Secret Whispers - Chapter twelve [part II]

[aroruae]

PART I

“You shouldn’t be too hard with him.” Jin said as soon as Kazuya came back, sitting back on the couch and waiting for the younger to do the same - though he had some doubts Kazuya was calm enough to sit down. “He didn’t do anything.”

Kazuya eyed Jin and sighed tiredly. “I know that.” He replied, though a few moments earlier he had indeed accused Yuuya of doing something bad. “But what was he accused of?” He asked, looking earnestly at Jin. He had to think of how he could clear his brother’s name. A good lawyer was a good start.

“It seemed that he was at a party last night and the owners accused him of stealing a one thousand dollars watch. The police came after him today and he didn’t want you to worry so he called me. He told me he didn’t want you to see him in a cell.” Jin confessed with an understanding voice, obviously not blaming Yuuya at all for what happened and considering him an innocent victim.

Kazuya cursed silently. “He was stupid for not trusting me first.” He muttered under his breath, ruffling his hair with a slightly trembling hand. “You said you bailed him. How much was the bail?” The younger looked at Jin, asking for the second time this question. He had a feeling that the actor wasn’t keen on sharing this bit of information, but Kazuya will know it.

“Look, it’s all taken care of.” Jin said and stood up, not feeling comfortable to watch Kazuya from below. “I also asked a friend for his help so the lawyer problem is also solved.” He added as he looked into the boy’s eyes, waiting for the opposition. “In a few days, everything will be over.”

Kazuya scowled at his lover. “You know what’s my opinion about all this, no?” He asked Jin with a serious tone.

“I know and I also know that you love your brother and that this is more important than the fact that you don’t want to accept money from me.” Jin replied simply. “I’m your lover, Kazuya, please let me help you. Besides, it would be good for Yuuya too to not have to deal with all the problems, especially because he didn’t do anything.” He continued, trying to remind the younger one that Jin was the one with money and friends and connections and he could make everything seem like it never existed in the first place.

But Kazuya was proud and he wasn’t going to accept this easily. “I’ll pay you back, no matter how much it is.” He said stubbornly, his eyes fierce in determination. “And even if Yuuya didn’t do anything, he has to know how to avoid such a situation next time, knowing the consequences it brought.” He added, convinced that this was the best way to have Yuuya realize that life wasn’t easy and that there won’t be Kazuya or Jin to save him.

Jin sighed in defeat. “We’ll talk about money when all of this is over, okay?” he said and stretched his hand to grab Kazuya’s and bring him into his arms, Jin’s hands immediately settling on his waist. “Yuuya-kun is young, I’m sure he’ll learn enough from this experience even if he doesn’t see you struggling with money right now, okay?” he said with a light smile on his lips.

Kazuya seemed to ponder on this. “You should have told me that Yuuya was in trouble.” He then accused, changing the subject. He’ll found out everything he wanted when he’ll go to this police station tomorrow so maybe it was better to drop the subject for the time being as Jin seemed to be a little evasive in answering his questions. “He was the one that called you back there in the park, no?”

“Yes.” Jin admitted with a guilty look, avoiding Kazuya’s eyes. “Sorry about not telling you but Yuuya-kun asked me and I didn’t know in that moment what happened so I thought it’s best to first know and then talk with you.” He confessed, his voice losing its volume as he continued to talk.

Kazuya sighed, not even having the strength to shout at Jin for keeping silent. “He was scared, wasn’t he?” he asked and let himself be enveloped by Jin’s arms. “He was all alone and I couldn’t help him at all. I didn’t even worry when it turned ten in the evening, thinking that he was out with his friends. I couldn’t be by his side and I even doubted his innocence.” Kazuya said all of a sudden, his hands clutching onto Jin’s shirt, guilt and sadness poured into his words. “I hate this me. I want to help him, I want to give him the best, but…” Words failed him and Kazuya hid his face into Jin’s chest, fighting back his tears. He wasn’t supposed to cry, Yuuya needed him to be strong.

“Kazuya, you’re the best brother anyone could ever want.” Jin comforted his lover, tightening his hold a little and wanting him to know his honest feelings from his body if his words couldn’t convince him. “Yuuya-kun cares about you more than anything in the world, that’s why he didn’t want to tell you then. He was afraid you’d be disappointed in him.” He said with a whispered but firm voice, trying to remind him that Kazuya should have known this better than anyone. “But he knows he can rely on you and that you’d do anything to help him.” Jin continued, wondering for a second when he had gotten to know the boy that well. But… it wasn’t hard, especially when you saw the kind of bond the two brothers had. It was obvious that the death of their parents had brought them closer than ever and the fact that they only had each other had strengthened their relationship. Nothing could tear them apart.

Kazuya sobbed and tried to compose himself. Jin was right, Yuuya trusted Kazuya as much as he trusted Yuuya. They were the only ones left and they had had no one else since young age. They will always turn to each other even if along the way there might be other people’s help. “Thank you.” Kazuya said to Jin, thinking that it was a blessing that the older had been there to help Yuuya. And the fact that Yuuya had called Jin showed to him that the youngest believed in Jin more than enough. “Really… thank you.” He said another time, holding the singer tighter.

“I’m glad I helped you, even a little.” Jin confessed and placed a kiss on Kazuya’s temple. He parted a little from the younger, just enough to look him in the eyes and erase those tears of his with his thumbs. “You know I would do anything for you, right?” he then said with a soft and gentle smile curling his lips.

Kazuya smiled back and gave a slight nod. He was already aware of this and he hoped that when time will come, he’ll be able to return this to Jin. He wanted to be able to do anything for his lover too. “Would you like to sleep over tonight?” Kazuya asked and saw Jin’s face brightening. The answer was obvious and it made the younger chuckle as he detached himself from Jin to make the bed.

Twenty minutes later, both of them were under the covers, in each other’s arms, enjoying their third night spent together, despite its circumstances.

*
Baby love, can't imagine
 It's like magic, I found this love

Baby love, can't get closer

'Cause you're the closest, baby.

