Apr 21, 2005 16:44
DISCOVERING THE GAME
It all started over some sushi at little Japanese joint in Harvard Square. I'd never had a guy take me out for sushi before, as a matter of fact I'd never really had a guy take me out, just like I'd never had a guy buy me roses, either. I didn't come from that kind of culture.
They guys I always dated were punks, and they never had enough money for a decent bottle of whiskey, let alone a sushi dinner.
I never really dated them, either. It was like, one day I'm this guy's drinking buddy, then I wake up naked next to him in a park somewhere, and all the sudden I'm his old lady.
It's not a bad situation, really. It seems to work for the hobo kids. You end up with a decent partner half the time, and everybody hates themselves anyway, so it's not ike you expect too much from each other.
It never really worked for me, though, 'cause I was looking for Love, and you sure don't find it like that.
I discovered later that you also don't find it by 'dating' guys you don't like, whether or not they buy you sushi or roses or whatever, but at this point I was very new to the game.