Addictive Obsession - Chapter twenty-seven [part I]
Title: Addictive obsession
Authors: aroruae & fighter_of_moon
Pairing: Akame, slight Kokame & Jinda
Genre: Smut, AU, drama, tragedy
Warnings: use of drugs, whoring, slaving, insanity, bad language, incest and a lot more to come xD You've been warned, so don't read if you don't want to see them in a lot of pain *evil laugh*
Disclaimer: They don't belong to us, but we're in the process of making it true!! The proof is Jin's twitter~ And now his facebook and OMG, youtube account!!
Summary: Kazuya’s addiction becomes Jin’s obsession. They came to need each other to the extend of wanting to kill.
A/N: I have to say that I've written a lot of stories, but this is one that will surely remain imprinted in my mind and heart as it's one of my favorites EVER. These characters that we've created have been through a lot and we, the writers and hopefully the readers too, have suffered, cried and laughed along with them, that you have felt their happiness and sorrow as powerfully as we have felt them, writing each one of their emotions. Jin and Kazuya are complex characters and we've had a hard time to realize exactly what it is that they want from us and how to portray them to look as realistic as possible without exaggerating that much. I really wish that we have managed to send their feelings to you and that they will remain in your heart, the same they will remain in ours too <3
I'm really sad to see this story ending, but I'm confident that this final chapter will be a tumult of emotions once more, that it will leave you hanging and wondering about the ending. And we would really love to hear your opinions about the ending because we - alright, I *laughs* - have changed our mind a lot of times and we have thought a lot of how to create an ending that will please and surprise you in the same time, without forgetting about the nature of the characters. I would really love to know your thoughts about the ending, so a comment will be much appreciated at this last chapter ^^
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Addictive Time Community for NEW AKAME STORIES
First Scent ~ Strawberry
Second Scent ~ Poison
Third Scent ~ Musk
Fourth Scent ~ Ecstasy
Fifth Scent ~ Spring
Sixth Scent ~ Fear
Seventh Scent ~ Sky
Eighth Scent ~ Winter
Ninth Scent ~ Loneliness
Tenth scent ~ Run
Eleventh Scent ~ You
Twelfth Scent ~ Statice
Thirteenth Scent ~ Body
Fourteenth Scent ~ Memory
Fifteenth Scent ~ Toxic
Sixteenth Scent ~ Narcotic
Seventeenth Scent ~ Hollow
Eighteenth Scent ~ Mother
Nineteenth Scent ~ Love
Twentieth Scent ~ Tomorrow
Twenty-first Scent ~ Rewind
Twenty-second Scent ~ Blood
Twenty-third Scent ~ Madness
Twenty-fourth Scent ~ Bonds
Twenty-fifth Scent ~ Betrayal
Twenty-sixth Scent ~ Home
Chapter twenty-seven
Twenty-seventh scent ~ End
We’re born, we grow up, we die. We fall in love, we feel happy, we break up. We smile, we laugh, we cry. Sometimes, it seems that no matter what we’re doing, we’re always going to end up with a bitter smile on our lips, saying that maybe it would have been better if it had never happened. The truth hurts too much and life is often made only to hurt you even more, to show you what you want but can’t have. It teases us, it drives us crazy and in the end it kills us slowly but surely.
We trust, we get hurt, we trust again. We love helplessly, we cry, but in the end we’ll still fall in love because that is the nature of humans - to repeat mistakes, over and over, knowing that it isn’t right but still doing it. We see the fire burning in front of us, but we still push our hand through it. We know we might end up crying for the umpteenth time, but we still choose to go on and to love the next person that steals our heart.
Because we believe. We believe in humankind and we believe that there is someone out there for us, someone that won’t take advantage and that will love us unconditionally.
Sometimes, the hope is futile. But other times, we might just get what we’re hoping for.
His head hurt like hell, but at least he seemed to be feeling better than when he had fallen asleep. His wrists were sore and as Jin tried to move them, he realized that it only hurt more if he touched them so with a defeated sigh, he let both of his hands fall on the bed as he slowly opened his eyes to take in his surroundings. His mind was oddly clear after the drugs he had taken last night. It was kind of weird in one way to be feeling so light after such a night, but Jin wasn’t one to complain so he just took it as it came.
“Kazuya?” he whispered with a heavy voice, feeling his throat hurting and his limbs crushing him as he tried to move, his eyes falling on the younger one’s form who was standing close to the bed, seeming to be examining Jin with a somehow scared and insecure expression. Jin’s eyes immediately darted to his hands but only to find out that he was still free which meant that Kazuya had finally trusted him. Then… why was he looking like that? “Are you okay?” he then asked, standing up on his butt and looking at the other one with an inquiring expression.
Kazuya managed to crack a smile as he leaned closer to Jin, carefully studying his features. “Awake?” He said on a hoarse voice, his eyes shining with something undetermined - maybe doubt, maybe hunger, but definitely something that Kazuya hadn’t expressed up till now. He lifted a hand and touched Jin over the cheek sort of fearful, even if he didn’t look like that at all, he was more like curious of what reaction Jin will have at his touch. “Does it still hurt?” Kazuya asked with a worried tone, putting aside his weirdness from earlier.
“No, I’m perfectly fine.” Jin answered, covering Kazuya’s hand with his own and leaning his head into their entwined hands. He was happy to see that the boy seemed to be back to normal and that all that craziness had passed. It was better this way, he loved this caring and loving Kazuya, especially after all they had been through to get to this point. He didn’t want to lose this feeling ever again. “I’m glad that you finally believe me.” He then added with a light smile, his eyes studying Kazuya’s ones with a content glint sparkling in them.
The younger one revealed his teeth in a beautiful smile but it quickly faltered as he pulled his hand back, away from Jin, and reverted to his doubtful and fearful self from earlier. “Actually…” Kazuya started, biting the inside of his cheek, looking at Jin and his eyes were glazed with a sort of inexplicable hunger for the other one. “I’m still wondering.” He revealed his thoughts and his own fingers laced themselves in a nervous manner. He wasn’t sure if he was supposed to ask this after all that had happened between them, after all that this scorching feeling of love he had for Jin had made him do. But last night had him wondering and wondering around the same question.
Did Jin mean what he had said?
Of course, there were chances for him to have lied under the influence of the drug, but in the same time… why would he have said such a thing, knowing that it will hurt him more than anything? Kazuya wasn’t sure if he could really ask Jin about this, but after the older one had fallen asleep, he hadn’t been able to stop himself from thinking and thinking about what it would have been if Jin really accepted him in that way. As his mother’s son, he had lost any right of being someone else’s active lover and as Jin’s toy… he never really had an option.
But Jin had made him feel loved and showed him love - in a weird way, but he did - and Kazuya couldn’t stop his thoughts regarding the words Jin had said last night.
I would give up at anything for you. My dignity, my pride, my life, my everything.
I want you to be inside of me, Kazuya.
And now, Kazuya wasn’t able to let go of such words, wasn’t able to suppress the hunger for Jin that had been born a long time ago before even the older one had suggested such a thing. It had all started with a phone call and had ended now with a painful drug.
Yet… was Jin willing to accept Kazuya like this, now that he wasn’t under the influence of narcotics?
“Wondering about what?” Jin asked with a confused expression, narrowing his eyes as he didn’t understand at all what was the younger one referring to and lifting his hand towards Kazuya to call him back as he wanted to hold his lover in his embrace once more, to feel his skin and his heartbeat and to know that he was there and wouldn’t leave.
Kazuya shook his head in rejection to Jin’s invitation as he didn’t want to miss any of his lover’s expressions, as he needed to ascertain that there had been some truth behind the words Jin had said last night. Maybe he won’t have him in this aspect too, but he could accept that at some point, the intention and need had existed. “Do you remember last night?” He asked, his eyes sparkling with past events. “Your words to me?” Kazuya quickly added, feeling that it was impossible for one to forget the pain Jin seemed to have felt last night.
Jin opened his mouth to ask exactly what words, but his expression changed in the middle of his action and his eyes darkened as he remembered what he had said last night. Of course he did, it wasn’t like he used to say such words just to anybody and, to be honest, there weren’t that many people who had had this chance. “That I wouldn’t mind being bottom for you?” he asked with a light voice, seeming genuinely interested in Kazuya’s answer. Then his lips curled up into a smirk as he proceeded to add with a perverted and somehow alluring voice - “Interested?”
Kazuya gulped as he lowered his eyes, unable to hide the desire and surprise hearing Jin saying this which almost seemed like he wasn’t bothered by the idea. But the younger didn’t want Jin to only not be bothered, he wanted him to want it, to need it too. Just accepting it like this wasn’t enough. He was getting greedy, no?
“Well…” Kazuya dared to look at Jin, licking his lips nervously. “… I thought that you were just delirious from pain.” He said and fidgeted with his fingers, now slightly trembling. Truth to be told, he was anxious for such an act to happen, but in the same time he was scared - he had long suppressed the desire to be active in bed.
Jin let a sigh escape his lips. “Kazuya, come to me.” He asked once again, stretching his hand towards the other one who took it reluctantly, his eyes studying the older one as if he was half-expecting a laugh and a sudden mock to come. Jin did neither one of this as he pulled the boy close to him until Kazuya landed on his lap and he could circle his hands around the younger one’s waist, his head resting on the other one’s shoulder. “That drug didn’t affect my mind.” He confessed as he pressed his lips onto Kazuya’s shoulder, lingering a little on the small spot of skin that he had discovered under the boy’s clothes. “I meant what I said and I still want that. It’s not like I don’t know that you want it too so…” he shrugged a little to show that he was okay with this idea and that he didn’t mind doing it for Kazuya.
Because it was him and no one else.
The younger one shivered a little as Jin’s lips were hot on his cold skin and he couldn’t suppress either the growling lust that rushed through all of his body, making the closeness between him and Jin sizzle. “It’s hard to believe you on this one.” Kazuya whispered as he cuddled more into Jin’s warmth, nuzzling his nose in the crook of Jin’s neck. “I don’t want you to do something just to prove that you love me.” In a desperate manner, he bit Jin’s skin painfully. “I’m sick of having you trying to please me, to coax me into believing you.” He growled, half realizing what he was really saying. But it was true - while he wished for the one he loved to treat him well, with respect and care, he didn’t actually need that. He just wanted to be possessed like it had happened many times. “I want you to have me like I want to have you - not mild, but wild, not love, but hate. Jin, I love you, God knows why, but I’ll be damned if I want a nice and light love with you!” Kazuya continued and now he was pulling on Jin’s ear lob as his hands were greedily and needy touching the other one all over.” Not that you can offer me one.” The boy chuckled into Jin’s ear as he pulled back and all of his feelings were clearly expressed on his face - love, anger, lust, despair, desire, hunger. He was once more bare in front of Jin, having reached a point where he didn’t care what Jin did to him or he to Jin as long as they were together.
Jin’s eyes darkened and his hands clutched onto the boy’s shirt. He felt the blood rushing to his head and the control that he had mustered was completely broken now because of the younger one’s words. Maybe Kazuya was right though, maybe this wasn’t whom Jin really was because, no matter what he did, he always wanted Kazuya with all of his being and suppressing this feeling wasn’t doing any good for neither one of them.
With a rushed move, he pushed the younger one away from him, swapping their position and pinning Kazuya to the bed as Jin hollered above him, their eyes meeting and the older one letting his lover see all the lust and desire he had hidden in them for so long. “You’re right, I can’t offer you a nice and light love.” He said, thrusting his hips and loving the way Kazuya’s voice sounded because of his touches. “The only thing I can offer you is this.” He added and leaned down, catching Kazuya’s lips into a rough and demanding kiss, biting the boy’s lips and sucking on them like a famished man, like he hadn’t kissed Kazuya for an eternity and like he’d lose him any moment now. “So if you want to have me the same way, then earn it.” Jin hissed as he bit the younger one’s ear lob hard and painfully, soothing it after with his tongue and licking it teasingly after blowing some hot air into the boy’s ear. “Make me want you the same way, Kazuya.” Jin whispered with a low and aroused voice into his lover’s voice, stopping for a moment all his movements and then suddenly grinding his hips into Kazuya’s.