Baby love, I got a question

Did I mention

Is this real, or are we drinking the love?

You got me tipsy, baby…

The words rolled off his lips and Jin heard his fans cheering with him, bringing a big smile on his lips as he listened to their answer. He closed his eyes for a second and he could almost picture Kazuya on stage with him, sharing the same excitement and sensations that were making Jin’s blood burn in that moment as the fans continued their chorus. The lights were blinding but Jin could see every face of the people gathered there for the first time and it was also the first time he realized how much did they mean for him. He was a Japanese man and the Japanese fans were the ones who had brought him there, on that stage.

Why had he been avoiding Japan that much until now?

Is this for real?

Imagination got me thinking about this infatuation

Your loving whisper has me longing for that cup of sweet love

Don't need no hundred dollar bill

Cuz you're the only one I'll ever need.

And it really seemed like a dream sometimes, how Kazuya had finally accepted him, how he had admitted that he cared about Jin and might even feel something more for him… It made him feel like he could fly over the rainbow and then come back to take the younger with him. He couldn’t stop the smile from curling up his lips as he continued to sing, hearing the fans singing with him and knowing that Kazuya was also among them and cheering for him.

If I said, 'Do you love me?'

Would you say, 'Ye-oh'?

If I said, 'Do you need me?'

Would you say, 'Ye-oh'?

I'll keep you dry when the rain falls

'Cause I've never been so enthralled

Don't know how

And I don't need nothing else…

He knew that a small part of him was singing these lyrics especially for Kazuya and was still waiting for that confession that seemed to never come even if it had been two months now. It was too early and Jin knew that feelings of love couldn’t develop in such a short time, but this didn’t mean that he had to stop hoping, right? Besides, the confidence that he had had at the beginning of their relationship hadn’t evaporated into thin air and was still there and was making Jin go forward with the belief that one day - and soon - Kazuya will say back the magical words.

Until then, he just had to keep on asking.

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah…

*

It had been a wonderful concert.

His first time to a concert and Kazuya knew that he will remember it forever. Because up there, on the stage, his lover had been the one singing with such a powerful and deep voice that he was sure each one of his fans had been touched right down to the core. Of course, most of Jin’s songs were party ones and he could see this enthusiastic side of his lover in them and well, how he loved parties. But there had also been the romantic songs, the ones that had swayed Kazuya’s heart even if they were in English and he didn’t understand the language that much. But they had reached his heart and he believed that Jin had been singing for him… for them.

And he couldn’t even express the avalanche of emotions that had come flowing at him during Jin’s concert. He felt choked, he felt loved, he felt protected, he felt lost - he felt everything just because he had listened to Jin’s singing. And also he had felt like partying all night if Jin was there.

This thought brought a smile on Kazuya’s lips as he exited the concert hall, together with the excited fans, allowing himself to feel just a bit different from them. And he was, Jin had said it even before the concert and he had sensed it too during it. He looked up at the starry sky and a sudden idea struck him up. With a grin plastered on his face, he nailed a cab and headed for Jin’s apartment.

Twenty minutes later, he was entering the house and quickly went to the kitchen, searching in the fridge. He breathed relieved seeing that at least it wasn’t empty and he could still make a delicious meal for his lover for when he’ll get back home. He went to wash his hands, not before texting Yuuya to bring him some stuff over to Jin’s place. He didn’t know how long will it take for Jin to contact him, but he had a hunch it wouldn’t take much. And he was right - not even ten minutes passed since he began to prepare the food that his lover was already calling him. Kazuya chose to ignore for the time being the call as he needed time to finish what he had in mind.

Everything seemed to be changing. The problem with Yuuya had been solved maybe too quickly, but that had happened only with Jin’s help and because of that friend-lawyer of his. He had easily proven that his brother was innocent and had explained to the court how he had been drugged by the girl and then dragged to a room for him to be the one incriminated as the others had seen only him going there and not even a trace of the girl. In the end, the boy had been released without any charge and the real criminal had received the punishment. Yuuya had said how sorry he was for all the trouble that he had caused to his brother and to Jin and even if Kazuya had wanted to stay mad at him for his carelessness, Jin had smiled at him and had ruffled his hair, telling him that it was okay.

Kazuya had given in without any second thought after seeing their smiles.

But it wasn’t only that. Their life together was changing because of the time spent together too. Lately, they had started to spend more and more time with each other, especially after Jin had finished filming for his movie and Kazuya had been left only with his job for Ryo. It also seemed that the producer had accepted him as a full-time employee and they were to start working at a new project in a few days, after Kazuya would finish his former job. The premiere of Jin’s movie had been two days ago and he still had some things to wrap, after which he was free to work only for Ryo.

And to spend more time with his lover too.

By the time Yuuya got to Jin’s apartment, Kazuya had twenty calls and numerous messages from his lover, asking him where he was. Yuuya had laughed at this, but Kazuya had shunned him away, telling him to be careful on the back way home and to go to sleep, because he was going to spend this night at Jin’s. With his brother’s laughter still ringing in his ears, Kazuya typed a message to Jin, rest assured that he still had time to finish.

Come home.

It was a simple message but he knew that it will calm Jin down or it will make him drive like a storm and enter like one too in his apartment. But before the storm should come, Kazuya had lots to arrange. He went into the hallway and places some candles, giving the place a warm and eerie feeling in the same time. Then he took some white rose petals out of the bag Yuuya had brought and let them fall on the floor, creating a path to Jin’s bedroom. In there, another set of candles were lit and together with red roses petals, they had a special message, one that he hoped Jin would like…

After he finished setting everything in the bedroom, he went to the kitchen and set out the food on the plates, beautifully decorating it. He also checked the small cake inside the refrigerator and boy, he was glad that Yuuya had found an open shop at this hour. Everything was almost finished - except for the person for whom he had done all this. And as if called, a click was heard and Kazuya rushed to turn the lights off in the kitchen, the darkness hiding him in its shadows.

