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I just had to call my instructor at CORE and tell him I was dropping classes.
I'm so upset over this and even though my parents and a few friends have been supportive and told me I'm not a failure, I still feel like it. I wish I could have tried harder and done better but now just isn't the time I suppose. There are so many factors... I'm so busy with both jobs I don't have much energy left to study or focus... payments each month are KILLING me... I'm not even sure if it's what I want to do with myself... I'm failing gradewise... I feel so far behind that it's frustrating... etc. I'm afraid of never finding any type of order in my life and always hating everything I do. I know I'm not lazy, I just can't find anything I like. :cry:
There is some good news. My mother said a position is opening up in her office for an ultrasound tech and I have pretty high chances of getting it, which means no more shitty cafe job. I'm trying so hard to be positive... I must say that my parents have been really awesome through this ordeal, which I did not expect. They deserve so much more credit than I could give them.
I'm waiting on a call from the Jacksborough courthouse to find out if I'll be going to jail or not. The whole incident from November is still going on and the next court date isn't even until 17 May. This is why I'm not an avid fan of illegal substances, people. *pulls hair out*
I'm so upset over this and even though my parents and a few friends have been supportive and told me I'm not a failure, I still feel like it. I wish I could have tried harder and done better but now just isn't the time I suppose. There are so many factors... I'm so busy with both jobs I don't have much energy left to study or focus... payments each month are KILLING me... I'm not even sure if it's what I want to do with myself... I'm failing gradewise... I feel so far behind that it's frustrating... etc. I'm afraid of never finding any type of order in my life and always hating everything I do. I know I'm not lazy, I just can't find anything I like. :cry:
There is some good news. My mother said a position is opening up in her office for an ultrasound tech and I have pretty high chances of getting it, which means no more shitty cafe job. I'm trying so hard to be positive... I must say that my parents have been really awesome through this ordeal, which I did not expect. They deserve so much more credit than I could give them.
I'm waiting on a call from the Jacksborough courthouse to find out if I'll be going to jail or not. The whole incident from November is still going on and the next court date isn't even until 17 May. This is why I'm not an avid fan of illegal substances, people. *pulls hair out*