The younger one threw his head back, a raw and guttural sound escaping his lips, sinfully and secretly having wished for such a thing to happen - for a long time. Then he turned to gaze at Jin and there was a devilish smirk on his face as he returned Jin’s thrusts with some of his own. “I’ll have you beg for it.” Kazuya said with a defiant voice and with a sudden and unexpected move, he reversed their positions and pushed Jin backwards with his whole body until the older one had his legs bent and his back hit the bed’s rail. Kazuya wriggled his legs out and straddled Jin, his hands still in the older one’s hold. But the position was a vulnerable one for Jin as he was exposed to Kazuya’s devilish ideas. “I’ll be the only one in your mind while I’ll be inside of you, I’ll make you forget everyone else that had touched you so deep.” He hissed angrily, recalling that Pi had mentioned something of having topped Jin. He gave a slow and tantalizing roll of his hips as he leaned to bite Jin’s shoulder, Jin’s nipple now so dearly exposed to him as the other one was still naked while he had gotten dressed while waiting for Jin to wake up. “I’ll weaken you just like you did to me.” Kazuya whispered as he pushed his body into Jin’s, making the other wince a little because the rail wasn’t a cushion and it definitely wasn’t soft.
“Are you sure you can do that, babe?” Jin laughed, throwing his head back as he wanted to give Kazuya more space. It only seemed like that though because his hands released the boy’s ones and Jin let them circle Kazuya’s waist, his fingers sneaking under the younger one’s pants and teasingly digging his nails into his ass as his fingers brushed over Kazuya’s hole briefly and fleetingly. “Prove to me if you can make me scream more than anyone else did,” he then provoked with a slightly mocking voice, tilting his head as his eyes were half-opened and looking at Kazuya, “if you can touch me like I touch you and make me feel the same pleasure.”
Something snapped inside of Kazuya as he listened to Jin’s words and his hand instinctively clutched itself into Jin’s hair, bringing his face on the same level before he forcefully claimed Jin’s lips. “You bastard.” He muttered and crushed their mouths once more as his other hand slipped between their bodies and brushed over Jin’s exposed and bare member. “You like it rough as well.” He mumbled and bit hard on his lover’s lower lip, causing it to throb with pain and bleed slightly. “But…” Kazuya chuckled darkly as he let go of Jin’s hair, his fingers brushing tantalizingly over Jin’s face and chest. “… I’m going slow, baby. I’m going to drive you mad.” He continued and leaned to suck on Jin’s nipple, passing his tongue over the hardened nub slowly and teasingly. “So mad…” He added and his hands started to trace the lean body of Jin’s, dipping his nails into his hips painfully as they started to make their way between Jin’s legs, carefully avoiding the slowly awakening cock, but not before teasing it a little.
Just a little.
Jin groaned in despair, closing his eyes and letting himself fall prey to Kazuya’s administration. His touches were intoxicating and every time their lips would touch, Jin felt shivers passing through his whole body, making him want more but knowing that he won’t be able to obtain it that easily. He wanted to be Kazuya’s too but this slow way of making love was testing his limits and soon enough, Jin found himself changing their position yet again and pinning the younger one to the bed for the second time that night. A smirk settled on his lips as Jin leaned down and licked Kazuya’s lips in a taunting way, his eyes sparkling with mischief as he grinded his hips into the boy’s, his hands now freeing Kazuya’s to take care of his clothes which were making him feel irritated.
“Babe, you have to do more than that to make me fall under you.” Jin provoked yet again the other one, not wanting to give up at their little game, loving how Kazuya kept struggling to gain control over them and laughing inside when he failed to do so.
Kazuya’s eyes darkened at the way Jin was subjugating him. “Like?” He asked roughly, his hands pulling his lover down for a hot session of making out. “Do you have a weak spot or something?” He continued and his legs spread under Jin’s, stretching the older one too. Kazuya’s toes curled as he lifted his hips, pushing and putting pressure on his lover’s member. “Or you prefer having other men fill you?” The younger one snarled and his nails dug into Jin’s shoulder as he let his body slip under Jin, now his mouth biting and sucking on Jin’s collarbones.
“I prefer to fuck and not to be fucked.” Jin breathed, cursing through gritted teeth as he knew that Kazuya was now attacking his collarbones on purpose, with the intention of making him fall under his spell. It was half working, Jin mused as he closed his eyes and forgot for a moment that he had to finish and undress Kazuya, letting himself enjoy the way Kazuya’s lips felt against his skin and the friction between their bodies that was driving Jin crazy because he was completely naked and Kazuya was still dressed, the hardness of his jeans brushing against his crotch and making him moan because of the pleasure mixed with a bit of pain.
“Right.” Kazuya snickered from under Jin, going down on him, now his lips teasing his nipples, tongue brushing over them before trailing further on the skin and stopping at the navel, dipping its tip into the belly button and then biting slowly on its round margins. “You’re a whore, Jin.” His voice came muffled as his hands grabbed Jin’s thighs and held them apart as he wriggled more under his lover’s body, now his mouth facing Jin’s hard and erect member. He smiled and slithered his tongue over the pink head of the cock, feeling the older one shuddering at his action. “Of course you like to be fucked.” Kazuya sniggered and gave a quick and wet lick to the twitching member before slipping away completely from under Jin’s body’s prison.
A light push and his lover went face down on the bed as Kazuya straddled him, Jin’s round and soft ass pushing against his clothed crotch.
“Such a nice view, babe.” Kazuya said admiringly as he pushed his hands over Jin’s broad and smooth back, spreading his palms to touch and feel more as his body gave light sways over Jin’s ass, clearly showing that this was what Kazuya will be doing later to him.
Jin hummed in agreement though he wasn’t really sure what he was agreeing with. He had his eyes still closed and his arms were spread over the bed, his body slightly shivering under Kazuya’s touches and administrations. While he couldn’t really deny that he was a whore, Jin hated not to be in control and not have things go his way, but being like this with Kazuya didn’t actually bother him as much as he had thought it would. On the contrary, it seemed like his whole body was shuddering in expectation, anxiously waiting for the moment when he’ll be owned by Kazuya like he had done with the younger one so many times.
He half opened his eyes and looked at his lover, lust and passion clearly written in those orbs darkened with desire. “Fuck me already or I’m going to fuck you and I’ll make sure that you won’t be able to get up tomorrow morning.” He threatened through gritted teeth, not wanting to wait any more and to be teased into this. He already wanted Kazuya and nothing else mattered.
The younger one chuckled as he leaned over Jin, sucking and biting on his back, enjoying the moans his lover was letting out. “So impatient.” He chuckled against the hot skin as his hands slipped between them and started fumbling with his already half opened jeans. This was a teasing position as Kazuya could undress himself and touch Jin’s ass in the same time, loving the way the older one trembled from time to time. He slid out of his jeans and boxers, now standing bare above Jin as he also got rid of his shirt, his erect member brushing over the soft ass. “Impatient as you are…” Kazuya whispered against Jin’s back, as his tongue trailed down on his spine, enjoying the shuddering of his lover’s body. “… I must stretch you, babe.” He chuckled as he seeped his teeth into the flesh, before he lowered himself, his hands settling over the round cheeks. “I want you wet and ready, love.” Kazuya chuckled and his tongue slipped between the crack of Jin’s ass, meeting the hot and tensed muscle of the older one’s hole.
Jin took a short intake of breath and his heart stopped at that sudden moment. His whole body shuddered and Jin couldn’t stop thinking of how would it be if Kazuya let his tongue slide along his butt cheeks some more and lean inside of him, licking and making him go crazy as he was doing right now with just his teasing moves. It had been a long time since he had let someone toy with him like this and Jin was growing more impatient with each movement of Kazuya’s, with each of his touch that was meant to taunt Jin and not give him the pleasure that he needed. It wasn’t enough and now Jin wanted more, wanted to feel more of Kazuya’s tongue and more of his fingers dancing on his back and then inside of him.
He had never thought that he would enjoy this much being submissive to someone. The only men that had touched him this way had been in the time when he was still learning about sex and when he just wanted to find out more and didn’t care that much about who was topping whom. Even so, there had been few men who had had this privilege and even if Yamapi had been the one to do it the most, Jin had refused it after a few years and had been the only one active in their relationship. For Jin, it had become like a sign of submitting yourself to the other one and he knew that Kazuya had been aware of this from the beginning - that was why this mattered this much for both of them and for their future together.
A whimper left Jin’s lips as Kazuya trailed a line on his ass and the older one moved his body to meet more of Kazuya’s tongue, but the younger one didn’t allow him and put his hands on his waist to stop Jin from moving, chuckling yet again at the impatience of his lover.
“Kazuya…” Jin breathed and whined in the same time, opening again his eyes which had closed again at some point - probably when Kazuya had decided to push him to his limits and see how much he could stand without being in control while he was being teased like that - and looking at the other one through a foggy gaze.
“That’s my name, love.” The young boy chuckled as he put his hands on Jin’s thighs, pushing his legs apart, giving him more access to his lover’s more intimate parts. “Don’t you ever forget it.” Kazuya growled threateningly as his nails dug into Jin’s flesh and his tongue, wet and hot, puckered his twitching hole, getting a low and muffled moan as his lover clutched the sheets around him. Kazuya’s hands climbed up on the thighs, feeling his boyfriend, and his fingers teased that spot right behind his balls which made Jin’s body twitch. A snigger left his mouth, sending hot puffs of air over Jin’s contracting muscle and soon enough, his tongue was replaced by his thick fingers which pushed inside Jin more and more, making a scissor like movement.
“Tell me how much you want me inside of you.” Kazuya demanded before his teeth seeped into the soft flesh, his fingers thrusting deeper into the other one.
“Do you really need me to say that?” Jin replied with a sly smirk as he pushed his body more into Kazuya’s fingers, moaning loudly at the sensations invading his body that he hadn’t felt for such a long time. Honestly now, he couldn’t really remember when was the last time he had submitted himself to another person and had let another man fuck him like this, but now his body seemed to have gained a mind of its own and it made Jin react in ways that he had never expected. “I’ll just need to show you.” he then laughed and pushed his body up, supporting it on his palms as he lifted himself up with Kazuya’s fingers still in him, sitting down on four legs to gain some more stability over his own body. “Fuck me, Kazuya, or I’ll fuck you senseless right now.” He threatened again even if it didn’t sound as serious as earlier because of his moans and the way his ass kept pushing itself into the younger one’s fingers, asking and pleading to be given more.
“You’re such a whore.” Kazuya laughed and buried his teeth into Jin’s left ass cheek, loving the way the older one’s voice broke at his action and how his hole tightened around his fingers. Jin laughed again and threw his head back to look at Kazuya who now had a smirk on his lips, desire meeting lust as their eyes found each other.
“Look who’s talking.” Jin said with a knowing smile. “The first words I heard from you were ‘wanna have sex?’ so don’t deny that you’re much more of a whore than I am.” He accused though he didn’t seem to be upset because of this fact and actually loving it and making him fall in love even more with Kazuya and his way of seducing.
“True enough.” Kazuya agreed, not denying that he had been the one to seduce Jin and that he had done this to other men too. He had just never thought he will be stuck with Jin in the end. “We’re two whores, Jin.” He chuckled and licked Jin’s ass before he lifted himself up, pressing his bare body over Jin’s one as he slowly bit his way to the older one’s lips. “I want to kiss you…” He whispered with a lustful voice as his fingers curled inside Jin and made him whimper in the process.
“Come then.” Jin replied with a low voice, closing his eyes as their lips touched into a slow kiss this time, into a loving one as they both stilled and just kept on kissing, their lips moving against each other and their tongues dancing in their mouths a dance that only they knew, nibbling and playing and just showing how perfect they were together and how much they needed each other in order to live. It had become addicting and they were both aware that now they wouldn’t be able to live without the other one, that they had reached a point where everything was possible but the idea of them separating.