His heart beat a little faster as he heard the footsteps getting closer to the kitchen and passing it, Jin continuing to follow the road of petals that Kazuya had displayed for him towards his bedroom. The singer opened the door and his heart stopped for a moment when his eyes fell on all the candles and roses that Kazuya had prepared for him. He couldn’t say a word and as he continued to stay there, in the door’s frame, Jin thought that he’ll never be able to move from there or react in any way to what he was seeing.

To be honest, it still seemed like a dream but as Jin finally took a step in the room and nothing changed, he couldn’t deny the truth that he had been waiting for anymore. On one side of the bed, Kazuya had aligned the candles to form the letter ‘I’. In the middle of the bed, there were spread lots of roses’ petals which seemed to form something on the entire surface of the bed - a red heart. And at last, on the other side of the bed, there were other candles set up to form Jin’s name in kanji.

I love Jin.

He had never thought that such simple words could make him feel this happy. He had never thought that the feeling of love could be so exhilarating, so fulfilling and so… warm. Jin had never thought that his heart could beat so fast into his chest, making him feel like he was rapidly losing control over it and finding out that he didn’t care about it, not when his heart was already stolen and Jin had no intention of taking it back ever. His body trembled a little as he took another step and another until he stopped in front of the bed, his eyes being mesmerized by the image that was dancing in front of him. It looked so beautiful, so extraordinary just because Kazuya had been the one to make it and Jin had been the one to receive it. Everything seemed more special because it was them and they didn’t need anything more. He stretched his hand and touched the petals, taking a few of them in his hand and then letting them fall back on the bed, along with a few tears.

He was crying? Why? He didn’t know but when Jin finally noticed his own tears, he was already sobbing a little and couldn’t stop. Kazuya loved him. The one he loved was loving him back. His heart wasn’t his anymore and his mind wasn’t stable enough to judge and to realize why he was crying or why he felt suddenly so overwhelmed by all of this.

Kazuya loved him.

And Jin couldn’t ask for anything more.

He heard steps approaching him but Jin didn’t turn to look at Kazuya and stayed there, still watching the message and not believing it. It seemed incredible and surreal. It seemed impossible. It seemed… so real in the same time that Jin wanted to cry even more because he couldn’t fly to the moon and yell to the whole world how happy he was.

Kazuya approached his lover and hugged him from behind, not realizing the effect his message had had on Jin. He let his head rest on the back of the actor, feeling his heart beat so fast, even from the position they both stood. He closed his eyes, his own heart answering to the call of the other. He felt happy and protected, holding the one he loved and trying to show his love he had for him. “Jin…” The name rolled out his lips like a chant, calling his lover, casting a spell on him. “I -” he stopped, his heart raced a bit more. “I love you.” Kazuya whispered the words, knowing that a message written with candles and roses wasn’t enough. There will always be a need to say such feelings.

And Jin’s heart stopped completely.

“Kazuya…”he called his lover’s name, still sobbing a little but now trying to calm himself. He took a deep breath, feeling after a couple of minutes that he could manage this, and took Kazuya’s hands from his waist, allowing him to turn into the younger’s arms and to hug him back. And then he smiled. He smiled so brightly as his eyes met Kazuya’s that Jin already felt his cheeks hurting, not aware of the fact that he had been smiling since his eyes had fallen on that written message. He leaned down and kissed the younger’s mouth, soft and gently, using only his lips and grinning into the kiss as Kazuya answered with the same gentleness and warmth he had put into their sweet connection too. “I love you too, baby.” He said and his heart did some flip-flops at the sound of his own voice.

“I know.” Kazuya replied with a smile and a soft caress on the cheek. “I’ve been hearing it for a while now.” He then chuckled and slipped away from Jin’s arms. “Wait here, I have another surprise.” He said and without other words, he fled from the room only to return with a tray filled with Jin’s favorite food - pasta. Of course, Kazuya had added lots of his own cooking skills and this pasta wasn’t just the usual one, it was made with a special sauce and had different spices into it.

“Up in bed.” He said and grinned at the confusion showed on Jin’s face. “I made this from my heart and I want you to taste it while staying inside my heart.” He explained and his cheeks colored a bit under the swaying light of the candles.

Jin blinked a little, for a second not understanding what was the younger referring to, but only a glance at the bed explained everything. “Were you trying to be cheesy?” he teased his lover, remembering that Kazuya had done that a lot in the past two months, but he still climbed in bed, anxious to see what was next.

“Shut up.” Kazuya replied and handed to Jin the tray, not wanting to risk as he turned away, to run in the kitchen and bring two glasses and a cold bottle of white wine. He climbed up in the bed too, carefully not to sway the tray and make some beautiful mistake with his surprise. “Your concert was wonderful.” He said as he watched Jin take a mouthful of the pasta. “I totally loved it.”

“Thank you.” Jin replied with a smile and ate some more. “I was feeling a little weird at the beginning, to be honest.” He then added and chuckled a bit nervously. “It’s been a long time since I sang in Japan and all my songs were in English so…” he didn’t end his phrase and just sighed a little, knowing that Kazuya would understand.

The younger one chuckled and leaned to place a kiss on Jin’s forehead. “I’m sure that many of the Japanese fans were already aware of your English songs.” Kazuya said as a matter-of-factly, after all, he himself had found a couple of the songs Jin had sung tonight on the internet. “So… I’m sure everyone was thrilled to hear the songs you have been singing overseas.” He smiled at Jin and wiped with his thumb a bit of sauce from the corner of the older one’s mouth. He licked the finger afterwards.

“Yeah, but…” Jin said and gulped, decided to first ignore Kazuya’s unaware attempt to seduce him and focus on his food which seemed to be too incredible to be left alone and to go cold. “I came to Japan because my fans were starting to forget me so I wasn’t that sure.” He shrugged, like it didn’t bother him that much but it was clear that it was a lie.

