Ive Wasted My Time
It all comes down to this. All the trying i do to impress her all the things i never did that i wanted to do all the thinking that ive done about her is just a fucking big pile of shit.I wasted my time. Im really sorry she doesnt like me anymore. Im sorry no one seems to like me that way. In ways it kinda hurts. There may be one person that would even bother to go out with me but i cant trust her. Shes fucked up my head and i dont think my heart can take much more of that. Im so lonely. I dont like it. Although i may have a prom date shes just a friend. She would never go out with me. I probably wouldnt go out with her because my friendship with jimmy is way more important than a girl. And lindsay will never go out with me as much as i think she is hot and funny it would never happen. And i know i have wicked bad self esteem but i would like you to give me 1 reason why i should have a better self esteem. I seriously hate myself. I hate the way this world is. I hate how we can hurt people on free will. I hate being hurt and i hate this pain depression gives me. i hate the stupid things we do and then it comes back and shoves its foot right up our ass. The only thing i like about living is the true friends i have. I would never give a certain amount of people up no matter how much shit they give me. Im not going to list every single person but theres people out there that i can just say anything to and they will listen. Like Joey and Andrew. As much shit we put each other through we will still be best friends. And bob and jimmy. They help me a lot when im down to laugh. Cox and Jackie help too. Theres others but those people help me the most. Id give the world for them. Well im just destined to be single and not happy. The person we call God just doesnt feel like helping me. Well comment if you want. Could care less because none of you comment as it is.