AWOL Due To A Hardware Or Software Glitch...
im popular with the wrong crowd, honey. chance said it best "im known for being pissed off and depressed... youre known for being fucked up and selling at damn good prices." i think we sum things like how ill go down in everyones memories very simply, and i like that. im suprised how many people ive run into since ive been working at this new place that i havent seen for months. i cant say im happy or even pleased about it, but its interesting seeing people. ive seen kids i thought would be back in jail, but they havent changed anyway. ive seen kids i never wanted to see again, but they seemed awfully happy to see me. i guess more people liked me than i thought, but theres still the obvious and manditory question that everyone i see asks-... "do you still smoke weed?"... well no, you jackass, unfortunately i cant waste my time sitting around a bong anymore. i miss it, but i know if i started again, id quit my job, start selling weed (amongst other things) and begin neglecting people i truly care about. i dont think drugs are bad, or that people cants handle them, but i do think i want to avoid them at least till im done with the whole "computer learning" thing. im not in a rush to use illegal substances, nor is it the first thing on my mind, but it certainly isnt a missing child on the side of a milk carton. i know for a fact that my drug use was not just drug use, but in some cases (though not all) a spiritual bonding. i can recall one such example in which i bonded with a friend or two in his emptied out pool. we sat in the bottom while wind howled overhead, and we smoked from my peace-pipe, talking and laughing and mocking everything around us. i suppose its things like that i miss more than being fucked up-... though i miss that too. some of the people ive met have changed their lifestyles, and definately for the better. they actually do more than buy weed with their allowance and smoke till theyre tired and sleep. again, i enjoy that, but i also like smoking a pack of cigarettes and going to hang out with my girlfriend and chance and ryan. we actually do things instead of sitting around asking one another what do you want to do?... but sometimes we still ask that question, cause without it, we wouldnt know what to do ^_^ drugs, sex and rock and roll-... these all still play a part in my life, but some more than others. "sex is like air... its not important unless youre not getting any."
...goodnight my friends.