Kazuya wanted to reassure Jin that his fans will never forget him, but something in his words made him suddenly realize something. He frowned for a moment and studied Jin for a couple more. “Your fans won’t ever forget you. Even if you’ll spend more time in America, they will always think of you.” He decided to say before asking what was suddenly bothering him. “Hmm… Jin, when are you supposed to go back to America?” Kazuya inquired and looked a bit too nonchalant to have just asked this on the spur of the moment. Actually, lately he had been thinking of this, though the incident with Yuuya hadn’t let him dwell too much on it. But now that everything was solved, it was time to ask. After all, Jin lived in America.

The actor gulped and looked like this was the last thing he wanted to discuss in that moment. “Actually…” he started and bit his lower lip, not having the courage to continue and to say the truth. He lowered his head and looked around his place, playing for a couple of seconds with his food before finally taking a deep breath and answering Kazuya’s question. “I have to go back in a week tops because I also have concerts scheduled there.” He confessed while looking into his lover’s eyes, wanting Kazuya to see that it was more than this. He straightened up and kept his eyes on the boy’s, visibly shaking a little. “And I want to tell you something.” He added and looked a little expectant.

Kazuya’s heart stopped for a bit as his mind was trying to cope with the sudden news. He bit on his lower lip and tried to smile. “Oh. What do you want to tell me?” he then asked, trying not to think that Jin would leave in a week and… he’ll be left behind.

“I want you to come with me.” Jin said directly, not wanting to beat around the bush or to delay this any more. He wanted Kazuya and he loved him more than anything.  And now that he was loved back… he didn’t intend to stop from anything.

How could this man make him feel emotions that threw him from one point to another without even a warning? Because right now, Kazuya was feeling choked and his heart was beating faster than ever. He looked with big eyes at Jin, his ears still not believing what he had heard. He opened his mouth but no word came out, then he closed his eyes and took a deep breath.

As he opened them, a smile came across his lips. “I’d love to come with you and the fact that you want me to come with you makes me the happiest tonight.” He said and then lowered his head for a moment in which he kept silent. But he had to do this, as much as he would have liked to go with Jin. “But I can’t. And you know this very well, but thank you.” He leaned and kissed Jin’s lips.

Jin looked desolated at hearing those words but it wasn’t as if he hadn’t expected them. “I knew you’d say that, I just thought we can make it work.” He said with a sad voice and laughed nervously. “I could help you find a job there and even Yuuya-kun could come with us if you’d like. Or we can wait for him to finish college and I’d come to see you when I’ll have a break. And we can talk daily on the phone to not feel that there’s any distance between us.” Jin continued to babble, half aware of the fact that it was useless, but half of him still hoping for a change of heart from Kazuya.  He sighed. “I love you, Kazuya, and I don’t want to lose you. Never.” He added with a small voice as he looked into his lover’s eyes, the hope still sparkling in them.

Kazuya’s heart swelled with happiness and licked his lips, looking a bit anxious. “You’ll never lose me.” He caressed Jin’s cheek and with the other hand, he moved the plate away as he got closer to his lover. “I promise you.” Kazuya whispered close to Jin’s lips before fully kissing him, sliding his tongue gently, tasting his lover’s mouth.

The older answered to the kiss but the uncertainty was still painfully there. Kazuya had only said that he won’t lose him. But Jin’s life wasn’t in Japan and Kazuya’s life wasn’t in America. How could they live together? By seeing each other a few months per year, as much as their jobs allowed them? Jin didn’t even want to think at those years when he didn’t have even a day off and how difficult would this make things for them.

He clutched his hands on Kazuya’s shirt and brought him closer, deepening their kiss and using more force to dominate the younger and completely take his mind away. He pulled on his shirt and then pulled again until their bodies were tangled together and Jin felt like they were one as they continued to kiss as if this was the last time. They slowly parted, breathing heavily and trying to regain their much needed air, looking into each other’s eyes.

“Please come with me.” Jin whispered again, his hands on Kazuya’s waist slightly trembling. He had never felt this way. His heart was beating so fast at the thought of losing Kazuya that Jin couldn’t stand it. He felt like it would be best to rip it out of his soul and throw it away than to have to deal with this pain of knowing that he couldn’t be with Kazuya anymore. A day felt like ten years and a second like an eternity.

It was too much time. “I don’t want to be without you not even a day.” Jin continued with pleading eyes, feeling his breath being taken away as he waited for an answer even if, deep in his heart, he already knew it.

Kazuya gulped and looked with sad eyes at Jin. He felt the same now, he wanted to see Jin every minute, every second and if he didn’t see him, he was painfully longing. And he knew that a phone call won’t erase or ease this longing and that he’ll be wishing to be by Jin’s side the moment he would end the call. “I feel the same, but I can’t come with you.” He said and as he did, such words hurt him as much they hurt Jin. “But we’ll make it through. After all the time it took us to get here, I know we will.” Kazuya smiled and kissed Jin once more, as if wanting to assure him that it was going to happen just like he said. “Now… want to eat some cake?” The younger asked, obviously wanting to change the subject and continue with his ideas for tonight.

“Yeah…” Jin accepted, his lips curling up a bit as he tried to smile but it was far from his real smiles. He had never had a long-distance-relationship and he didn’t know how was this supposed to work. If he was away all the time, then Kazuya would have the chance to meet someone else. He could fall in love with someone else and forget about Jin. He could…

He mentally slapped himself and his lips curled up a little more as he looked at Kazuya. He just had to trust his lover who had just said that he loved him. After that… they’ll know if their love was strong enough to break through the barrier of distance.

“Great.” Kazuya grinned and carefully slipped from Jin and the bed, taking the plates away too. “Can you pour some wine until I bring the cake?” The younger looked at Jin and there was a loving expression on his face. “After all… the night is long and I still have some surprises in my head.” Kazuya stuck his tongue naughtily and sprinted out of the room, looking happy.

Some surprises? Jin asked himself, wondering what did the younger plan for them. The candles and roses and food were already enough, not to mention that Kazuya had said the words that Jin had been waiting for probably since the first time he had laid his eyes on him. He was already feeling pretty happy just with this - not minding the earlier incident and the fact that they won’t be able to see each other for a long time now - and couldn’t think at what other surprises that Kazuya had.

