to even let me know. No big fight, nothing to warrant this. Its sad really...b/c he at one time was such a great guy. I'm sure you all remember me posting how happy he made me. I wasn't lying either. If someone doesn't care enough or respect me enough after all this time to man up and talk no matter what the outcome...well I guess I shouldn't be the one sad huh? Maybe I'm saving myself trouble in the long run and maybe I shouldn't be upset but as they say...easier said then done. I'm sorry to all my friends and family who loved him and thought he was the one. I guess he doesn't care enough about you guys to show respect either. Its sad...I mean truly sad b/c of what could have been but you know me....I won't watch someone self destruct and I certainly won't let them bring me down with them. Next time I'm home alone, scared to death b/c my body is rapidly shutting down...I'll be sure to call a friend or someone I'm sure cares. Maybe then I won't be so afraid to go to sleep b/c someone will be here with me. I won't have to see the doctor alone as they try to figure out what is wrong with me. Hmm...that'll be nice. Imagine...someone who cares about you regardless of what you can do for them. Maybe one day I'll get lucky and fine one thats real. Don't get me wrong...I'm not badmouthing Bob...I still believe deep down he's a good guy. Maybe he's lost, I dunno why or what but I don't hate him. If I did it'd be that much easier. This one will be the hardest...b/c I really don't have a bad word about him...just his unnecessary, uncaring actions concerning me. I didn't deserve this.
Love sucks.
It's hardly worth it in my world....every time I finally open up and utter " I love you"....I get my heart ripped out and stomped on. Karma is a bitch right? Well how come these people who treat people like shit end up happy and people who are genuinely good, caring people like myself get shit on again and again? *checks watch* Yup...karma is late in my world. Oh but it'll come....it always does.
please...no pity party. I appreciate you're sad for me..but loads of "its for the best" won't help. I was merely updating so people will know why I'm fucked up at the moment. Give me time folks...just like every other disappointing heartbreak...I will recover fully eventually. Until then...take me out and remind me how great my friends are. P.S. I haven't been drunk in ages due to always being the DD...so feel free to take me to the bar and DRIVE ME!
Love sucks.
It's hardly worth it in my world....every time I finally open up and utter " I love you"....I get my heart ripped out and stomped on. Karma is a bitch right? Well how come these people who treat people like shit end up happy and people who are genuinely good, caring people like myself get shit on again and again? *checks watch* Yup...karma is late in my world. Oh but it'll come....it always does.
please...no pity party. I appreciate you're sad for me..but loads of "its for the best" won't help. I was merely updating so people will know why I'm fucked up at the moment. Give me time folks...just like every other disappointing heartbreak...I will recover fully eventually. Until then...take me out and remind me how great my friends are. P.S. I haven't been drunk in ages due to always being the DD...so feel free to take me to the bar and DRIVE ME!