today was a good day
I finally finally finally got the hang of things in my swing dance class today, which is a very good thing considering our mid-term is coming up in a few weeks. I no longer feel totally lost.
In my Chi Gung class, I think I figured out while I always start to feel ill while we do the first set of exercises. The first set of exercises we do helps us to release negative energy, and every time we do them, I begin to feel physically sick - nauseated, light headed, and like I need to sit down. In fact, it was after the last class and feeling ill in that manner that I immediately came down with my latest sinus infection (which thankfully is now gone). I was telling another girl in the class who's an Exercise and Wellness major about my problem with the first set of exercises, and she asked if I'm a particularly sensitive person - if I pick up on the energy and emotions of the people around me. (we all know the answer to that question is a resounding "YES!") She suggested that I might be absorbing the negative energy that the class releases during that first set and suggested that I do a little visualization of myself surrounded in a bubble of light. Well, sure enough, it worked. Problem solved! And, the rest of the class was much more enjoyable for me.
In Zen Meditation, I learned how to be slow and quiet and still - foreign skills in our western culture. During our sitting meditation, I had a bit of a light bulb moment. It was something I already knew, but today I realized it on a deeper level, if you know what I mean. Twas the idea that I am my own worst enemy; I create about 95% of the strife in my own life - not external problems, but the shit I create in my own head that gets in the way of me feeling happy and being productive. Really, the vast majority of what I struggle with is ME, not the outside world, not others or external circumstances. Dealing with people, making choices, communicating, doing homework, BEING and DOING - that shit is easy. It's my own head and my intrapersonal dialogue that get in the way and complicate things far more than they need to be. And the moral of the story is: I need to step outside my own head more often and stop sabotaging myself with negative thought patterns.
After class, I came home, took a shower, and ventured out to Kat's Korner for an evening of swing dancing. This touchy-feely guy from my class was there. He usually bugs the crap out of me when I have to partner with him in class - can't friggin' stand him. He asked me to dance, I reluctantly agreed (cause I need the practice) and we actually wound up having a blast! He spun me around like a rag doll and dipped me so low, I thought I might hit my head on the floor. But, I didn't, thankfully. Danced with lots of other guys too. Some of them were kind enough to teach me the ropes for dances I was unfamiliar with, like the Charleston. Anyway, it was lots and lots of fun, and I decided after tonight that I no longer hate swing dancing. In fact, I can't wait to go again! :D
Came home, practiced tap, and now I'm off to bed so I can get up and practice more tap in the morning before the kids come home.
Much love.
In my Chi Gung class, I think I figured out while I always start to feel ill while we do the first set of exercises. The first set of exercises we do helps us to release negative energy, and every time we do them, I begin to feel physically sick - nauseated, light headed, and like I need to sit down. In fact, it was after the last class and feeling ill in that manner that I immediately came down with my latest sinus infection (which thankfully is now gone). I was telling another girl in the class who's an Exercise and Wellness major about my problem with the first set of exercises, and she asked if I'm a particularly sensitive person - if I pick up on the energy and emotions of the people around me. (we all know the answer to that question is a resounding "YES!") She suggested that I might be absorbing the negative energy that the class releases during that first set and suggested that I do a little visualization of myself surrounded in a bubble of light. Well, sure enough, it worked. Problem solved! And, the rest of the class was much more enjoyable for me.
In Zen Meditation, I learned how to be slow and quiet and still - foreign skills in our western culture. During our sitting meditation, I had a bit of a light bulb moment. It was something I already knew, but today I realized it on a deeper level, if you know what I mean. Twas the idea that I am my own worst enemy; I create about 95% of the strife in my own life - not external problems, but the shit I create in my own head that gets in the way of me feeling happy and being productive. Really, the vast majority of what I struggle with is ME, not the outside world, not others or external circumstances. Dealing with people, making choices, communicating, doing homework, BEING and DOING - that shit is easy. It's my own head and my intrapersonal dialogue that get in the way and complicate things far more than they need to be. And the moral of the story is: I need to step outside my own head more often and stop sabotaging myself with negative thought patterns.
After class, I came home, took a shower, and ventured out to Kat's Korner for an evening of swing dancing. This touchy-feely guy from my class was there. He usually bugs the crap out of me when I have to partner with him in class - can't friggin' stand him. He asked me to dance, I reluctantly agreed (cause I need the practice) and we actually wound up having a blast! He spun me around like a rag doll and dipped me so low, I thought I might hit my head on the floor. But, I didn't, thankfully. Danced with lots of other guys too. Some of them were kind enough to teach me the ropes for dances I was unfamiliar with, like the Charleston. Anyway, it was lots and lots of fun, and I decided after tonight that I no longer hate swing dancing. In fact, I can't wait to go again! :D
Came home, practiced tap, and now I'm off to bed so I can get up and practice more tap in the morning before the kids come home.
Much love.