“What? A striptease?” Jin joked by himself as he laid down on the bed, Kazuya’s glass sitting on the night table while his was in his hand, the actor slowly sipping from it as he thought of what would be next. The biggest surprise would be to have Kazuya sing for him which would be incredibly sweet but totally creepy in the same time and, to be honest, it would make Jin cackle harder than he ever did. Still, he couldn’t stop the smirk from appearing on his face, thinking that Kazuya might have some ways of entertainment that would require both of them naked and sweaty and…

Maybe he needed to stop thinking of this, it wasn’t good for his body. And even if Kazuya seemed to be comfortable now with them touching, it didn’t mean that he was ready to take it up to the next level. No, Jin was more than satisfied that Kazuya had told him his feelings because this meant the world to him and nothing could ever make him happier than this. It was enough for now, Jin thought as he heard Kazuya’s steps approaching his room, because they loved each other and they were going to make it work.

“It isn’t much, this cake.” Kazuya immediately said as he entered the room, carrying just one plate. After all, he had other type of dessert in his mind. “But I wanted something sweet and since you didn’t have any ingredients for a good dessert and I didn’t have much time at hand too, I settled with this cake.” He continued babbling as he climbed back into bed and handed the small plate to Jin. “But I promise to bake you one sometime.” Kazuya stated happily and looked around for his glass, spotting it on the night drawer.

“It’s perfect.” Was the only thing Jin said as he leaned close and kissed Kazuya on his cheek like a child did with his mother - he was feeling really dotted on in that moment. He took the spoon and grabbed a bite, closing his eyes in delight as he tasted it and making a happy sound to show how much he appreciated it. “Here.” He said and stretched his hand towards Kazuya with the spoon full and waiting for the younger to eat too.

Kazuya chuckled and opened his mouth, taking in the cake Jin was handing to him. His eyes widened at the sweetness of the dessert, but nonetheless it felt good. Still, Kazuya had his pride when it came to cooking. “But mine will still be better.” He said, wiping a bit of cream from his mouth. “And you eat like a child.” He added and licked the whipped cream from Jin’s mouth this time. “Mmm…” he made an appreciative sound. “It tastes better from here.” He smiled naughtily as he lounged and grabbed his own glass of wine, taking a sip from it.

“I would have a better idea from where to eat this cream.” Jin said innocently and shrugged a little, not looking at Kazuya and continuing to eat his cake like he hadn’t just implied something really… perverted.

Kazuya was glad he had sipped before Jin had said such words. He smiled and settled better on the bed. “Really?” He asked with an innocent air surrounding him. “And from where would you eat it?” He swirled his glass of wine and looked over the trim of the glass at his lover. His eyes told more than his playful words.

Jin cocked a curious eyebrow at the younger but seeing that Kazuya wasn’t answering or showing any sign of backing out, he smirked and put the plate on bed, rolling his finger through the cream and getting closer to his lover. “Well, I have a few interesting ideas.” The actor replied with a playful tone as he leaned over the younger, still grinning and his eyes promising something entertaining. “Your lips,” Jin started and brushed his finger on Kazuya’s lips, kissing them after, “your navel,” he continued and repeated the move on the next spot as he lifted the shirt just a bit, “ and somewhere lower.” He said and gulped before teasingly kissing Kazuya’s crotch through his pants, then looking up after to stare into Kazuya’s eyes with an alluring and devilish gaze.

Kazuya’s body tensed as sudden waves of electricity passed through it, making it tremble at Jin’s actions. He bit his lower lip, trying to suppress his own desire and ideas from taking over his body. “You have…” Kazuya licked his lips appreciatively. “…interesting ideas.” He finished the sentence with a perverted smile on his lips. “Take off your shirt.” He demanded and moved away from Jin as he put his glass back where it had been.

Jin looked a little curious at Kazuya’s demand, wanting the younger to take it off from him, but he still complied with his lover’s order, raising himself a little and taking off his shirt with a slow and maddening movement, slowing down even more on purpose as he enjoyed the look on Kazuya’s face too much to let it go that easily. “Your wish is my command.” He said with a smirk, throwing the shirt on top of Kazuya’s head with a laugh.

Kazuya joined him in laughter and folded the shirt, climbing off the bed to put it on a chair. He turned and looked at an expectant Jin, licking his lips with a yearning expression on his face. He was glad that there was no electrical light in the room and only the candles he had lit, it made Jin’s body look dream-like and he was dying to reach and fulfill this dream. “Now… lie on the bed, face down.” He asked and waited for Jin to submit to his will. And as he did so, Kazuya approached the bed with cat-like moves and the bed dipped a bit as he climbed again on it. “I know you’re thinking of more… but I want to have you relaxed before.” The younger said on a low and husky voice, temptation slipping from his lips. Then he slid a leg around Jin’s waist, straddling him and soon his hands were touching briefly over the older one’s yellow gold-like skin before pressing his fingers and slowly massaging the flesh.

Jin closed his eyes and enjoyed the treatment Kazuya’s fingers were offering him, trembling a little each time the movement would speed up and groaning low when it would slow down again. He settled his hands under his head to support it but as he started to feel more and more relaxed, he felt the need to stretch himself so he let them fall along his body and started to groan at the sensations he was having. “I didn’t know you have magical hands.” He breathed, feeling all his limbs going numb and his brain slowly shutting down. Not really the outcome he was hoping for, but it wasn’t that bad either, Jin mused as he let out another groan, sounding more like a moan.

“I’m all magical, what can I say?” Kazuya purred into Jin’s ear as he was slowly massaging his shoulders. “You’re not sleepy, are you?” He bit Jin’s ear lob before backing away, straightening himself, his hands never stopping from moving all over Jin’s back, pressuring, squishing and soothing in the same time.

“Not a bit.” Jin replied, thinking that he was getting kind of horny rather than sleepy. “I could stay here for days though.” He then added, a loud moan slipping his lips when he uttered the last word.

