ehhhh
i'm not down for updating this LJ anymore.
well recently, work has just keep getting worse by the day.
my whole paycheck of $485+ went all to my credit card bill.
i hate myspace as always
today i took Angela to dinner at Sipz vegeterian cafe.
i wanted it to be special, even tho i have a short ass budget.
i dressed up nice and she got something to wear too.
it seems lately that there's something we both argue about, and i don't know why it happens, all i know is that we don't need it. i can't say that i understand what she's going through because honestly i haven't, and i'm doing my best as a boyfriend, as a person who cares to be there when she is needed. its just that today i wanted a time for us, it just gets worse by things she's finding about her family members and im just left there to witness and to feel helpless. i can't get close, and it just puts me in a bad mood. i don't want to lose her because what she's going through and to see me just living a simple life, i want that for her but i can't give it to her, i can at least try to take her away from that once in a while. it's amazing how i feel like this for someone i just recently met, such a deep feeling, i love the girl, and i'll tell her the truth, even if she askes me or not. but in someway i feel like im going to fuck it up, im gonna slip up, and i'll lose her. i'm just afraid now and i don't know what to do. it makes me sad sometimes, but i know she doesn't want me to feel/see me like that. i want us to get through it, and know i'm here for her, and i'll be there when she doesn't want me to. now it just feels like i just screwed up or something and i don't know how to fix it. this sucks, it really does, because she's all i got nowadays in this industrious world i live in.
David S.
well recently, work has just keep getting worse by the day.
my whole paycheck of $485+ went all to my credit card bill.
i hate myspace as always
today i took Angela to dinner at Sipz vegeterian cafe.
i wanted it to be special, even tho i have a short ass budget.
i dressed up nice and she got something to wear too.
it seems lately that there's something we both argue about, and i don't know why it happens, all i know is that we don't need it. i can't say that i understand what she's going through because honestly i haven't, and i'm doing my best as a boyfriend, as a person who cares to be there when she is needed. its just that today i wanted a time for us, it just gets worse by things she's finding about her family members and im just left there to witness and to feel helpless. i can't get close, and it just puts me in a bad mood. i don't want to lose her because what she's going through and to see me just living a simple life, i want that for her but i can't give it to her, i can at least try to take her away from that once in a while. it's amazing how i feel like this for someone i just recently met, such a deep feeling, i love the girl, and i'll tell her the truth, even if she askes me or not. but in someway i feel like im going to fuck it up, im gonna slip up, and i'll lose her. i'm just afraid now and i don't know what to do. it makes me sad sometimes, but i know she doesn't want me to feel/see me like that. i want us to get through it, and know i'm here for her, and i'll be there when she doesn't want me to. now it just feels like i just screwed up or something and i don't know how to fix it. this sucks, it really does, because she's all i got nowadays in this industrious world i live in.
David S.