“I love you, Jin.” Kazuya confessed into their kiss, taking a deep breath before he slowly pushed inside of Jin, watching the older one as his eyes closed again because of the sudden pressure and slight pain that he was feeling. Jin was used with pain and this was bearable, but the thought of being one like this with Kazuya was overwhelming and he needed a few seconds to control his breathing and to be able to open his eyes again and gaze at his lover. A soft smile decorated Jin’s lips as they looked at each other, time stopping in order for them to express their addictive and obsessive love.
“Then fuck me.” Jin teased with a playful smirk curling up the ends of his mouth, biting his lips when he felt Kazuya pulling out and then pushing in almost in the same second. They didn’t need words in that moment, all was clear between them and a new sense of understanding had been created just with this simple action of Jin letting Kazuya control him completely. He was at the younger one’s mercy, he depended on him and Jin knew how much his lover loved this sensation from the way he started to fasten his movements, the feeling of being inside of the older one being too much for him as Kazuya could now only chase his release.
Their hands found each other, their lips touched again into a breathy kiss and their moans entwined as they could both feel like they were close, that sweet feeling of release coming to wash over them and leave them even more breathless. Just one more thrust, Jin thought with a throaty groan, that was all he needed to come, but then Kazuya stopped completely and the older one growled and whined, not understanding what had happened.
He didn’t have time to ask though as Kazuya pulled out of him and expertly turned him around, Jin landing on his back and with his legs bent, his narrowed eyes watching the other one smile innocently like he hadn’t done anything bad. “What?” the younger one said with a little shrug. “I’ve told you that I want you to go mad because of me.”
Jin groaned again, refraining from saying that he was already mad because of his lover from a long time ago, but both of them already knew it so there was no use of repeating it. “Are you that sure about that?” instead, he asked back, his lips curling up into a teasing smile as his dark eyes watched Kazuya intensively, his look saying what his words couldn’t.
Kazuya’s smile didn’t falter at the other one’s subtle threat and he just leaned over Jin, settling between his legs and kissing him again, painfully slow and tauntingly gentle, his hands drawing lines on the older one’s body just with his fingertips, not touching Jin too much and loving the way he whined into his mouth.
“Kazuya…” Jin complained, lifting his hands and settling them on the younger one’s back, pulling him closer and tilting his head to deepen the kiss, his tongue going further into his lover’s mouth and taking more than it was allowed to. But Kazuya gave his permission and just smiled wider into their kiss as he moved again and entered Jin for the second time that day, swallowing the gasp that left the other one’s mouth at their sudden contact.
“You ought to be punished.” Kazuya laughed into their kiss, moving slowly inside of Jin and feeling how he trembled into his arms, how he wanted more but was enjoying this slow pace for once in his life and didn’t want it to end that quickly. Different desires arose in Jin as he discovered a new way of making love, a way that didn’t leave him weak and vulnerable as he had thought he’ll be when bottoming for someone else - but loved and cared and precious for his lover. He could feel in every touch of Kazuya’s how much he was loved and he tried to reciprocate it, touching back and moving slowly against every thrust of the other one, accepting this maddening pace and moaning even louder than usual as he could still feel himself close, but not enough to get his release.
It was painful, honestly, but it was so good in the same time and like something that Jin had never felt before. His honest face and his passionate eyes made Kazuya feel special as he realized that it was for the first time that he was seeing such a face of the older one - a completely sincere one, robbed by any pretense and left just with the love that he felt for the younger one. He could feel his heart speeding as Jin smiled at him and Kazuya realized for the umpteenth time that there wasn’t any other place that he wanted to be than in Jin’s arms, protected and loved by him.
In their own crazy way.
“Kazuya…” Jin groaned again and the sound went straight to the younger one’s crotch, finally making him speed up a little as his hand worked on Jin’s shaft, both of them holding their breaths as they waited for the final moment of their lovemaking.
“Together.” Kazuya whispered and Jin didn’t need anything more to release his seed into the other one’s hand, moaning loudly as he could feel himself being filled with his lover’s cum and making him buck his hips against every thrust of Kazuya’s to take it all and to feel more of the younger one. Their breaths were heavy as the boy fell on top of Jin, feeling like this had been the most wonderful and most fulfilling sex he had ever had, his heart still beating at a fast pace, but making him smile as he could feel under his hand that Jin’s wasn’t that far from his own - his heart was beating in the same way.
“Tease.” Jin couldn’t help but say as he started to be able to control himself, getting back his voice that he had been afraid to have lost after how much Kazuya had made him scream with those maddeningly slow touches.
Kazuya chuckled pleased. “That’s me.” He replied, pressing his lips against Jin’s sweaty skin. “If you weren’t that impatient, I would have done more…” He added and his teeth seeped into the flesh, leaving a small red mark which he quickly soothed with his tongue.
Jin laughed and tightened a bit his hold on the younger one. “I wouldn’t be myself if I weren’t impatient.” He said with a smug voice and a superior expression, his hand drawing long lines on Kazuya’s arm as he held the boy close to him. “Besides,” he continued with an inviting tone, “it isn’t like we don’t have enough time to put in practice those ideas of yours.” He suggested with a smirk and a tease in his voice.
“Time…” Kazuya said dreamily, snuggling into Jin’s arms and humming happily. “Are we going to stay here?” He asked, thinking that it wouldn’t be such a bad idea to stay here with Jin in this house, away from the town’s ruckus and all of its dangers and temptations. It might even be heavenly.
“No.” Jin was quick to reject the idea and Kazuya stiffened a bit in his arms, thinking that his lover had already changed his mind and making the older one sigh and place a soothing kiss on the boy’s temple to calm him down. “We can’t stay in such place, it’s too close from my work and people could find us here.” He then proceeded to explain. “They will be looking for me - my enemies, my clients, the police.” Jin added and suppressed a sigh as he could already feel a headache forming because of what was Kazuya making him do.
“Really?” Kazuya asked sort of distrustful, starting to draw circles on his lover’s chest. “I thought it was quite far…” He then trailed a bit, sighing as he pushed himself up to be able to look into Jin’s eyes - “You haven’t changed your mind, have you?” He asked and there was a steely edge to his tone as he inquired this. It was obvious he wasn’t going to accept this easily, without a fight.
Jin smiled reassuringly. “No, I haven’t.” he replied slowly, wanting Kazuya to understand that this won’t happen either, no matter what. “But we can’t leave like this and we need to go back for the time being.” He then added, hoping that this won’t crush the younger one’s hopes. “I need to make sure that my men will cover our tracks before we leave, okay?” Jin said with a gentle tone, lifting his hand and cupping the boy’s cheek between his fingers.
Kazuya narrowed his eyes at his lover and kept quiet for a few moments before he allowed a smile to take over his brooding and doubting expression. “So, we’re leaving.” He exhaled some air, happiness etched on his features. “Do you know where or are we just going to be wild adventurers?” Kazuya asked with a childish expression, cuddling back into Jin’s arms. There was a future lying open in front of them and he wanted to take full advantage of it - finally, they had a chance at life.
“Not yet.” Jin confessed with a hum in his voice. They needed to leave the country - that was already obvious - but he had no idea where to go. He had always liked the idea of travelling over seas and going to America, starting a new life there. They could also go to Europe and see that London that he knew Kazuya was so fond of or they could even go to their neighbours for some time and visit Korea or maybe even Thailand.
After all, they had all the time in the world they needed to make their decisions and start a new life - together.
Looking down at Kazuya in his arms and watching him with his closed eyes and a peaceful expression on his face, Jin knew the truth - he had made the right choice after all.
*
A sudden call from Jin and Kazuya was already on his way to his lover’s apartment, thinking that finally they will leave this fucked up city, they will leave everything behind that made them rot. He had never thought he would really manage to convince Jin to leave with him, but he had done it and now, he wasn’t sure if he should feel happy or disappointed.
Jin had given into his will, but he didn’t actually want it, right? Kazuya was pretty much aware of this, but insanely enough, he was optimistic thinking that maybe after a while, the older one will realize that this had been the right decision.
The younger one took a deep breath as he pressed the doorknob to open the door to Jin’s apartment, entering with a smile on his face. “Jin?” He called out, but there was no answer, so he decided to check the living room which he found oddly empty. “Jin?” He tried again, worried that maybe something had happened. He went to the bedroom and the image he saw had him disconcerted and speechless.
“My God.” Kazuya whispered to no one as he rushed to the man tied to a chair. “Pi! What the fuck…” He grabbed Pi’s face, seeing that the guy was unconscious and not reacting. “Pi!” He hit gently his cheek, not knowing or understanding what this meant.
And where was Jin?!
“Are you having fun tonight?” Jin’s voice was heard and Kazuya turned to face his lover who was wearing a mad smirk on his lips, his arms crossed against his chest and his body supported by the door’s frame. His eyes seemed sad in one way, but what was more visible than that was the pain from them and also the delight of being able to do this. He had to. For one last time.
It was the forth time he was asking Kazuya this question.
“What happened, Jin?” Kazuya asked, hoping that his lover will snap out of it. Was it because of what he had done the last week? But what involvement had Pi in all this? It had been him who kidnapped Jin and tied him to a bed, Pi had had nothing to do with this. Or was he punished for not being able to rescue him earlier? But why call Kazuya to assist to such things? And hadn’t Jin been okay with everything? Hadn’t he forgiven Kazuya for his reckless actions, why was everything on the wrong turn again?
Just what the fuck happened?!
“What happened?” Jin laughed and rolled his eyes. “I don’t know.” He shrugged and entered the room, slamming the door behind him and then taking care to lock it after him. He sighed as if it had been a very tiresome job to do and then proceeded to go to the window, throwing the key out and then also closing the window. “You know, I was watching a movie a few weeks ago and I suddenly thought of something.” Jin continued as he now went to the desk and took the remote control from it, pointing it to the TV and pressing play. “A very interesting movie, I must say, though I didn’t really like the ending.” He said with a thoughtful voice as images of Kazuya kissing with Yamashita started to appear on the screen, his face changing expression in a matter of seconds - anger, fury, disappointment, sadness, hurt, madness.
Kazuya’s face paled as he saw himself cheating on Jin, so he went quickly to the TV and shut it down. “Jin, that was a mistake.” He said as he took a deep breath, though half realizing that his lover had already snapped and there was going to be murder. That was why Pi was there - he was going to get killed by his friend. “You know I love you, I proved it to you, remember?” Kazuya took small steps towards Jin, wary of any actions of the other one. “Why do you have to do this now? Weren’t we good? Baby, please.” He stopped in front of Jin, looking at him pleadingly as he cupped shakily Jin’s cheeks. Hadn’t they already solved this? Jin had asked about Yamapi and Kazuya had replied to him, confessing to everything that had happened. He had thought that it had ended at that point, but it seemed that his lover had other plans and they had only been delayed by his stupid actions of kidnapping the older one.
“I know you love me.” Jin simply replied, his eyes boring into Kazuya’s as they seemed to be the only thing that allowed the younger one to see his real emotions. His face was expressionless and his body was stiff, not betraying any sign of Jin actually having all those feelings that were torturing his soul. He was hurt and he wanted revenge. “Despite that, you still made out with my best friend.” He accused his lover and narrowed his eyes at the other one. “I just have to make sure that it won’t happen again.” He finished, not moving the whole time and not even bothering to remove Kazuya’s hands from his cheeks.
It was more than obvious that he didn’t care about anything anymore.
Kazuya’s eyes widened in fear and he pulled away from Jin. “Then I won’t be a part of your madness, not anymore.” He shook his head in refusal as he backed away and away until he hit the door Jin had locked earlier. “I said to you - I want us both out of your vicious world because this is what it’s doing to you, to us.” He continued and with a sigh, he lowered his head in disappointment. “I want out, Jin.” He demanded to be free and he started rattling the doorknob, wanting it to open.
