A Deep Sadness
Yeah today started off pretty good but well...now it's not. I called Stu to ask him to meet me online and he basically told me no. It makes me sad because it feels as though he is either avoiding me or just tired of me. *Sigh* Yeah so now I am kind of down. I'm probably just overreacting. I dunno...I just wish I had his support. I know he does support me but lately I've been feeling kind of down and he's too busy to pay me any attention. Oh well...
I'm waiting nervously for the stuff for the postal exams to come through the mail. I'm going to stay positive about it because I really believe that I can pass it. When that happens, things should only get better. Well...that's what I am hoping for anyway. I have been really trying my best to get up at a decent time and do what needs to be done. So far I have been pretty good in the last three days so yay for me! ^_^ I think I am going to have to work tonight. Not sure yet...I will call in a bit but yeah. Guess it will do some good to go back to work. I need the money and I know this paycheque will blow nut sac. *Sigh*
Man...I hate feeling this way. My head hurts slightly, my stomach still hurts and now...I'm even sadder than before. Stu says he's not avoiding me but it doesn't take the sadness away. Then he says that I call at bad times and expect him to stop everything to call me or whatever. I don't. It would be nice to talk to him every now and then but I guess that is too much to ask for. I don't expect him to do anything...just love me and support anything I decide to do...oh well. Guess I ask too much. I don't like this topic...
Kaitlin has been a very good girl today. She woke up around 9.30 am. I was surprised that she was in a really good mood. I got her dressed, fed her and got her ready to go to Daycare. She was really good though. She didn't do things that she wasn't supposed to and basically just listened to everything I told her to do. I didn't have to yell at her once. It made me really happy. Anyhow, I don't really have anything else to bitch about so I will end it here.
I'm waiting nervously for the stuff for the postal exams to come through the mail. I'm going to stay positive about it because I really believe that I can pass it. When that happens, things should only get better. Well...that's what I am hoping for anyway. I have been really trying my best to get up at a decent time and do what needs to be done. So far I have been pretty good in the last three days so yay for me! ^_^ I think I am going to have to work tonight. Not sure yet...I will call in a bit but yeah. Guess it will do some good to go back to work. I need the money and I know this paycheque will blow nut sac. *Sigh*
Man...I hate feeling this way. My head hurts slightly, my stomach still hurts and now...I'm even sadder than before. Stu says he's not avoiding me but it doesn't take the sadness away. Then he says that I call at bad times and expect him to stop everything to call me or whatever. I don't. It would be nice to talk to him every now and then but I guess that is too much to ask for. I don't expect him to do anything...just love me and support anything I decide to do...oh well. Guess I ask too much. I don't like this topic...
Kaitlin has been a very good girl today. She woke up around 9.30 am. I was surprised that she was in a really good mood. I got her dressed, fed her and got her ready to go to Daycare. She was really good though. She didn't do things that she wasn't supposed to and basically just listened to everything I told her to do. I didn't have to yell at her once. It made me really happy. Anyhow, I don't really have anything else to bitch about so I will end it here.