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it bothers me so much that such an amazing individual is just letting there life spiral downwards , and think its like some big joke.
i loove that girl with my whole heart!
she was my first true best friend , and she will always have a certain place in my heart/life.
i use to be so jealous of her. she was everything i wanted to be.
and somehow it has turned around. and its the other way around.
i am living the life she wished to have , with the friends she never go to make , the job she never had the oppurtunity to take, the ability to say no... just everything.
it brings me down so much to know that 2 people who are so much alike , turned out so different , yet when placed together can act like nothing ever changed them.
its like im still 13 again crushing over that one guy or doing something stupid that are parents would never approve of.
i miss that girl!
i would love to have her back in my life
and as stupid as i think she is for letting shit get this back ,
and all the horrible opinions i've had of her because of what she turned her life into.
it makes me feel shitty that i could feel that way about her.or say nasty things about her. being she really did impact my life.
im going to try and maintain a fair friendship with her , and although things will never be like they were. maybe i can show her that drugs and drinking arent the world!
instead of her glasses of wine! she had COCA COLA!
hey, its a start : )
++sucks i didnt get to hang with my 2 other halfs tonight.
its been like 2 weeks since we all hung out, i miss em already! i need to see them!!!!!
i loove that girl with my whole heart!
she was my first true best friend , and she will always have a certain place in my heart/life.
i use to be so jealous of her. she was everything i wanted to be.
and somehow it has turned around. and its the other way around.
i am living the life she wished to have , with the friends she never go to make , the job she never had the oppurtunity to take, the ability to say no... just everything.
it brings me down so much to know that 2 people who are so much alike , turned out so different , yet when placed together can act like nothing ever changed them.
its like im still 13 again crushing over that one guy or doing something stupid that are parents would never approve of.
i miss that girl!
i would love to have her back in my life
and as stupid as i think she is for letting shit get this back ,
and all the horrible opinions i've had of her because of what she turned her life into.
it makes me feel shitty that i could feel that way about her.or say nasty things about her. being she really did impact my life.
im going to try and maintain a fair friendship with her , and although things will never be like they were. maybe i can show her that drugs and drinking arent the world!
instead of her glasses of wine! she had COCA COLA!
hey, its a start : )
++sucks i didnt get to hang with my 2 other halfs tonight.
its been like 2 weeks since we all hung out, i miss em already! i need to see them!!!!!