“And I said I’ll be giving that to you, but first I need to do something before leaving my world for you. You accepted it so don’t start complaining right now.” Jin shrugged yet again, not even bothering to look at Kazuya and instead taking a step towards his old friend, his lips curled up into a mad and excited smile.
“Jin, I don’t want to be here.” Kazuya started and his voice seemed to be stronger now, not pleading like before. “You can fucking do whatever you want, but don’t drag me in this anymore.” He insisted and started pulling on the door, kicking it with his feet when it wouldn’t open. “I’ve had it.” Kazuya muttered as he pushed himself against the door, hurting his shoulder in the process, but he wouldn’t care.
“I would really appreciate if you didn’t make that much noise.” Jin hissed as he looked at his lover but then he laughed, stopping behind Yamashita and grabbing him by his hair to pull his head up, a few signs of where he had been hit now being visible on his face. “Look what you’ve done,” he continued with a reprimanding voice and a cute pout, “you’ve woken up our guest.” He sighed as Yamashita’s eyes were slowly starting to open.
Kazuya feared to glance at Pi who was looking around with a confused and pained expression on his face. But he did and he couldn’t suppress the nausea that got to him. Another person was going to die because of him, Jin was going to kill him and he wouldn’t care that he had been his friend. “Jin, please, stop it.” Kazuya muttered, but not loud enough and before he knew, he started throwing things around and especially into the door. He wanted to leave that place no matter what.
He won’t see another man die because of him!
Jin just laughed and seemed awfully amused by Kazuya’s reaction. He needed two steps to get behind Kazuya and catch him by his arms, bringing the boy’s body into his as Jin glued the younger one’s back to his chest and continued to laugh in his ear, though this time it just seemed cruel and vengeful. “Come on, baby, you enjoyed kissing my best friend.” He said with a purring voice, though disgust and hate were obvious in his tone. “Now look at him, look how defenseless he is because of you.” Jin added and forced Kazuya to turn around and look at Pi who was now staring back at them, bringing two fingers to Kazuya’s chin when the boy refused to do what he had said and holding him back with only one arm.
Kazuya shut his eyes, not wanting to see anything of what Jin wanted him to see, constantly shaking his head from Jin’s grasp. “It’s because of you. You’re the one who only knows how to kill others.” He then hissed angrily, trying to break free from Jin’s hold. “And I won’t be a part of your sick game.” He added, finally pulling his chin away from Jin’s fingers. Right now, anything that concerned Jin had him nauseous.
Jin’s eyes darkened as a new wave of fury hit him, not leaving anything behind except his pure and raw anger. His fingers clenched once more on Kazuya’s chin as he turned the boy around and be able to stare into his defying eyes. “My sick game?!” he hissed, his voice sounding like he was on the verge of finally losing that point of sanity that he had been holding onto. “This is all your sick game, you bastard, since the moment you kissed my best friend!!” he raised his tone and pushed Kazuya with all of his strength, making him tumble over Pi and almost sending both of them to the ground.
It only seemed to make things worse though because as his eyes fell on the two of them standing so close to each other and almost looking like they were hugging, he finally snapped. “You were a whore from the first moment I saw you and you never stopped being one!!” he added as he leaned down and grabbed Kazuya by his collar, pulling him up and lifting him off the ground a few inches. “You never missed the opportunity to cheat on me every damn time!!” Jin said, his eyes sparkling with madness as he saw the younger one trying to free himself from his grip but only succeeding to make himself choke even more.
Kazuya grimaced because of the pain Jin’s hold inflicted on him. But what hurt the most were his words which, to greater displeasure, were sort of true. Although he didn’t want to hear such things from someone like Jin.
“Better a whore than a criminal like you.” Kazuya said with an awfully calm voice, even if it was strangled because of his collar biting into his neck. As these words were uttered, the disdain was clearly etched on every feature of his face. “You call him your best friend? Ha, don’t make me laugh. I never thought of killing Koki after what you did with him. And, mind you, I saw everything live and happening in my own damned house. Yet I didn’t want to kill him. You, yes, my best friend, never.” The younger one continued and despite his hateful and mocking voice, there was a certain bitterness and disappointment. “And, oh, I did enjoy kissing Pi and there was also another man from your stupid world whom I kissed. You know, the one who drugged me.” Kazuya then confessed, not caring if he was digging his hole or Pi’s or anyone’s, he just wanted to hurt Jin. “And this, just to reaffirm your belief and statement that I’m a whore.” He added on an impulse, aware of the fact that this will make Jin even crazier than he already was. Well, it didn’t matter anymore, did it?
And Kazuya was right because Jin’s eyes flashed red and he threw Kazuya on the bed with all the strength he could muster, an inhuman growl leaving his lips as he felt more wounded by Kazuya’s words than his actions. He couldn’t think clearly anymore, he couldn’t see clearly either. He tried to close his eyes but all he saw was Kazuya kissing and hugging Koki. He opened them and he saw Kazuya together with his best friend even if the two of them were at a reasonable distance at that point. All he could see was Kazuya with someone. With someone else. With someone that wasn’t him.
And it hurt more than anything else.
“It seems that I’ve made a mistake when I thought that you could change and actually love me.” Jin finally said something, but his voice was calm and cold and it predicted a terrible storm, more terrifying than if he had been screaming. Pi flinched on the chair, aware of the changes in Jin and knowing what will follow at this point.
There was no one who could stop Jin now.
“You wanted to be a part of my world, right?” the older one laughed and climbed on bed, burying his fingers into Kazuya’s hair and pulling him back on his feet, completely ignoring the boy’s screams because of the pain. “Let’s see you then.” He added and he pushed Kazuya into the dresser next to them, not even looking at the other one as he proceeded to go and take another chair and put it in front of his best friend.
“You’re really pathetic, you know that?” Yamapi finally interfered, speaking with a voice full of disdain but it was obvious that it wasn’t for Jin in general or for what he was going to do to him - he had been expecting it at some point, just like his father - but more for the person that Jin was in that moment because of Kazuya. “To become this weak because of a whore? Despicable.”
“Shut up!!” Jin thundered and the back of his hand hit Yamashita’s cheek in a sudden fit of anger, sending him to the ground. “You don’t have the right to talk like this about Kazuya!!” he said, defending the younger one without even realizing as it had become imprinted in his soul to always be on his lover’s side. Not when the said lover had been cheating on him though.
“What?” Yamashita laughed. “You don’t like to hear the truth from others?” he said with a mean voice, having a slight idea about what Jin wanted to do with that chair and why he had set it up in front of his own. He knew that Jin was cruel and even more than that, but he had never expected to be betrayed by his best friend because of a stupid slut that he had picked up in some club. Kazuya didn’t even love Jin, he wasn’t willing to give his life for Jin like the older one would have done for Kazuya.
No matter what, Jin was the only one losing in this relationship and he was too stupid to see it.
“I said to shut up.” Jin demanded once more as he approached the fallen Yamapi and fetched a small knife from his pocket - the one that had been a present from his friend. “Or I’ll make you.” He added with a threatening tone as he pressed the blade on the other one’s skin, pushing slightly on his neck to make him feel the danger, not just hear it.
Kazuya groaned from the place he was, his vision a little blurry as he looked at Jin’s figure looming over Pi’s one. He cursed in his mind and kept wondering how the hell this had happened and where did they go wrong.
“Jin.” Kazuya called out to his lover, standing up a little wobbly as he had hit his head. He saw the older one throw a look back at him and he brought a hand to his hurting skull. “I’m the one guilty here, so,” his lips curled a little, “take it on me.” He continued, now up and leaning against the dresser. He still didn’t trust his legs for the moment - Jin had thrown him way too hard.
The older one’s eyes sparkled and his lips spread in obvious delight and joy. “Oh, but that’s what I’m doing.” He clarified, letting Yamashita go as he straightened himself up and turned his back on his friend, now facing Kazuya again. “You wouldn’t care that much if I hurt you physically and besides, I never took my revenge on you directly, did I?” Jin said and took a step forward, lifting his hand to cup Kazuya’s cheek. “But you’ll care if I kill someone you kissed and you’ll remember next time not to do it again. Am I right?” he asked, knowing that whatever answer would Kazuya give, nothing will change.
Though he couldn’t deny that the truth might make things a little better.
“I care if you kill.” Kazuya said with a clear voice as he looked at Jin with a fierce expression. “But you don’t care if you’re the one giving me nightmares because of your actions.” He then added, swatting Jin’s hand away from his cheek and taking Jin’s other hand, the one with the knife, and pointing it to his own heart, the tip gently puncturing his shirt. “This is not the world I wanted for you and me. So why not end it already?”
“Because I don’t want you to die.” Jin answered easily, pulling on his hand until it slipped from Kazuya’s fingers maybe too easily. “I love you and I want to be with you in life, not in death. I have no plans of dying soon and you won’t do it either, not as long as I’m here.” He added, this time with a softer voice as he realized that he had scared the boy a bit. He didn’t want that, he wanted Kazuya to understand him, not to be scared of him. He wanted to let Kazuya know what it meant to be a part of his world, of the world he had sought so much. “This is what you wanted, right? To let you come with me out on the streets.” Jin reminded his lover of his desperate attempts to try and know Jin better, going so far as to even get drugged by someone just because he had bribed Kazuya with some information about his boyfriend. Jin had even been kind enough to let Yamashita tell his story - even if it was full of holes as Jin was the only one to know exactly what had happened - but it still hadn’t been enough for Kazuya.
He had wanted more and he had gotten burned.
Jin smiled as he let go of the knife and put it back into his pocket, his hands now drawing lines on Kazuya’s arms in a soothing way. “This is my life, Kazuya, and I’m going to show you every bit of it, exactly like you had wanted me to do.” He confessed, gently pushing the boy on the chair that was standing behind him.
Kazuya looked at Jin, pleading him with his eyes not to do something that will mark their love even more, that will taint their love in blood. But it was no use and he knew it too well - “Then do whatever you want.” He said with a blank voice, his eyes turning emotionless. “But I will not watch your crimes anymore.” And with this, he bent and curled into a ball, closing his eyes and covering his ears. If he wanted to still be sane, he had to block everything Jin made him insane - so he started humming.
Jin smiled, not really bothered by the fact that Kazuya was trying to block him as he knew that soon it will become impossible with the way Yamashita will be screaming. He seriously doubted that his friend will start begging for his life, but Jin knew him well enough to know which points to press to make him scream in pain at least. And Kazuya was going to hear him, definitely.
“Now where were we, Pi?” Jin turned to the other one, the smile widening on his lips as he looked at the man fallen on the ground and not making any attempt to pull himself up. “Oh, you were talking too much.” He added with a thoughtful expression, as if he had just remembered what he had never forgotten. “We have to do something about that, don’t we?” the older one said as he pulled on Yamashita’s clothes to pull him up again, settling the chair at its original position and taking out his knife for the second time that day.
“I was actually saying how pathetic you are for falling in love with a whore that would even sleep with someone else while saying that he loves you.” Yamashita was kind enough to remind him, receiving another hit from Jin but not caring about it as he continued to speak. “Really now, I had more respect for you when you were ten and killed my father.” He added but was quickly shut up by Jin.
“Stick out your tongue.” The older one ordered and Yamashita looked surprised at him for a moment. “I said to stick out your tongue!!” Jin repeated, his voice raised and sounding more like a thunder that was ripping apart everything from that chamber.
The other one flinched on the chair, finally realizing what was in store for him. His eyes met Jin’s into a staring contest, a discussion without words starting between the two of them. He knew that Jin will still do it even if he was fighting it so there was really no way out for him. Struggling would only make it worse, he knew Jin well enough to be able to realize this from his gaze alone.
So he closed his eyes and did what he had been told.
Screams filled the whole house as Jin pressed the blame to Yamashita’s tongue and cut it slightly, having the other one back down involuntarily. “It’s not good, Pi, like this.” He cooed with a delighted voice and watched as his old friend tried to compose himself and stuck out his tongue again.