“Then… let me entertain you some more.” Kazuya whispered and leaned forward to get to the night drawer and took the glass of wine, settling back on Jin’s soft ass. “Just stay still…” He poured some cold wine on Jin’s skin, feeling him tense under him. “…and let me have my way.” Kazuya chuckled low and proceeded to lick the sliding liquid, his tongue moving along Jin’s skin, slithery like. “I think I’m going to get drunk on you, baby.” He whispered against the slightly cooled skin as he poured some more wine, now not only his tongue but also his lips was skimming along, small slurp sounds being heard in the suddenly silent room.

Jin laughed, feeling a little amused by this whole situation. “Tipsy love?” he asked with a curious voice, keeping his eyes close to not interrupt the wave of sensations that was hitting him hard and ruthlessly and made him tremble in pleasure though his voice didn’t seem to have yet been affected.

“Hmm…” Kazuya’s tongue went along Jin’s spine as his hand was feeling Jin too, moving up as well. “I’m way past tipsy.” He whispered against Jin’s ear, nibbling on it a little. “This is a deep drunken love.” He added and pulled away to have the glass back on the night drawer. Then he straightened, his fingers running gently and teasingly above Jin’s jeans’ waistband. “Jin…” he called and waited for the older to turn his head and look at him. “Make love with me.” Kazuya said on a small voice, his eyes locking with the other one’s.

Jin’s eyes widened at the sudden confession. He slowly turned around and as Kazuya settled back on top of him, he looked again at his lover with an inquiring gaze, like he wanted to search for the truth into those brown orbs that seemed to be clouded with lust in that moment. He slowly raised his right hand while the other one searched for Kazuya’s and entwined them, gently caressing his lover’s cheek. “Are you sure?” he asked with a small voice, feeling his heart pounding faster than ever. Of course he had dreamed of this moment since forever but now that it was here… Jin felt scared and insecure.

Kazuya gulped and bit on his lower lip. He leaned forward and slipped his hand under the pillow, pulling back a lotion tube from underneath it. When he saw Jin looking at it, he once more gulped and grasped tighter Jin’s hand. “I’m sure.” He said, blushing a bit. It had been nerve-wrecking to ask Yuuya to buy for him such a thing, but it was heart-racing to show it to Jin. “I don’t know… how it will be, but I’m sure that I want you and that I’ll take everything that’s you.” Kazuya continued, looking nervous, but ready.

Jin thought that his heart had completely died and gone to heaven when he faced Kazuya’s flushed and blushing face as he younger showed him the object from his hands. He smiled brightly and pulled Kazuya closer, gluing their lips and kissing them slowly and caressing them with his tongue. “I love you.” He whispered and tilted his head a little to deepen the kiss. “I love you, Kazuya.” He repeated as his hands settled now on Kazuya’s waist, gently brushing over the rim of his pants where a little skin was visible. “I love you.” He said for the third time as they parted a little for a breath of air and looked into each other’s eyes. “Never forget this.”

Kazuya smiled and nodded slightly, feeling at a loss of words. He kissed Jin back, thirsty for him and with his slightly shaking hands, he grabbed gently onto the other’s shoulders, his fingers all of a sudden cold. Their kiss was soft and deep, speaking of many emotions that were making their hearts race fast and in the same time. They had kissed before, but for this time… it felt different. It was different. Kazuya parted from Jin a bit breathless and looked with a self-conscious smile. “I love you too.” He whispered, closing his eyes for a moment. “I have loved you all along…  I just couldn’t bring myself to admit it or to even tell you. But I love you… I really do.” He continued, his voice a bit shaky, but filled with emotions. “It’s been a long time to reach this point, but hold onto me… never let me go.” Kazuya’s fingers dug painfully sweet into Jin’s shoulders. “I promise to do the same.” He vowed.

Jin laughed softly. “I think I would die without you.” He confessed, feeling stupid for being like this but not wanting to stop himself from expressing his honest feelings. “Even if you would leave me one day, I’d continue to pester you until you accept me back. If you disappear from my sight, I’ll search for you everywhere until I find you. You won’t be able to get rid of me that easily.” He chuckled and kissed again Kazuya’s lips.

“I’d never leave you, silly.” Kazuya nuzzled their noses together and this time, he held Jin by the neck. “And I won’t let you die.” He whispered as his fingers were playing with Jin’s soft locks and his lips were touching Jin’s at each word uttered by him. “But no more talk… sing to me Body Talking.” Kazuya asked and passed his tongue over the other’s lips, inviting to a more intimate dance.

Jin groaned, wanting to devour those delicious lips and feel them touching his body more than ever. He raised his head a little to catch Kazuya’s lips into a new kiss, this time more demanding and more powerful than both of them had ever felt, grinding their bodies and brushing his hips against the younger’s in search of more friction. “Hmm… wait a second.” Jin breathed as he parted from Kazuya and detached from the younger to take the plate with the cake they had forgotten on the bed to put in on the table and then rolled Kazuya over to sit in the now empty space, Jin standing above him and grinning like an idiot. “Much better.” He joked and laughed as their lips touched again, their hands entwining and the need to have less clothes becoming a little unbearable.

The younger laughed too and pulled Jin closer. “Maybe I wanted you to taste that cake like you had suggested earlier…” He purred, pulling a bit on Jin’s lip, biting it gently and licking it with his tongue. Kazuya lifted his hips a little, managing to slide one leg between Jin one’s and slowly rubbing his knee against his lover’s lower part. “Though you’re sweet enough yourself.” Kazuya added with a cheesy smile and slipped his tongue inside Jin’s mouth, fully tasting it again and never getting tired of its taste.

