It appears school should be over soon.
I kept thinking about things last night, in a very silent manner, about how I get so bummed out that I'm not artistic enough, I'm not commited enough, etc. I started to realize that I focus so much on being something to my profs or whatever, that I get hopelessly lost and produce worse things than if I just got my hands dirty, tried a few things and just experimented with what I wanted to do.
I'm sure many people have had this realization, or they just thought it was instinctive but I think it's common around here... or at least, it's been common to me. Last night I determined that I was going to stop trying to make something that could compete with others projects (to which I haven't even seen) and instead create something that interested me. I don't care if it doesn't appear lofty enough or anything, I just want to experiment with what I like... as I think I should probably be doing by now. It's no wonder I don't enjoy making art anymore... because I make it out of obligation rather than interest. Oh how far off I've been.
That aside... I'm at school. I've got some sewing projects being exposed to light as we speak... granted, I think the more important of the two didn't coat as well with sensitizer as I'd hoped... I guess if all else fails I could re-sew it to make it look cool I just hope that somehow this image portrays a bit of what I'd hoped for and that I won't get so caught up in expectations that I miss out on what it does become...
I'm sure many people have had this realization, or they just thought it was instinctive but I think it's common around here... or at least, it's been common to me. Last night I determined that I was going to stop trying to make something that could compete with others projects (to which I haven't even seen) and instead create something that interested me. I don't care if it doesn't appear lofty enough or anything, I just want to experiment with what I like... as I think I should probably be doing by now. It's no wonder I don't enjoy making art anymore... because I make it out of obligation rather than interest. Oh how far off I've been.
That aside... I'm at school. I've got some sewing projects being exposed to light as we speak... granted, I think the more important of the two didn't coat as well with sensitizer as I'd hoped... I guess if all else fails I could re-sew it to make it look cool I just hope that somehow this image portrays a bit of what I'd hoped for and that I won't get so caught up in expectations that I miss out on what it does become...