So Jin continued to cut his tongue.
PART II
Authors: aroruae & fighter_of_moon
Pairing: Akame, slight Kokame & Jinda
Genre: Smut, AU, drama, tragedy
Warnings: use of drugs, whoring, slaving, insanity, bad language, incest and a lot more to come xD You've been warned, so don't read if you don't want to see them in a lot of pain *evil laugh*
Disclaimer: They don't belong to us, but we're in the process of making it true!! The proof is Jin's twitter~ And now his facebook and OMG, youtube account!!
Summary: Kazuya’s addiction becomes Jin’s obsession. They came to need each other to the extend of wanting to kill.
A/N: I have to say that I've written a lot of stories, but this is one that will surely remain imprinted in my mind and heart as it's one of my favorites EVER. These characters that we've created have been through a lot and we, the writers and hopefully the readers too, have suffered, cried and laughed along with them, that you have felt their happiness and sorrow as powerfully as we have felt them, writing each one of their emotions. Jin and Kazuya are complex characters and we've had a hard time to realize exactly what it is that they want from us and how to portray them to look as realistic as possible without exaggerating that much. I really wish that we have managed to send their feelings to you and that they will remain in your heart, the same they will remain in ours too <3
I'm really sad to see this story ending, but I'm confident that this final chapter will be a tumult of emotions once more, that it will leave you hanging and wondering about the ending. And we would really love to hear your opinions about the ending because we - alright, I *laughs* - have changed our mind a lot of times and we have thought a lot of how to create an ending that will please and surprise you in the same time, without forgetting about the nature of the characters. I would really love to know your thoughts about the ending, so a comment will be much appreciated at this last chapter ^^
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First Scent ~ Strawberry
Second Scent ~ Poison
Third Scent ~ Musk
Fourth Scent ~ Ecstasy
Fifth Scent ~ Spring
Sixth Scent ~ Fear
Seventh Scent ~ Sky
Eighth Scent ~ Winter
Ninth Scent ~ Loneliness
Tenth scent ~ Run
Eleventh Scent ~ You
Twelfth Scent ~ Statice
Thirteenth Scent ~ Body
Fourteenth Scent ~ Memory
Fifteenth Scent ~ Toxic
Sixteenth Scent ~ Narcotic
Seventeenth Scent ~ Hollow
Eighteenth Scent ~ Mother
Nineteenth Scent ~ Love
Twentieth Scent ~ Tomorrow
Twenty-first Scent ~ Rewind
Twenty-second Scent ~ Blood
Twenty-third Scent ~ Madness
Twenty-fourth Scent ~ Bonds
Twenty-fifth Scent ~ Betrayal
Twenty-sixth Scent ~ Home
Chapter twenty-seven
Twenty-seventh scent ~ End
We’re born, we grow up, we die. We fall in love, we feel happy, we break up. We smile, we laugh, we cry. Sometimes, it seems that no matter what we’re doing, we’re always going to end up with a bitter smile on our lips, saying that maybe it would have been better if it had never happened. The truth hurts too much and life is often made only to hurt you even more, to show you what you want but can’t have. It teases us, it drives us crazy and in the end it kills us slowly but surely.
We trust, we get hurt, we trust again. We love helplessly, we cry, but in the end we’ll still fall in love because that is the nature of humans - to repeat mistakes, over and over, knowing that it isn’t right but still doing it. We see the fire burning in front of us, but we still push our hand through it. We know we might end up crying for the umpteenth time, but we still choose to go on and to love the next person that steals our heart.
Because we believe. We believe in humankind and we believe that there is someone out there for us, someone that won’t take advantage and that will love us unconditionally.
Sometimes, the hope is futile. But other times, we might just get what we’re hoping for.
His head hurt like hell, but at least he seemed to be feeling better than when he had fallen asleep. His wrists were sore and as Jin tried to move them, he realized that it only hurt more if he touched them so with a defeated sigh, he let both of his hands fall on the bed as he slowly opened his eyes to take in his surroundings. His mind was oddly clear after the drugs he had taken last night. It was kind of weird in one way to be feeling so light after such a night, but Jin wasn’t one to complain so he just took it as it came.
“Kazuya?” he whispered with a heavy voice, feeling his throat hurting and his limbs crushing him as he tried to move, his eyes falling on the younger one’s form who was standing close to the bed, seeming to be examining Jin with a somehow scared and insecure expression. Jin’s eyes immediately darted to his hands but only to find out that he was still free which meant that Kazuya had finally trusted him. Then… why was he looking like that? “Are you okay?” he then asked, standing up on his butt and looking at the other one with an inquiring expression.
Kazuya managed to crack a smile as he leaned closer to Jin, carefully studying his features. “Awake?” He said on a hoarse voice, his eyes shining with something undetermined - maybe doubt, maybe hunger, but definitely something that Kazuya hadn’t expressed up till now. He lifted a hand and touched Jin over the cheek sort of fearful, even if he didn’t look like that at all, he was more like curious of what reaction Jin will have at his touch. “Does it still hurt?” Kazuya asked with a worried tone, putting aside his weirdness from earlier.
“No, I’m perfectly fine.” Jin answered, covering Kazuya’s hand with his own and leaning his head into their entwined hands. He was happy to see that the boy seemed to be back to normal and that all that craziness had passed. It was better this way, he loved this caring and loving Kazuya, especially after all they had been through to get to this point. He didn’t want to lose this feeling ever again. “I’m glad that you finally believe me.” He then added with a light smile, his eyes studying Kazuya’s ones with a content glint sparkling in them.
The younger one revealed his teeth in a beautiful smile but it quickly faltered as he pulled his hand back, away from Jin, and reverted to his doubtful and fearful self from earlier. “Actually…” Kazuya started, biting the inside of his cheek, looking at Jin and his eyes were glazed with a sort of inexplicable hunger for the other one. “I’m still wondering.” He revealed his thoughts and his own fingers laced themselves in a nervous manner. He wasn’t sure if he was supposed to ask this after all that had happened between them, after all that this scorching feeling of love he had for Jin had made him do. But last night had him wondering and wondering around the same question.
Did Jin mean what he had said?
Of course, there were chances for him to have lied under the influence of the drug, but in the same time… why would he have said such a thing, knowing that it will hurt him more than anything? Kazuya wasn’t sure if he could really ask Jin about this, but after the older one had fallen asleep, he hadn’t been able to stop himself from thinking and thinking about what it would have been if Jin really accepted him in that way. As his mother’s son, he had lost any right of being someone else’s active lover and as Jin’s toy… he never really had an option.
But Jin had made him feel loved and showed him love - in a weird way, but he did - and Kazuya couldn’t stop his thoughts regarding the words Jin had said last night.
I would give up at anything for you. My dignity, my pride, my life, my everything.
I want you to be inside of me, Kazuya.
And now, Kazuya wasn’t able to let go of such words, wasn’t able to suppress the hunger for Jin that had been born a long time ago before even the older one had suggested such a thing. It had all started with a phone call and had ended now with a painful drug.
Yet… was Jin willing to accept Kazuya like this, now that he wasn’t under the influence of narcotics?
“Wondering about what?” Jin asked with a confused expression, narrowing his eyes as he didn’t understand at all what was the younger one referring to and lifting his hand towards Kazuya to call him back as he wanted to hold his lover in his embrace once more, to feel his skin and his heartbeat and to know that he was there and wouldn’t leave.
Kazuya shook his head in rejection to Jin’s invitation as he didn’t want to miss any of his lover’s expressions, as he needed to ascertain that there had been some truth behind the words Jin had said last night. Maybe he won’t have him in this aspect too, but he could accept that at some point, the intention and need had existed. “Do you remember last night?” He asked, his eyes sparkling with past events. “Your words to me?” Kazuya quickly added, feeling that it was impossible for one to forget the pain Jin seemed to have felt last night.
Jin opened his mouth to ask exactly what words, but his expression changed in the middle of his action and his eyes darkened as he remembered what he had said last night. Of course he did, it wasn’t like he used to say such words just to anybody and, to be honest, there weren’t that many people who had had this chance. “That I wouldn’t mind being bottom for you?” he asked with a light voice, seeming genuinely interested in Kazuya’s answer. Then his lips curled up into a smirk as he proceeded to add with a perverted and somehow alluring voice - “Interested?”
Kazuya gulped as he lowered his eyes, unable to hide the desire and surprise hearing Jin saying this which almost seemed like he wasn’t bothered by the idea. But the younger didn’t want Jin to only not be bothered, he wanted him to want it, to need it too. Just accepting it like this wasn’t enough. He was getting greedy, no?
“Well…” Kazuya dared to look at Jin, licking his lips nervously. “… I thought that you were just delirious from pain.” He said and fidgeted with his fingers, now slightly trembling. Truth to be told, he was anxious for such an act to happen, but in the same time he was scared - he had long suppressed the desire to be active in bed.
Jin let a sigh escape his lips. “Kazuya, come to me.” He asked once again, stretching his hand towards the other one who took it reluctantly, his eyes studying the older one as if he was half-expecting a laugh and a sudden mock to come. Jin did neither one of this as he pulled the boy close to him until Kazuya landed on his lap and he could circle his hands around the younger one’s waist, his head resting on the other one’s shoulder. “That drug didn’t affect my mind.” He confessed as he pressed his lips onto Kazuya’s shoulder, lingering a little on the small spot of skin that he had discovered under the boy’s clothes. “I meant what I said and I still want that. It’s not like I don’t know that you want it too so…” he shrugged a little to show that he was okay with this idea and that he didn’t mind doing it for Kazuya.
Because it was him and no one else.
The younger one shivered a little as Jin’s lips were hot on his cold skin and he couldn’t suppress either the growling lust that rushed through all of his body, making the closeness between him and Jin sizzle. “It’s hard to believe you on this one.” Kazuya whispered as he cuddled more into Jin’s warmth, nuzzling his nose in the crook of Jin’s neck. “I don’t want you to do something just to prove that you love me.” In a desperate manner, he bit Jin’s skin painfully. “I’m sick of having you trying to please me, to coax me into believing you.” He growled, half realizing what he was really saying. But it was true - while he wished for the one he loved to treat him well, with respect and care, he didn’t actually need that. He just wanted to be possessed like it had happened many times. “I want you to have me like I want to have you - not mild, but wild, not love, but hate. Jin, I love you, God knows why, but I’ll be damned if I want a nice and light love with you!” Kazuya continued and now he was pulling on Jin’s ear lob as his hands were greedily and needy touching the other one all over.” Not that you can offer me one.” The boy chuckled into Jin’s ear as he pulled back and all of his feelings were clearly expressed on his face - love, anger, lust, despair, desire, hunger. He was once more bare in front of Jin, having reached a point where he didn’t care what Jin did to him or he to Jin as long as they were together.
Jin’s eyes darkened and his hands clutched onto the boy’s shirt. He felt the blood rushing to his head and the control that he had mustered was completely broken now because of the younger one’s words. Maybe Kazuya was right though, maybe this wasn’t whom Jin really was because, no matter what he did, he always wanted Kazuya with all of his being and suppressing this feeling wasn’t doing any good for neither one of them.
With a rushed move, he pushed the younger one away from him, swapping their position and pinning Kazuya to the bed as Jin hollered above him, their eyes meeting and the older one letting his lover see all the lust and desire he had hidden in them for so long. “You’re right, I can’t offer you a nice and light love.” He said, thrusting his hips and loving the way Kazuya’s voice sounded because of his touches. “The only thing I can offer you is this.” He added and leaned down, catching Kazuya’s lips into a rough and demanding kiss, biting the boy’s lips and sucking on them like a famished man, like he hadn’t kissed Kazuya for an eternity and like he’d lose him any moment now. “So if you want to have me the same way, then earn it.” Jin hissed as he bit the younger one’s ear lob hard and painfully, soothing it after with his tongue and licking it teasingly after blowing some hot air into the boy’s ear. “Make me want you the same way, Kazuya.” Jin whispered with a low and aroused voice into his lover’s voice, stopping for a moment all his movements and then suddenly grinding his hips into Kazuya’s.
