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Frustrated.
No more musicals ever again. I gave it another shot- this time I had a good director and a good script. And I still hate it. I hate working with harmony and I hate backup dancing with little/no discernable character work. And that is all I ever get to do. Never again. I'm sick of crying in the bathroom to the point of popping a blood vessel in my nose, then hiding my face behind my hair so people don't get all concerned. It's kind of lame that I hate things just becuase I suck at them, but that is a flaw I am not interested in addressing right now.
Dear Mom, please stop touching my school stuff because though it looks to you like I have no method of organization, that is why it is SO FUCKING IMPORTANT that you not move stuff because I am the one who remembers where I put it. There is no system, but I remember where I put things. And then you move them into one big fucking stack so it takes me a half an hour to find ANYTHING. You only exacerbate the situation by putting my non-system in a place where my memory does not serve me at all.
No more musicals ever again. I gave it another shot- this time I had a good director and a good script. And I still hate it. I hate working with harmony and I hate backup dancing with little/no discernable character work. And that is all I ever get to do. Never again. I'm sick of crying in the bathroom to the point of popping a blood vessel in my nose, then hiding my face behind my hair so people don't get all concerned. It's kind of lame that I hate things just becuase I suck at them, but that is a flaw I am not interested in addressing right now.
Dear Mom, please stop touching my school stuff because though it looks to you like I have no method of organization, that is why it is SO FUCKING IMPORTANT that you not move stuff because I am the one who remembers where I put it. There is no system, but I remember where I put things. And then you move them into one big fucking stack so it takes me a half an hour to find ANYTHING. You only exacerbate the situation by putting my non-system in a place where my memory does not serve me at all.