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My last entry was not intended to be a "sick egotistical attention" scam. I got a lot of emails and comments about that and I wanted to clarify. Yes, I *know* the picture is unattractive and scary and I look a complete mess. What people seem to be missing is that it's ME. It's not make up, glitter, it's not drunken happiness. And I'm not trying to be seen as a victim or gain any sympathy. It's reality. It's a fucking picture.
It bothers me when people insist they know me so well when only a select few people have had access to this side of me, the real me.
I don't want to hear that I'm pretty or great, it only saddens me and makes me feel patronised, because frankly I feel ugly and expired. I put the picture up as a reminder of who I am, which is contrary to what people keep telling me. You can't see a person once a week or once a month at a club when they're at their fakest best and rightfully judge them and I am so tired of superficiality.
It bothers me when people insist they know me so well when only a select few people have had access to this side of me, the real me.
I don't want to hear that I'm pretty or great, it only saddens me and makes me feel patronised, because frankly I feel ugly and expired. I put the picture up as a reminder of who I am, which is contrary to what people keep telling me. You can't see a person once a week or once a month at a club when they're at their fakest best and rightfully judge them and I am so tired of superficiality.