The younger one threw his head back, a raw and guttural sound escaping his lips, sinfully and secretly having wished for such a thing to happen - for a long time. Then he turned to gaze at Jin and there was a devilish smirk on his face as he returned Jin’s thrusts with some of his own. “I’ll have you beg for it.” Kazuya said with a defiant voice and with a sudden and unexpected move, he reversed their positions and pushed Jin backwards with his whole body until the older one had his legs bent and his back hit the bed’s rail. Kazuya wriggled his legs out and straddled Jin, his hands still in the older one’s hold. But the position was a vulnerable one for Jin as he was exposed to Kazuya’s devilish ideas. “I’ll be the only one in your mind while I’ll be inside of you, I’ll make you forget everyone else that had touched you so deep.” He hissed angrily, recalling that Pi had mentioned something of having topped Jin. He gave a slow and tantalizing roll of his hips as he leaned to bite Jin’s shoulder, Jin’s nipple now so dearly exposed to him as the other one was still naked while he had gotten dressed while waiting for Jin to wake up. “I’ll weaken you just like you did to me.” Kazuya whispered as he pushed his body into Jin’s, making the other wince a little because the rail wasn’t a cushion and it definitely wasn’t soft.
“Are you sure you can do that, babe?” Jin laughed, throwing his head back as he wanted to give Kazuya more space. It only seemed like that though because his hands released the boy’s ones and Jin let them circle Kazuya’s waist, his fingers sneaking under the younger one’s pants and teasingly digging his nails into his ass as his fingers brushed over Kazuya’s hole briefly and fleetingly. “Prove to me if you can make me scream more than anyone else did,” he then provoked with a slightly mocking voice, tilting his head as his eyes were half-opened and looking at Kazuya, “if you can touch me like I touch you and make me feel the same pleasure.”
Something snapped inside of Kazuya as he listened to Jin’s words and his hand instinctively clutched itself into Jin’s hair, bringing his face on the same level before he forcefully claimed Jin’s lips. “You bastard.” He muttered and crushed their mouths once more as his other hand slipped between their bodies and brushed over Jin’s exposed and bare member. “You like it rough as well.” He mumbled and bit hard on his lover’s lower lip, causing it to throb with pain and bleed slightly. “But…” Kazuya chuckled darkly as he let go of Jin’s hair, his fingers brushing tantalizingly over Jin’s face and chest. “… I’m going slow, baby. I’m going to drive you mad.” He continued and leaned to suck on Jin’s nipple, passing his tongue over the hardened nub slowly and teasingly. “So mad…” He added and his hands started to trace the lean body of Jin’s, dipping his nails into his hips painfully as they started to make their way between Jin’s legs, carefully avoiding the slowly awakening cock, but not before teasing it a little.
Just a little.
Jin groaned in despair, closing his eyes and letting himself fall prey to Kazuya’s administration. His touches were intoxicating and every time their lips would touch, Jin felt shivers passing through his whole body, making him want more but knowing that he won’t be able to obtain it that easily. He wanted to be Kazuya’s too but this slow way of making love was testing his limits and soon enough, Jin found himself changing their position yet again and pinning the younger one to the bed for the second time that night. A smirk settled on his lips as Jin leaned down and licked Kazuya’s lips in a taunting way, his eyes sparkling with mischief as he grinded his hips into the boy’s, his hands now freeing Kazuya’s to take care of his clothes which were making him feel irritated.
“Babe, you have to do more than that to make me fall under you.” Jin provoked yet again the other one, not wanting to give up at their little game, loving how Kazuya kept struggling to gain control over them and laughing inside when he failed to do so.
Kazuya’s eyes darkened at the way Jin was subjugating him. “Like?” He asked roughly, his hands pulling his lover down for a hot session of making out. “Do you have a weak spot or something?” He continued and his legs spread under Jin’s, stretching the older one too. Kazuya’s toes curled as he lifted his hips, pushing and putting pressure on his lover’s member. “Or you prefer having other men fill you?” The younger one snarled and his nails dug into Jin’s shoulder as he let his body slip under Jin, now his mouth biting and sucking on Jin’s collarbones.
“I prefer to fuck and not to be fucked.” Jin breathed, cursing through gritted teeth as he knew that Kazuya was now attacking his collarbones on purpose, with the intention of making him fall under his spell. It was half working, Jin mused as he closed his eyes and forgot for a moment that he had to finish and undress Kazuya, letting himself enjoy the way Kazuya’s lips felt against his skin and the friction between their bodies that was driving Jin crazy because he was completely naked and Kazuya was still dressed, the hardness of his jeans brushing against his crotch and making him moan because of the pleasure mixed with a bit of pain.
“Right.” Kazuya snickered from under Jin, going down on him, now his lips teasing his nipples, tongue brushing over them before trailing further on the skin and stopping at the navel, dipping its tip into the belly button and then biting slowly on its round margins. “You’re a whore, Jin.” His voice came muffled as his hands grabbed Jin’s thighs and held them apart as he wriggled more under his lover’s body, now his mouth facing Jin’s hard and erect member. He smiled and slithered his tongue over the pink head of the cock, feeling the older one shuddering at his action. “Of course you like to be fucked.” Kazuya sniggered and gave a quick and wet lick to the twitching member before slipping away completely from under Jin’s body’s prison.
A light push and his lover went face down on the bed as Kazuya straddled him, Jin’s round and soft ass pushing against his clothed crotch.
“Such a nice view, babe.” Kazuya said admiringly as he pushed his hands over Jin’s broad and smooth back, spreading his palms to touch and feel more as his body gave light sways over Jin’s ass, clearly showing that this was what Kazuya will be doing later to him.
Jin hummed in agreement though he wasn’t really sure what he was agreeing with. He had his eyes still closed and his arms were spread over the bed, his body slightly shivering under Kazuya’s touches and administrations. While he couldn’t really deny that he was a whore, Jin hated not to be in control and not have things go his way, but being like this with Kazuya didn’t actually bother him as much as he had thought it would. On the contrary, it seemed like his whole body was shuddering in expectation, anxiously waiting for the moment when he’ll be owned by Kazuya like he had done with the younger one so many times.
He half opened his eyes and looked at his lover, lust and passion clearly written in those orbs darkened with desire. “Fuck me already or I’m going to fuck you and I’ll make sure that you won’t be able to get up tomorrow morning.” He threatened through gritted teeth, not wanting to wait any more and to be teased into this. He already wanted Kazuya and nothing else mattered.
The younger one chuckled as he leaned over Jin, sucking and biting on his back, enjoying the moans his lover was letting out. “So impatient.” He chuckled against the hot skin as his hands slipped between them and started fumbling with his already half opened jeans. This was a teasing position as Kazuya could undress himself and touch Jin’s ass in the same time, loving the way the older one trembled from time to time. He slid out of his jeans and boxers, now standing bare above Jin as he also got rid of his shirt, his erect member brushing over the soft ass. “Impatient as you are…” Kazuya whispered against Jin’s back, as his tongue trailed down on his spine, enjoying the shuddering of his lover’s body. “… I must stretch you, babe.” He chuckled as he seeped his teeth into the flesh, before he lowered himself, his hands settling over the round cheeks. “I want you wet and ready, love.” Kazuya chuckled and his tongue slipped between the crack of Jin’s ass, meeting the hot and tensed muscle of the older one’s hole.
Jin took a short intake of breath and his heart stopped at that sudden moment. His whole body shuddered and Jin couldn’t stop thinking of how would it be if Kazuya let his tongue slide along his butt cheeks some more and lean inside of him, licking and making him go crazy as he was doing right now with just his teasing moves. It had been a long time since he had let someone toy with him like this and Jin was growing more impatient with each movement of Kazuya’s, with each of his touch that was meant to taunt Jin and not give him the pleasure that he needed. It wasn’t enough and now Jin wanted more, wanted to feel more of Kazuya’s tongue and more of his fingers dancing on his back and then inside of him.
He had never thought that he would enjoy this much being submissive to someone. The only men that had touched him this way had been in the time when he was still learning about sex and when he just wanted to find out more and didn’t care that much about who was topping whom. Even so, there had been few men who had had this privilege and even if Yamapi had been the one to do it the most, Jin had refused it after a few years and had been the only one active in their relationship. For Jin, it had become like a sign of submitting yourself to the other one and he knew that Kazuya had been aware of this from the beginning - that was why this mattered this much for both of them and for their future together.
A whimper left Jin’s lips as Kazuya trailed a line on his ass and the older one moved his body to meet more of Kazuya’s tongue, but the younger one didn’t allow him and put his hands on his waist to stop Jin from moving, chuckling yet again at the impatience of his lover.
“Kazuya…” Jin breathed and whined in the same time, opening again his eyes which had closed again at some point - probably when Kazuya had decided to push him to his limits and see how much he could stand without being in control while he was being teased like that - and looking at the other one through a foggy gaze.
“That’s my name, love.” The young boy chuckled as he put his hands on Jin’s thighs, pushing his legs apart, giving him more access to his lover’s more intimate parts. “Don’t you ever forget it.” Kazuya growled threateningly as his nails dug into Jin’s flesh and his tongue, wet and hot, puckered his twitching hole, getting a low and muffled moan as his lover clutched the sheets around him. Kazuya’s hands climbed up on the thighs, feeling his boyfriend, and his fingers teased that spot right behind his balls which made Jin’s body twitch. A snigger left his mouth, sending hot puffs of air over Jin’s contracting muscle and soon enough, his tongue was replaced by his thick fingers which pushed inside Jin more and more, making a scissor like movement.
“Tell me how much you want me inside of you.” Kazuya demanded before his teeth seeped into the soft flesh, his fingers thrusting deeper into the other one.
“Do you really need me to say that?” Jin replied with a sly smirk as he pushed his body more into Kazuya’s fingers, moaning loudly at the sensations invading his body that he hadn’t felt for such a long time. Honestly now, he couldn’t really remember when was the last time he had submitted himself to another person and had let another man fuck him like this, but now his body seemed to have gained a mind of its own and it made Jin react in ways that he had never expected. “I’ll just need to show you.” he then laughed and pushed his body up, supporting it on his palms as he lifted himself up with Kazuya’s fingers still in him, sitting down on four legs to gain some more stability over his own body. “Fuck me, Kazuya, or I’ll fuck you senseless right now.” He threatened again even if it didn’t sound as serious as earlier because of his moans and the way his ass kept pushing itself into the younger one’s fingers, asking and pleading to be given more.
“You’re such a whore.” Kazuya laughed and buried his teeth into Jin’s left ass cheek, loving the way the older one’s voice broke at his action and how his hole tightened around his fingers. Jin laughed again and threw his head back to look at Kazuya who now had a smirk on his lips, desire meeting lust as their eyes found each other.
“Look who’s talking.” Jin said with a knowing smile. “The first words I heard from you were ‘wanna have sex?’ so don’t deny that you’re much more of a whore than I am.” He accused though he didn’t seem to be upset because of this fact and actually loving it and making him fall in love even more with Kazuya and his way of seducing.
“True enough.” Kazuya agreed, not denying that he had been the one to seduce Jin and that he had done this to other men too. He had just never thought he will be stuck with Jin in the end. “We’re two whores, Jin.” He chuckled and licked Jin’s ass before he lifted himself up, pressing his bare body over Jin’s one as he slowly bit his way to the older one’s lips. “I want to kiss you…” He whispered with a lustful voice as his fingers curled inside Jin and made him whimper in the process.
“Come then.” Jin replied with a low voice, closing his eyes as their lips touched into a slow kiss this time, into a loving one as they both stilled and just kept on kissing, their lips moving against each other and their tongues dancing in their mouths a dance that only they knew, nibbling and playing and just showing how perfect they were together and how much they needed each other in order to live. It had become addicting and they were both aware that now they wouldn’t be able to live without the other one, that they had reached a point where everything was possible but the idea of them separating.
