One hit, One kiss

Aug 08, 2008 21:09




So for a while, I was completely obsessed with The Blood Brothers. I listened to them non-stop for a couple of months but then The Mars Volta started creeping in my playlist but now, now I am completely in to The Knife. They are my favourite right now. I'm so in love with their music.

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"Laser Life"
The Blood Brothers

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"Vermicide"
The Mars Volta

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"Marble House"
The Knife

My wrist has pretty much completely healed, although, I have had the pains return once or twice.

Scarcliff got me a job where he works so him, Vanessa and I work together. Raxxx used to work there for a bit too but that didn't last very long. The pay isn't too great but it's keeping me from being absolutely broke and I went to apply at four different hotels Monday so it's not like I'm comfortable there.




"Scarcliff"
Chris Rodriguez






Raxx, Scarcliff and Vanessa



Raxxx



My violins

I was trying to get back in school but because of my academic record, I got denied financial aid :( so that really brought me down.

I've been mostly working. Got six day shift so I haven't had time for much. I've been keeping productive though so I have a good amount of work up on my DA profile. Haven't worked on music the past couple of days cause my computer got a virus :( and my car crapped out on me. So no car. no internet. No money. I've been pretty occupied at home though. I've been hanging out with my cousin Jon here and there.




Jon, with me at Picante Grill




my enchiladas

I have/am in the process of lost/losing one of my closest friends, Matilda. Nobody was more acquainted with my inner child than her and that's how I felt when we were together, like a couple of kids just having fun and being ourselves. We have known each other for five years and she is exiting my life because she's decided starting a relationship is more important than staying friends with me.I guess it's been a process cause she had slowly started to stand me up when we made plans and was always texting/getting texted when we hung out. I really wouldn't have minded if she didn't lie to me the whole time. I told her I would give her space and I realized it was going to be permanent or a very, very long break. Since then, she made plans with me but keeps postponing and postponing. I'm beginning to care less and less but it has been a very painful process for me to let go of her.

Also, two of my closest friends have been distant. I'm not that close with many people but with those I am, I hold dear. And I feel very alone right now. I'm not blaming them, I know they are busy. i'm just going through tough times right now.

But I'm getting better at dealing with it. One good thing I do have in my life is the relationship with the most wonderful woman ever. She is so sweet to me and I am very much in love with her. There is so much passion and substance in our relationship. I never believed in "soul mates" until I met her, there are just too many funny little coincidences in our lives. She makes me feel very special and worthwhile. She's just so amazing. Talented and breath takingly beautiful. Very caring and thoughful. Without her, I would feel completely alone right now. We aren't together yet but we're talking about getting married and having kids one day. She just makes me very happy and I would love to spend the rest of my life with her. To fall asleep with her in my arms every night and wake to see her beautiful face first thing every morning. She is so inspiring. Almost all my recent work is inspired by her in some way.

I'm going through a lot of crap at home. Lots of tension and things aren't really looking too good right now. I wish I were capable of just moving out. I feel like such a burden here.

Leo's getting big.

Leo 2 by ~aRs-nOVa on deviantART

So over all, my life is pretty crappy right now. I have never been so financially drained. Well, it could be worse, so I'm grateful for that. I'm just used to having money in my pocket. Chris called me last night and told me he can get me a job, which I start tonight. It's only Saturdays but the pay sounds great. I called into work and told them I can't make it today. Trying to get my brother a job there since he quit his job. He was working and living with Noe for a while.



Most recent card reading

What else? Have met some interesting individuals but haven't hung out with any of them. Met some pretty cool people at work. When I've ben bumming it, I've been watching movies that I borrowed from Todd and Raxxx. O yeah, Doc successfully left the group. :( I know it's selfish but I'm really gonna miss having him around. He was a brilliant individual. Also, Todd is leaving soon :( Mike got a tattoo machine and has been inking my friends. I've yet to get one but I've been thinking about it.



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