“There’s always time for second round.” Jin breathed against Kazuya’s lips, his hands slowly pulling on the boy’s shirt, opening the buttons one by one and then slipping it away from his shoulders. “You’re so gorgeous, Kazuya.” He said as his eyes fell on the white skin that seemed to be so alluring to his eyes and the tiny nipples which looked so sweet to suck on. His lips left the younger’s mouth and descended on his body, licking and sucking on it, taking his time and placing lots of kisses on Kazuya’s neck, biting softly on it but hard enough to leave a red mark. “This is only mine to see.” Jin continued as his tongue circled the small nub and sucked on it. “Only mine to touch.” He added and his right hand found the other nipple and pinched it gently, pressing his thumb on it and then placing it between his index and middle fingers, teasingly moving them around it.

“Y-yes…” Kazuya half moaned the answer, his body arching a little under Jin’s fingers and lips. “Yours…” he breathed once more and closed his eyes in pleasure, Jin being the only one that mattered for him in that moment. He was feeling, tasting and breathing only Jin and he needed nothing else.

The older smirked and continued his administrations, pleased to hear more and more of Kazuya’s moans as his fingers touched him expertly and elicited sounds of approval with every move of his. His lips continued to descend on the younger’s burning skin, caressing it with his tongue and then dipping the tip of it into Kazuya’s navel, feeling the boy shaking under him. “Another weak spot?” Jin chuckled as he slowly sucked on the skin surrounding his lover’s belly and gently bit on it, pulling on it with his teeth and then soothing it with his lips only to have his tongue buried again into his navel.

Kazuya’s body trembled again. “Jin…” the younger moaned his name and bit on his lips to stop the next one from coming out when the actor dipped his teeth into his skin and sucked on it, leaving a mark surrounding his navel and then blowing air above it. “Don’t tease me anymore…” he begged and lifted his hips a little to show the painful erection he was having and which was still hidden by his jeans. Jin laughed softly and Kazuya pouted, moving a little to bring his hands to the older one’s hair and pull on it, wanting him to move. Up or down, it didn’t matter as long as he did.

“You seem so impatient…” Jin teased as his hands played with the rim of Kazuya’s jeans, sneaking his fingers inside his boxers and finally touching the younger’s cock, earning a loud groan from his lover as soon as his fingers made contact with the burning skin which begged to be touched. “And I want to play a little…” he giggled like a little girl, only now remembering that he shouldn’t have drunk that wine. Wine never meant anything good for him.

“Jiiiiin…” Kazuya whined again, bucking his hips against Jin’s hand when the movements on his crotch suddenly stopped and biting back a cry as the older one’s hand caught his length and pressed on it with maybe a little too much force. He then released it and started to pump it slowly while his other hand was busy to push lower on Kazuya’s jeans along with his underwear, leaving his erection standing proud in front of Jin’s eyes. He released it and looked at the younger’s cock for a couple of seconds and only when he heard another whine from Kazuya, he leaned over it and passed his tongue over the tip, earning a growl and a shudder from his lover.

Jin smirked. “You’re enjoying this too much.” He laughed and lowered himself even more, kissing Kazuya’s thigh on every inch of it, going up with his lips, playfully licking his hipbone which seemed too delicious to Jin in that moment, continuing with his chest and placing butterfly kisses all over it. He kissed Kazuya’s shoulder and then went down again, teasing with his lips Kazuya’s arm and giving him shivers through his whole body as the younger’s hand clutched itself into Jin’s hair and silently guided him.

It was a little weird, if Kazuya had to be honest. And not because Jin was the one to be kissing him but because he knew where would this lead them and he was still a little scared of it. He realized that Jin was too as his lips trembled from time to time on his skin and this would only make Kazuya’s heart beat faster when he thought that they were both the same. They were feeling like some teenagers exploring on unknown territories but fascinated by what they would find there. They felt small, sitting at the gates of a totally different world, a world which could mean a lot of things for them but the only thing they wanted to see in that moment was their love and their promise of never parting from each other.

It was terrifying, dreadful, frightening even. But it was also wonderful, incredible and amazing. And the fact that they were walking into this new world with their hands entwined  meant more than anything bad that could happen to them from now on.

“Is this my ring?” Jin suddenly stopped with his kisses on Kazuya’s arms and looked up at the younger. No, it wasn’t, he realized as he glanced at his own hand. Then it was another one? “You have an identical pair?” he added then and his lips curled up into a pleased smile as he teased his lover.

Kazuya managed to pull himself out of lust’s web and looked at the ring he had on his pinky. “They were a pair from the beginning.” He replied and lifted his hand as he brought Jin’s with it too, lacing the fingers together - the rings shining in the candlelight. “I just didn’t tell you.” Kazuya added and kissed their entwined hands. “They connect us, they are our promise.” The younger whispered and looked at Jin, love shadowing the lust now.

Jin’s smirk changed into a full smile as he realized the meaning of Kazuya’s words. He had received this ring on his birthday, when the younger one was still rejecting him and not even wanting to hear about having a relationship with Jin. When they were still fighting and arguing and when Jin had no idea that he had fallen in love like a stupid and that he couldn’t escape from this love anymore - not that he wanted to. But this ring… this other ring that Kazuya had proved that the younger one had been thinking at him since then, that he had been looking at Jin differently even if he wasn’t acknowledging it. That their love had existed since then and that they had been too stubborn to admit their feelings towards each other.

It was funny, really. If Jin had known about this ring since that night, he would have acted differently, he wouldn’t have rejected Kazuya and wouldn’t have lied about not knowing him. Maybe things would have been different, maybe they would have been together earlier rather than later. But somehow, Jin didn’t regret that it had happened this way. Because he had had the chance to see the real Kazuya this way and to actually understand him. It had been painful indeed and they had both suffered a lot, but those moments had made their relationship stronger and Jin wanted to believe that it had also made it unbreakable.

It was for the best and, in the end, they still had time ahead of them, time that will be filled with love and stupid things that lovers did to show how much they missed each other in the few seconds that they were apart. Jin was looking forward to that kind of things, wanting to enjoy each moment of his life along with the one he loved - along with Kazuya.