“I love you, Jin.” Kazuya confessed into their kiss, taking a deep breath before he slowly pushed inside of Jin, watching the older one as his eyes closed again because of the sudden pressure and slight pain that he was feeling. Jin was used with pain and this was bearable, but the thought of being one like this with Kazuya was overwhelming and he needed a few seconds to control his breathing and to be able to open his eyes again and gaze at his lover. A soft smile decorated Jin’s lips as they looked at each other, time stopping in order for them to express their addictive and obsessive love.
“Then fuck me.” Jin teased with a playful smirk curling up the ends of his mouth, biting his lips when he felt Kazuya pulling out and then pushing in almost in the same second. They didn’t need words in that moment, all was clear between them and a new sense of understanding had been created just with this simple action of Jin letting Kazuya control him completely. He was at the younger one’s mercy, he depended on him and Jin knew how much his lover loved this sensation from the way he started to fasten his movements, the feeling of being inside of the older one being too much for him as Kazuya could now only chase his release.
Their hands found each other, their lips touched again into a breathy kiss and their moans entwined as they could both feel like they were close, that sweet feeling of release coming to wash over them and leave them even more breathless. Just one more thrust, Jin thought with a throaty groan, that was all he needed to come, but then Kazuya stopped completely and the older one growled and whined, not understanding what had happened.
He didn’t have time to ask though as Kazuya pulled out of him and expertly turned him around, Jin landing on his back and with his legs bent, his narrowed eyes watching the other one smile innocently like he hadn’t done anything bad. “What?” the younger one said with a little shrug. “I’ve told you that I want you to go mad because of me.”
Jin groaned again, refraining from saying that he was already mad because of his lover from a long time ago, but both of them already knew it so there was no use of repeating it. “Are you that sure about that?” instead, he asked back, his lips curling up into a teasing smile as his dark eyes watched Kazuya intensively, his look saying what his words couldn’t.
Kazuya’s smile didn’t falter at the other one’s subtle threat and he just leaned over Jin, settling between his legs and kissing him again, painfully slow and tauntingly gentle, his hands drawing lines on the older one’s body just with his fingertips, not touching Jin too much and loving the way he whined into his mouth.
“Kazuya…” Jin complained, lifting his hands and settling them on the younger one’s back, pulling him closer and tilting his head to deepen the kiss, his tongue going further into his lover’s mouth and taking more than it was allowed to. But Kazuya gave his permission and just smiled wider into their kiss as he moved again and entered Jin for the second time that day, swallowing the gasp that left the other one’s mouth at their sudden contact.
“You ought to be punished.” Kazuya laughed into their kiss, moving slowly inside of Jin and feeling how he trembled into his arms, how he wanted more but was enjoying this slow pace for once in his life and didn’t want it to end that quickly. Different desires arose in Jin as he discovered a new way of making love, a way that didn’t leave him weak and vulnerable as he had thought he’ll be when bottoming for someone else - but loved and cared and precious for his lover. He could feel in every touch of Kazuya’s how much he was loved and he tried to reciprocate it, touching back and moving slowly against every thrust of the other one, accepting this maddening pace and moaning even louder than usual as he could still feel himself close, but not enough to get his release.
It was painful, honestly, but it was so good in the same time and like something that Jin had never felt before. His honest face and his passionate eyes made Kazuya feel special as he realized that it was for the first time that he was seeing such a face of the older one - a completely sincere one, robbed by any pretense and left just with the love that he felt for the younger one. He could feel his heart speeding as Jin smiled at him and Kazuya realized for the umpteenth time that there wasn’t any other place that he wanted to be than in Jin’s arms, protected and loved by him.
In their own crazy way.
“Kazuya…” Jin groaned again and the sound went straight to the younger one’s crotch, finally making him speed up a little as his hand worked on Jin’s shaft, both of them holding their breaths as they waited for the final moment of their lovemaking.
“Together.” Kazuya whispered and Jin didn’t need anything more to release his seed into the other one’s hand, moaning loudly as he could feel himself being filled with his lover’s cum and making him buck his hips against every thrust of Kazuya’s to take it all and to feel more of the younger one. Their breaths were heavy as the boy fell on top of Jin, feeling like this had been the most wonderful and most fulfilling sex he had ever had, his heart still beating at a fast pace, but making him smile as he could feel under his hand that Jin’s wasn’t that far from his own - his heart was beating in the same way.
“Tease.” Jin couldn’t help but say as he started to be able to control himself, getting back his voice that he had been afraid to have lost after how much Kazuya had made him scream with those maddeningly slow touches.
Kazuya chuckled pleased. “That’s me.” He replied, pressing his lips against Jin’s sweaty skin. “If you weren’t that impatient, I would have done more…” He added and his teeth seeped into the flesh, leaving a small red mark which he quickly soothed with his tongue.
Jin laughed and tightened a bit his hold on the younger one. “I wouldn’t be myself if I weren’t impatient.” He said with a smug voice and a superior expression, his hand drawing long lines on Kazuya’s arm as he held the boy close to him. “Besides,” he continued with an inviting tone, “it isn’t like we don’t have enough time to put in practice those ideas of yours.” He suggested with a smirk and a tease in his voice.
“Time…” Kazuya said dreamily, snuggling into Jin’s arms and humming happily. “Are we going to stay here?” He asked, thinking that it wouldn’t be such a bad idea to stay here with Jin in this house, away from the town’s ruckus and all of its dangers and temptations. It might even be heavenly.
“No.” Jin was quick to reject the idea and Kazuya stiffened a bit in his arms, thinking that his lover had already changed his mind and making the older one sigh and place a soothing kiss on the boy’s temple to calm him down. “We can’t stay in such place, it’s too close from my work and people could find us here.” He then proceeded to explain. “They will be looking for me - my enemies, my clients, the police.” Jin added and suppressed a sigh as he could already feel a headache forming because of what was Kazuya making him do.
“Really?” Kazuya asked sort of distrustful, starting to draw circles on his lover’s chest. “I thought it was quite far…” He then trailed a bit, sighing as he pushed himself up to be able to look into Jin’s eyes - “You haven’t changed your mind, have you?” He asked and there was a steely edge to his tone as he inquired this. It was obvious he wasn’t going to accept this easily, without a fight.
Jin smiled reassuringly. “No, I haven’t.” he replied slowly, wanting Kazuya to understand that this won’t happen either, no matter what. “But we can’t leave like this and we need to go back for the time being.” He then added, hoping that this won’t crush the younger one’s hopes. “I need to make sure that my men will cover our tracks before we leave, okay?” Jin said with a gentle tone, lifting his hand and cupping the boy’s cheek between his fingers.
Kazuya narrowed his eyes at his lover and kept quiet for a few moments before he allowed a smile to take over his brooding and doubting expression. “So, we’re leaving.” He exhaled some air, happiness etched on his features. “Do you know where or are we just going to be wild adventurers?” Kazuya asked with a childish expression, cuddling back into Jin’s arms. There was a future lying open in front of them and he wanted to take full advantage of it - finally, they had a chance at life.
“Not yet.” Jin confessed with a hum in his voice. They needed to leave the country - that was already obvious - but he had no idea where to go. He had always liked the idea of travelling over seas and going to America, starting a new life there. They could also go to Europe and see that London that he knew Kazuya was so fond of or they could even go to their neighbours for some time and visit Korea or maybe even Thailand.
After all, they had all the time in the world they needed to make their decisions and start a new life - together.
Looking down at Kazuya in his arms and watching him with his closed eyes and a peaceful expression on his face, Jin knew the truth - he had made the right choice after all.
*
A sudden call from Jin and Kazuya was already on his way to his lover’s apartment, thinking that finally they will leave this fucked up city, they will leave everything behind that made them rot. He had never thought he would really manage to convince Jin to leave with him, but he had done it and now, he wasn’t sure if he should feel happy or disappointed.
Jin had given into his will, but he didn’t actually want it, right? Kazuya was pretty much aware of this, but insanely enough, he was optimistic thinking that maybe after a while, the older one will realize that this had been the right decision.
The younger one took a deep breath as he pressed the doorknob to open the door to Jin’s apartment, entering with a smile on his face. “Jin?” He called out, but there was no answer, so he decided to check the living room which he found oddly empty. “Jin?” He tried again, worried that maybe something had happened. He went to the bedroom and the image he saw had him disconcerted and speechless.
“My God.” Kazuya whispered to no one as he rushed to the man tied to a chair. “Pi! What the fuck…” He grabbed Pi’s face, seeing that the guy was unconscious and not reacting. “Pi!” He hit gently his cheek, not knowing or understanding what this meant.
And where was Jin?!
“Are you having fun tonight?” Jin’s voice was heard and Kazuya turned to face his lover who was wearing a mad smirk on his lips, his arms crossed against his chest and his body supported by the door’s frame. His eyes seemed sad in one way, but what was more visible than that was the pain from them and also the delight of being able to do this. He had to. For one last time.
It was the forth time he was asking Kazuya this question.
“What happened, Jin?” Kazuya asked, hoping that his lover will snap out of it. Was it because of what he had done the last week? But what involvement had Pi in all this? It had been him who kidnapped Jin and tied him to a bed, Pi had had nothing to do with this. Or was he punished for not being able to rescue him earlier? But why call Kazuya to assist to such things? And hadn’t Jin been okay with everything? Hadn’t he forgiven Kazuya for his reckless actions, why was everything on the wrong turn again?
Just what the fuck happened?!
“What happened?” Jin laughed and rolled his eyes. “I don’t know.” He shrugged and entered the room, slamming the door behind him and then taking care to lock it after him. He sighed as if it had been a very tiresome job to do and then proceeded to go to the window, throwing the key out and then also closing the window. “You know, I was watching a movie a few weeks ago and I suddenly thought of something.” Jin continued as he now went to the desk and took the remote control from it, pointing it to the TV and pressing play. “A very interesting movie, I must say, though I didn’t really like the ending.” He said with a thoughtful voice as images of Kazuya kissing with Yamashita started to appear on the screen, his face changing expression in a matter of seconds - anger, fury, disappointment, sadness, hurt, madness.
Kazuya’s face paled as he saw himself cheating on Jin, so he went quickly to the TV and shut it down. “Jin, that was a mistake.” He said as he took a deep breath, though half realizing that his lover had already snapped and there was going to be murder. That was why Pi was there - he was going to get killed by his friend. “You know I love you, I proved it to you, remember?” Kazuya took small steps towards Jin, wary of any actions of the other one. “Why do you have to do this now? Weren’t we good? Baby, please.” He stopped in front of Jin, looking at him pleadingly as he cupped shakily Jin’s cheeks. Hadn’t they already solved this? Jin had asked about Yamapi and Kazuya had replied to him, confessing to everything that had happened. He had thought that it had ended at that point, but it seemed that his lover had other plans and they had only been delayed by his stupid actions of kidnapping the older one.
“I know you love me.” Jin simply replied, his eyes boring into Kazuya’s as they seemed to be the only thing that allowed the younger one to see his real emotions. His face was expressionless and his body was stiff, not betraying any sign of Jin actually having all those feelings that were torturing his soul. He was hurt and he wanted revenge. “Despite that, you still made out with my best friend.” He accused his lover and narrowed his eyes at the other one. “I just have to make sure that it won’t happen again.” He finished, not moving the whole time and not even bothering to remove Kazuya’s hands from his cheeks.
It was more than obvious that he didn’t care about anything anymore.
Kazuya’s eyes widened in fear and he pulled away from Jin. “Then I won’t be a part of your madness, not anymore.” He shook his head in refusal as he backed away and away until he hit the door Jin had locked earlier. “I said to you - I want us both out of your vicious world because this is what it’s doing to you, to us.” He continued and with a sigh, he lowered his head in disappointment. “I want out, Jin.” He demanded to be free and he started rattling the doorknob, wanting it to open.
