Rejected...
you would think I'd be use to rejection...well i am use to it if it comes from a man. But a college...wow...my first choice college rejected me...at least that's what i understand from this shitastic internet application check up shit...yeah..FUCK THAT SHIT! Guess who's going to be stuck going to IVCC next year..you guessed it ME! though i was accpeted to two college, one that gave me a $40,000 scholarship for four years of college there...only problem, they don't really have what I'm interested in and if i go there then i can't really back out until four years is up...and IV is cheap...but I don't really want to go there and I definately don't want to stay living at home though it'd be much cheaper on me and my parents. I just don't want to feel like my mother is trying to control my life because she would. she still trys to make me go to sleep early. I'm eighteen and she's not letting me make my own mistakes and decisions....argh.....
thought it was nothing turns out it's something...
God..I need some good relaxation...good thing Justin is comin home this weekend and is going to make me relax lol. according to him at least lol..man i havn't seen him since june...wow...long time...
I haven't drank since new years...is that good?
I'm sore and a master at procrastination. guess that's why i didn't get in...oh fucking well...maybe i'll just become an electrical engineer because that sounds pretty cool and i always enjoyed playing with wires and shit...easy and fun....good chance at shocking myself also sooooo...LET'S DO IT! that or something artsy..because i'm artsy-like...I'm just gonna go to IV and move into an apartment somewhere in peru or spring valley maybe granville...i dunno...I give up...
i should go write those ten pages for those ten articles...due tomorrow....Wow i'm just a lazy fat ass....
as the depression sets in.
I'll always remain,
Lauren
thought it was nothing turns out it's something...
God..I need some good relaxation...good thing Justin is comin home this weekend and is going to make me relax lol. according to him at least lol..man i havn't seen him since june...wow...long time...
I haven't drank since new years...is that good?
I'm sore and a master at procrastination. guess that's why i didn't get in...oh fucking well...maybe i'll just become an electrical engineer because that sounds pretty cool and i always enjoyed playing with wires and shit...easy and fun....good chance at shocking myself also sooooo...LET'S DO IT! that or something artsy..because i'm artsy-like...I'm just gonna go to IV and move into an apartment somewhere in peru or spring valley maybe granville...i dunno...I give up...
i should go write those ten pages for those ten articles...due tomorrow....Wow i'm just a lazy fat ass....
as the depression sets in.
I'll always remain,
Lauren