A lot of stuff to tell you
Sorry I have not wrote in my journal for awhile just a lot of things going on and it is really hard to deal with right now still. There is a lot of stuff to tell you but it is really hard to deal with it because I have not delt with it yet. So if I only tell half of it is because it is hard to deal with it. Sooo...here it goes........
Two weeks ago I was coming back home from Mark's house in ohio. I live in Indiana. Well, when I was almost home I tried to call my friend to talk to him and and it said my phone did nt work. Welll, when i got home I called mark to tell him i got home. Well, I talked to my mom and she said that she turned my phone off. So I got the reg. phone and called Mark. Well, I was outside. Well, mark was on the phone and Mom came out and said to get off the phone.....
Well, she came up to me and started putting me in a wrestling hold and put her arms around my neck. I was so scared. Mom has never laid a hand on me. Mark heard everything. He was really scared for me so he called the police and the police came out. Dad came in the house bc he saw them and told me i was in so much trouble. I called my friend Julie to tell her what happened and that the police were outside. I was so scared. The cops were jerks they said I was a drama queen. I was balling bc what had happened. well, they told them I had no insurance on my car since i have not been able to work bc of my back. Well, the cops left. I was crying so hard and could not stop. I could not beieve what my mom just did to me.
Well, a little while after that i went out and my dad, mom, and my sis. were all out there tlaking. I told them let me have one phone call and i would be out of there life forever. But, they said that they had to stand right beside me. Remeber I am 22 almost 23. I called Julie and told her that somebody had to come get me.
I was so scared, I was shaking and crying so muach with images just running through my mind. I told her that I thought about doing something to myself bc of everything going on. She told me no not to do that. They stood by me, my parents, the whole time.
Well, Mark and Tommy came up and got me to take me back to Ohio.
So , right now I live in Ohio. I am getting an apartment right now and looking for a good ob down here.
So, I feel like I have lost all my family.
I still cannot not forgive what my mom did to me.
Alos, I still cannot forgive my dad for what he did to me.
I have dreams at night about what happened that day. For 2 weeks I could not even sleep. I probably got 3 hours sleep each night.
I still can't deal with it. Sometimes I just crawl inside myself and I don't want to come out. I feel so numb right now it is not funny.
Krystle
Two weeks ago I was coming back home from Mark's house in ohio. I live in Indiana. Well, when I was almost home I tried to call my friend to talk to him and and it said my phone did nt work. Welll, when i got home I called mark to tell him i got home. Well, I talked to my mom and she said that she turned my phone off. So I got the reg. phone and called Mark. Well, I was outside. Well, mark was on the phone and Mom came out and said to get off the phone.....
Well, she came up to me and started putting me in a wrestling hold and put her arms around my neck. I was so scared. Mom has never laid a hand on me. Mark heard everything. He was really scared for me so he called the police and the police came out. Dad came in the house bc he saw them and told me i was in so much trouble. I called my friend Julie to tell her what happened and that the police were outside. I was so scared. The cops were jerks they said I was a drama queen. I was balling bc what had happened. well, they told them I had no insurance on my car since i have not been able to work bc of my back. Well, the cops left. I was crying so hard and could not stop. I could not beieve what my mom just did to me.
Well, a little while after that i went out and my dad, mom, and my sis. were all out there tlaking. I told them let me have one phone call and i would be out of there life forever. But, they said that they had to stand right beside me. Remeber I am 22 almost 23. I called Julie and told her that somebody had to come get me.
I was so scared, I was shaking and crying so muach with images just running through my mind. I told her that I thought about doing something to myself bc of everything going on. She told me no not to do that. They stood by me, my parents, the whole time.
Well, Mark and Tommy came up and got me to take me back to Ohio.
So , right now I live in Ohio. I am getting an apartment right now and looking for a good ob down here.
So, I feel like I have lost all my family.
I still cannot not forgive what my mom did to me.
Alos, I still cannot forgive my dad for what he did to me.
I have dreams at night about what happened that day. For 2 weeks I could not even sleep. I probably got 3 hours sleep each night.
I still can't deal with it. Sometimes I just crawl inside myself and I don't want to come out. I feel so numb right now it is not funny.
Krystle