“And I said I’ll be giving that to you, but first I need to do something before leaving my world for you. You accepted it so don’t start complaining right now.” Jin shrugged yet again, not even bothering to look at Kazuya and instead taking a step towards his old friend, his lips curled up into a mad and excited smile.
“Jin, I don’t want to be here.” Kazuya started and his voice seemed to be stronger now, not pleading like before. “You can fucking do whatever you want, but don’t drag me in this anymore.” He insisted and started pulling on the door, kicking it with his feet when it wouldn’t open. “I’ve had it.” Kazuya muttered as he pushed himself against the door, hurting his shoulder in the process, but he wouldn’t care.
“I would really appreciate if you didn’t make that much noise.” Jin hissed as he looked at his lover but then he laughed, stopping behind Yamashita and grabbing him by his hair to pull his head up, a few signs of where he had been hit now being visible on his face. “Look what you’ve done,” he continued with a reprimanding voice and a cute pout, “you’ve woken up our guest.” He sighed as Yamashita’s eyes were slowly starting to open.
Kazuya feared to glance at Pi who was looking around with a confused and pained expression on his face. But he did and he couldn’t suppress the nausea that got to him. Another person was going to die because of him, Jin was going to kill him and he wouldn’t care that he had been his friend. “Jin, please, stop it.” Kazuya muttered, but not loud enough and before he knew, he started throwing things around and especially into the door. He wanted to leave that place no matter what.
He won’t see another man die because of him!
Jin just laughed and seemed awfully amused by Kazuya’s reaction. He needed two steps to get behind Kazuya and catch him by his arms, bringing the boy’s body into his as Jin glued the younger one’s back to his chest and continued to laugh in his ear, though this time it just seemed cruel and vengeful. “Come on, baby, you enjoyed kissing my best friend.” He said with a purring voice, though disgust and hate were obvious in his tone. “Now look at him, look how defenseless he is because of you.” Jin added and forced Kazuya to turn around and look at Pi who was now staring back at them, bringing two fingers to Kazuya’s chin when the boy refused to do what he had said and holding him back with only one arm.
Kazuya shut his eyes, not wanting to see anything of what Jin wanted him to see, constantly shaking his head from Jin’s grasp. “It’s because of you. You’re the one who only knows how to kill others.” He then hissed angrily, trying to break free from Jin’s hold. “And I won’t be a part of your sick game.” He added, finally pulling his chin away from Jin’s fingers. Right now, anything that concerned Jin had him nauseous.
Jin’s eyes darkened as a new wave of fury hit him, not leaving anything behind except his pure and raw anger. His fingers clenched once more on Kazuya’s chin as he turned the boy around and be able to stare into his defying eyes. “My sick game?!” he hissed, his voice sounding like he was on the verge of finally losing that point of sanity that he had been holding onto. “This is all your sick game, you bastard, since the moment you kissed my best friend!!” he raised his tone and pushed Kazuya with all of his strength, making him tumble over Pi and almost sending both of them to the ground.
It only seemed to make things worse though because as his eyes fell on the two of them standing so close to each other and almost looking like they were hugging, he finally snapped. “You were a whore from the first moment I saw you and you never stopped being one!!” he added as he leaned down and grabbed Kazuya by his collar, pulling him up and lifting him off the ground a few inches. “You never missed the opportunity to cheat on me every damn time!!” Jin said, his eyes sparkling with madness as he saw the younger one trying to free himself from his grip but only succeeding to make himself choke even more.
Kazuya grimaced because of the pain Jin’s hold inflicted on him. But what hurt the most were his words which, to greater displeasure, were sort of true. Although he didn’t want to hear such things from someone like Jin.
“Better a whore than a criminal like you.” Kazuya said with an awfully calm voice, even if it was strangled because of his collar biting into his neck. As these words were uttered, the disdain was clearly etched on every feature of his face. “You call him your best friend? Ha, don’t make me laugh. I never thought of killing Koki after what you did with him. And, mind you, I saw everything live and happening in my own damned house. Yet I didn’t want to kill him. You, yes, my best friend, never.” The younger one continued and despite his hateful and mocking voice, there was a certain bitterness and disappointment. “And, oh, I did enjoy kissing Pi and there was also another man from your stupid world whom I kissed. You know, the one who drugged me.” Kazuya then confessed, not caring if he was digging his hole or Pi’s or anyone’s, he just wanted to hurt Jin. “And this, just to reaffirm your belief and statement that I’m a whore.” He added on an impulse, aware of the fact that this will make Jin even crazier than he already was. Well, it didn’t matter anymore, did it?
And Kazuya was right because Jin’s eyes flashed red and he threw Kazuya on the bed with all the strength he could muster, an inhuman growl leaving his lips as he felt more wounded by Kazuya’s words than his actions. He couldn’t think clearly anymore, he couldn’t see clearly either. He tried to close his eyes but all he saw was Kazuya kissing and hugging Koki. He opened them and he saw Kazuya together with his best friend even if the two of them were at a reasonable distance at that point. All he could see was Kazuya with someone. With someone else. With someone that wasn’t him.
And it hurt more than anything else.
“It seems that I’ve made a mistake when I thought that you could change and actually love me.” Jin finally said something, but his voice was calm and cold and it predicted a terrible storm, more terrifying than if he had been screaming. Pi flinched on the chair, aware of the changes in Jin and knowing what will follow at this point.
There was no one who could stop Jin now.
“You wanted to be a part of my world, right?” the older one laughed and climbed on bed, burying his fingers into Kazuya’s hair and pulling him back on his feet, completely ignoring the boy’s screams because of the pain. “Let’s see you then.” He added and he pushed Kazuya into the dresser next to them, not even looking at the other one as he proceeded to go and take another chair and put it in front of his best friend.
“You’re really pathetic, you know that?” Yamapi finally interfered, speaking with a voice full of disdain but it was obvious that it wasn’t for Jin in general or for what he was going to do to him - he had been expecting it at some point, just like his father - but more for the person that Jin was in that moment because of Kazuya. “To become this weak because of a whore? Despicable.”
“Shut up!!” Jin thundered and the back of his hand hit Yamashita’s cheek in a sudden fit of anger, sending him to the ground. “You don’t have the right to talk like this about Kazuya!!” he said, defending the younger one without even realizing as it had become imprinted in his soul to always be on his lover’s side. Not when the said lover had been cheating on him though.
“What?” Yamashita laughed. “You don’t like to hear the truth from others?” he said with a mean voice, having a slight idea about what Jin wanted to do with that chair and why he had set it up in front of his own. He knew that Jin was cruel and even more than that, but he had never expected to be betrayed by his best friend because of a stupid slut that he had picked up in some club. Kazuya didn’t even love Jin, he wasn’t willing to give his life for Jin like the older one would have done for Kazuya.
No matter what, Jin was the only one losing in this relationship and he was too stupid to see it.
“I said to shut up.” Jin demanded once more as he approached the fallen Yamapi and fetched a small knife from his pocket - the one that had been a present from his friend. “Or I’ll make you.” He added with a threatening tone as he pressed the blade on the other one’s skin, pushing slightly on his neck to make him feel the danger, not just hear it.
Kazuya groaned from the place he was, his vision a little blurry as he looked at Jin’s figure looming over Pi’s one. He cursed in his mind and kept wondering how the hell this had happened and where did they go wrong.
“Jin.” Kazuya called out to his lover, standing up a little wobbly as he had hit his head. He saw the older one throw a look back at him and he brought a hand to his hurting skull. “I’m the one guilty here, so,” his lips curled a little, “take it on me.” He continued, now up and leaning against the dresser. He still didn’t trust his legs for the moment - Jin had thrown him way too hard.
The older one’s eyes sparkled and his lips spread in obvious delight and joy. “Oh, but that’s what I’m doing.” He clarified, letting Yamashita go as he straightened himself up and turned his back on his friend, now facing Kazuya again. “You wouldn’t care that much if I hurt you physically and besides, I never took my revenge on you directly, did I?” Jin said and took a step forward, lifting his hand to cup Kazuya’s cheek. “But you’ll care if I kill someone you kissed and you’ll remember next time not to do it again. Am I right?” he asked, knowing that whatever answer would Kazuya give, nothing will change.
Though he couldn’t deny that the truth might make things a little better.
“I care if you kill.” Kazuya said with a clear voice as he looked at Jin with a fierce expression. “But you don’t care if you’re the one giving me nightmares because of your actions.” He then added, swatting Jin’s hand away from his cheek and taking Jin’s other hand, the one with the knife, and pointing it to his own heart, the tip gently puncturing his shirt. “This is not the world I wanted for you and me. So why not end it already?”
“Because I don’t want you to die.” Jin answered easily, pulling on his hand until it slipped from Kazuya’s fingers maybe too easily. “I love you and I want to be with you in life, not in death. I have no plans of dying soon and you won’t do it either, not as long as I’m here.” He added, this time with a softer voice as he realized that he had scared the boy a bit. He didn’t want that, he wanted Kazuya to understand him, not to be scared of him. He wanted to let Kazuya know what it meant to be a part of his world, of the world he had sought so much. “This is what you wanted, right? To let you come with me out on the streets.” Jin reminded his lover of his desperate attempts to try and know Jin better, going so far as to even get drugged by someone just because he had bribed Kazuya with some information about his boyfriend. Jin had even been kind enough to let Yamashita tell his story - even if it was full of holes as Jin was the only one to know exactly what had happened - but it still hadn’t been enough for Kazuya.
He had wanted more and he had gotten burned.
Jin smiled as he let go of the knife and put it back into his pocket, his hands now drawing lines on Kazuya’s arms in a soothing way. “This is my life, Kazuya, and I’m going to show you every bit of it, exactly like you had wanted me to do.” He confessed, gently pushing the boy on the chair that was standing behind him.
Kazuya looked at Jin, pleading him with his eyes not to do something that will mark their love even more, that will taint their love in blood. But it was no use and he knew it too well - “Then do whatever you want.” He said with a blank voice, his eyes turning emotionless. “But I will not watch your crimes anymore.” And with this, he bent and curled into a ball, closing his eyes and covering his ears. If he wanted to still be sane, he had to block everything Jin made him insane - so he started humming.
Jin smiled, not really bothered by the fact that Kazuya was trying to block him as he knew that soon it will become impossible with the way Yamashita will be screaming. He seriously doubted that his friend will start begging for his life, but Jin knew him well enough to know which points to press to make him scream in pain at least. And Kazuya was going to hear him, definitely.
“Now where were we, Pi?” Jin turned to the other one, the smile widening on his lips as he looked at the man fallen on the ground and not making any attempt to pull himself up. “Oh, you were talking too much.” He added with a thoughtful expression, as if he had just remembered what he had never forgotten. “We have to do something about that, don’t we?” the older one said as he pulled on Yamashita’s clothes to pull him up again, settling the chair at its original position and taking out his knife for the second time that day.
“I was actually saying how pathetic you are for falling in love with a whore that would even sleep with someone else while saying that he loves you.” Yamashita was kind enough to remind him, receiving another hit from Jin but not caring about it as he continued to speak. “Really now, I had more respect for you when you were ten and killed my father.” He added but was quickly shut up by Jin.
“Stick out your tongue.” The older one ordered and Yamashita looked surprised at him for a moment. “I said to stick out your tongue!!” Jin repeated, his voice raised and sounding more like a thunder that was ripping apart everything from that chamber.
The other one flinched on the chair, finally realizing what was in store for him. His eyes met Jin’s into a staring contest, a discussion without words starting between the two of them. He knew that Jin will still do it even if he was fighting it so there was really no way out for him. Struggling would only make it worse, he knew Jin well enough to be able to realize this from his gaze alone.
So he closed his eyes and did what he had been told.
Screams filled the whole house as Jin pressed the blame to Yamashita’s tongue and cut it slightly, having the other one back down involuntarily. “It’s not good, Pi, like this.” He cooed with a delighted voice and watched as his old friend tried to compose himself and stuck out his tongue again.
So Jin continued to cut his tongue.
PART II