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i throughly enjoy being bipolar. it really ya know. makes me appriciate things.
sike, im completely lying thru my teeth. i hate my life right now. i hate how one minute im the happiest person ever, then five minuteslater im ready to jump off a building and end it all. boy am i glad i got those wonderful feelings back.
theres just something wrong with me i guess. something that i can't describe or fully come out and say. something so hidden in my subconscious that it can't even be identified by all the shrinks in the tristate area. my cookie supply is running low so soon i'll need something else to use to fill that void that i have. but knowing my pessism that void will still be there and make me feel just as miserable as i felt before.
something tells me staying in was a bad idea. because now i just feel worse. and the fact that i just spent the last 45 minutes crying my eyes out to two songs just isn't helping me at all. konstantine and i kissed a drunk girl by soco just have so much meaning behind them for me.
all i want to do is just curl up in a ball next to someone and not feel so worthless. and i want to come out with something to say for once. everytime i want to talk, nothing. but when people don't want to talk thats all i can do.
im getting my nose peirced tomorrow and i know its going to hurt like a bitch and im going to cry.
i want to get out of biddeford! i hate college i want to go home already! why isn't it sprin break yet???!?!?
sike, im completely lying thru my teeth. i hate my life right now. i hate how one minute im the happiest person ever, then five minuteslater im ready to jump off a building and end it all. boy am i glad i got those wonderful feelings back.
theres just something wrong with me i guess. something that i can't describe or fully come out and say. something so hidden in my subconscious that it can't even be identified by all the shrinks in the tristate area. my cookie supply is running low so soon i'll need something else to use to fill that void that i have. but knowing my pessism that void will still be there and make me feel just as miserable as i felt before.
something tells me staying in was a bad idea. because now i just feel worse. and the fact that i just spent the last 45 minutes crying my eyes out to two songs just isn't helping me at all. konstantine and i kissed a drunk girl by soco just have so much meaning behind them for me.
all i want to do is just curl up in a ball next to someone and not feel so worthless. and i want to come out with something to say for once. everytime i want to talk, nothing. but when people don't want to talk thats all i can do.
im getting my nose peirced tomorrow and i know its going to hurt like a bitch and im going to cry.
i want to get out of biddeford! i hate college i want to go home already! why isn't it sprin break yet???!?!?