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so reading some entries from this from about a year ago really made me go "wow, that was me?"
I'm fucking crazy. I feel nothing like that now, and I have a feeling that I'm much more comfortable with myself and that I feel like I have more power over my life and who I want to be, and I do. I also realize that it makes no sense, what I did all last year. I can't really put my finger on what it was that changed me exactly; I think it was a combination of people and my age, and I just got sucked into being a stupid teenager wasting their life with other stupid fucks. I just all of a sudden stopped giving a shit, that was it. I don't know what it was the broke that made me do that. And I don't ever want to do that to myself again.
Fuck that. It's time to stop fucking around now that I have what I've needed for some time, which is living in the room and just doing whatever which includes not fucking up and around to much.
:)
I'm fucking crazy. I feel nothing like that now, and I have a feeling that I'm much more comfortable with myself and that I feel like I have more power over my life and who I want to be, and I do. I also realize that it makes no sense, what I did all last year. I can't really put my finger on what it was that changed me exactly; I think it was a combination of people and my age, and I just got sucked into being a stupid teenager wasting their life with other stupid fucks. I just all of a sudden stopped giving a shit, that was it. I don't know what it was the broke that made me do that. And I don't ever want to do that to myself again.
Fuck that. It's time to stop fucking around now that I have what I've needed for some time, which is living in the room and just doing whatever which includes not fucking up and around to much.
:)