oh, history involved itself
It's kind of bittersweet thinking about how she is living my life that I, at one point, thought was going to be mine forever. It's really awkward seeing pictures or just whatever on the internet dealing with them. I cant lie, its like I'm looking into a mirror, but I don't see myself (well obviously). I'm generally not really affected by this, as I am extremely happy with my life right now and fearful, but curious, and excited for the future. Sometimes it's just weird and puts me off into this little world of curiosity and just makes me wonder just a little bit more what my life would have been if I continued life as the way it was a year ago. A year isn't long though, and I am completely aware that it will take me much longer than that to kill these occasional drifts of thought. I have a list of really great things that have happened to me since then, and you know, I'd never trade them to go back to that time.