Jin leaned over the boy and kissed him fully, just letting their lips touch and slowly nibble on each other into a cast and pure kiss. He wanted to tell Kazuya how he felt through this, he wanted to say how much this gesture meant to him, especially the fact that Kazuya was now also wearing his ring, as a sign that they were together and that no matter what would come, nothing will tear them apart. “Our promise to a future together.” Jin whispered against Kazuya’s lips, his eyes closed and his heart beating strangely normal now, as if all the pieces of the puzzle had finally fell into place and this was the end that he had wanted and expected until now. “Our promise of love, of never breaking up and to always be together.” He continued, slowly opening his eyes and seeing the younger one watching him intensively and lovingly in the same time.

“Our promise that we’ll love each other till death.” Kazuya smiled and Jin replied by kissing him again. His hands slowly traveled on the younger one’s body, caressing his skin with soft touches and loving the way Kazuya would arch to respond to his every move. He could tell that his lover was also growing impatient and Jin groaned as Kazuya dug his nails into the skin above his waist, his fingers teasing him as they sneaked inside his pants to pull them down.

Jin lifted his hips and helped the younger one undress him from his pants, pushing them down with his legs and then settling back on Kazuya, their bodies glued and making them tense in the same time. They had been intimate before, but this was different and the feeling of skin on skin was making them feel nervous, hold their breaths and shiver in anticipation. It was different and as they looked at each other, they could see the same thing reflected in their eyes - fear, anxiousness, uncertainness, lust, but most important, love.

Their lips met again and Kazuya lifted his hands, one of them clutching into Jin’s hair while the other one settled on his back, keeping him close in a gentle and understanding manner, like he was trying to say that he wanted to be with him and that he knew perfectly well what was Jin feeling in that moment - he was feeling the same way after all. “Jin…” the name slipped from his lips as the older one started to move his body, brushing their crotches one against another and searching for some more friction as a low moan got stopped in the back of his throat. He moved again and their bodies trembled in the same time, finally deciding that they should stop teasing and touch more as their minds seemed to be screaming them to do. His hands traveled lower on Kazuya’s body, trying to make him feel safe and to make sure once more that it was okay to be doing this.

Kazuya answered with a thrust of his hips, his head falling back as he felt Jin’s fingers circling his manhood and pumping it slowly to distract him of the pain that would follow. He knew how it worked, he had read about this and had tried to document himself about this subject to know what to expect from this act. But Kazuya had never thought that it would be this bitter-sweet and that the pain that was ripping him apart from the inside would seem so innocent because of the touches and whispers that Jin was giving to him. He had never thought that he would welcome such a suffering only to have more of Jin kissing him like that, caressing him like his whole being depended on this and showing Kazuya just how much he loved him.

Jin was trying his best to not make Kazuya uncomfortable as he continued to stretch him, partly wanting to stop when a gush of pain would pass over the boy’s face and mostly wanting to continue when Kazuya’s eyes would light up at the sudden pleasure that would invade his body. He wanted this to be good for the both of them, he wanted to make his lover see the stars that he had promised to him in his songs. He wanted this to be a moment that both of them will remember for eternity, that will remain deeply graved in their memories and that will make them smile one day when they’ll look back at it and remember how clueless but eager they were.

It was going to be this way, Jin decided as he saw Kazuya nodding that it was okay to continue. He kissed him again, sucking on his lips and taking every breath of Kazuya as he slowly and uncertainly made the last move and connected their bodies, closing his eyes at the sudden feeling of completion that seemed to be too overwhelming for him in that moment. Kazuya arched under him and groaned in pain, opening his mouth and unintentionally giving Jin more access to plunge his tongue deep into his mouth. He gasped for air and his nails buried themselves into Jin’s back, his feet curling their toes as he closed his eyes and tried to get used with the feeling of intrusion.

It felt weird. Kazuya had never before experienced such a thing and he was starting to get a little panicked as Jin remained above him, not moving and not doing anything else but kissing him slowly and gently, trying to calm him down as it was obvious that his whole body was tensed and that he only wanted to flee away from there. A whimper escaped his lips and Jin lowered his head to press butterfly kisses over his skin, touching his chest and licking his way around his nipples, his hands roaming on his sides to help him ease up a little bit. It was working, Kazuya admitted, but he couldn’t get rid of the sudden feeling of panic that was growing into him and he actually feared that he might want to stop this.

“I love you.” Jin whispered, his lips pressed against Kazuya’s heart and the younger one felt how his whole body melted under this confession. His mouth curled up and he started laughing, amused by his own reactions and how easy Jin had managed to reassure him. His hands found Jin’s head and Kazuya pulled him up to be able to look into his eyes and let him see the gentle and confident smile that was now spreading on his face.

“I love you too.” Kazuya confessed, his heart beating faster and his body trembling yet again, but this time because of the love that he could feel filling him from inside and threatening to overcome him in any moment now. Jin smiled back and they kissed again, the older one finally starting to move and chase his release.

It was funny now how perfect all of this seemed. It didn’t feel weird at all now as they continued to kiss and touch each other, laughing from time to time and mostly moaning as their moves started to become a little rushed, feeling their peak reaching near. It was what they had been looking for a long time and now that they had found it, both of them knew that they won’t let go of it any time soon. Love was a remarkable thing and it was the most incredible when the other one loved you back, sharing your feelings and making you fly up to the stars like he could make you feel too. It had hit them both so suddenly that they hadn’t known what to do with it, but now as they stayed in each other’s arms, kissing and whispering words of love as they reached their orgasm, Jin and Kazuya thought that nothing could be more perfect than this and nothing could make them happier than the feeling of finally being with the one you loved in every possible way.

They remained in the same position, Jin over Kazuya and still hugging him as they breathed heavily, trying to recover their breaths. It had been amazing this union between the two of them and it had made them take one more step in their relationship, leading them to the inevitable happy ending that only fairytales talked about. They were in love and the whole world was theirs. Even if Jin would leave for America soon, even if Kazuya would remain in Japan and wait for him, both of them were sure of one thing in that moment - that their love will never die.

The first song used is 'Two' by KAT-TUN <3 and the second one is 'Tipsy Love' by Akanishi Jin <3<3