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I miss you so much it hurts inside.
And I hate you for hurting me. And I hate you for using me.
And I want to hate myself for being used and hurt by you, when in truth I enjoyed it too much to ever really hate you.
I wish I could blame you for everything, be miserable and just hate you, but I never said you couldn't. I never said no.
And these feelings for you cannot have gone unreciprocated. Not like that.
And I miss you so fucking much.
And I hate you for hurting me. And I hate you for using me.
And I want to hate myself for being used and hurt by you, when in truth I enjoyed it too much to ever really hate you.
I wish I could blame you for everything, be miserable and just hate you, but I never said you couldn't. I never said no.
And these feelings for you cannot have gone unreciprocated. Not like that.
And I miss you so fucking much.