Addictive Obsession - Chapter nine [part II]

[aroruae]

Part I


“I want you more than anything, Kazuya.” Jin confirmed, slowly turning the younger around to face him. His eyes searched for those brown orbs that Jin loved to lose himself into and he put two fingers under Kazuya’s chin to detain him from turning his head from his piercing gaze. “You’re everything I want and I… I don’t want to lose you. I don’t know how to react if I see you with someone else and I… just snap.” Jin confessed, his voice sincere and innocent.

It really wasn’t his fault. It was just that his vision started to blur and his mind to stop working. He couldn’t control himself, he didn’t know how to. He had always been possessive but this was exaggerated even for him. He acted before thinking, before realizing that his words or actions would hurt Kazuya and make him want to put a distance between them. He didn’t want to do such things, but… Jin couldn’t help it.

Kazuya didn’t know what to say and even if he did, he wasn’t that eager. It was the first time when someone yearned for him this much, wanted him to the extent of destroying everything just to have him. It was a terrifying feeling, a scary one, but, in a very weird way, it made him feel special… it made him feel worthy. But being Jin the person that craved for him so much, it was dangerous. It was dangerously tempting to see how far he’ll go. Kazuya closed his eyes at this thought, wondering if he was going crazy too.

“And should I lock myself up or run away if someone comes and talks to me?” he said, looking reproachful.

“No, of course not.” Jin hurried to deny, shaking his head. At least, he still could control his feelings of possessiveness when the matter included Kazuya’s friends. He didn’t have any problem with Ueda, for example, to be around the younger. Nakamaru had also seemed nice and Taguchi was too much of an air-head to think of hitting on Kazuya. Koki was another topic. Jin didn’t like his eyes when the other was watching the younger but he still hadn’t said anything because he knew that it’s important for Kazuya and they are the people for which he had sacrificed himself.

Jin could accept them, he could close his eyes at their hugging or closeness - even if he had major problems with Koki because Kazuya still didn’t have any idea how hard it had been for Jin to not snap at that guy each time he approached the boy. But this didn’t mean that he was supposed to just sit and not do anything when Kazuya was kissing someone else. When he was making out with another person than Jin. When he cheated on Jin, lied to him and left with someone that simply wasn’t him. That was his limit.

“I didn’t mean that.” Jin continued with a soft voice and a little smile curling his lips. “It’s just that I’m afraid every time I see you with someone else.” He finally decided to say what was really bugging him, suddenly seeming shy and blushing a little. “I can’t help but ask myself if this is the person with whom you’ll leave and I’ll never see you again. I can’t stop my urge to stop you from leaving my side even for one second because I know that it’s enough to lose you.”

He wasn’t looking at Kazuya anymore and his arms had fallen limp on the bed, between their bodies but not touching either of them. He had never thought that the life he was living had affected him that much but maybe it wasn’t that late to realize some things. The lonely life that he had had until he met Kazuya. The slow changes that started to appear each time they met. The happiness, the suffering, his broken heart and his unshed tears. Jin had experienced so many things in the short time since he met Kazuya. He didn’t want to go back to that cold and lonely life that he had. He didn’t want to lose what he had discovered, he didn’t want to feel empty again.

It was too excruciating.

“And this simply put means that you do not trust me or you.” Kazuya replied slowly, looking straight at Jin. “You don’t trust us.” He added on a low voice, allowing himself a small and sad smile.

He had enough, he wasn’t playing this love game anymore. It would have been better if feelings, emotions weren’t involved at all! Just physical contact and that’s all. With this, Kazuya would have lived better, would have seen better and he just had to ignore his despicable self. But this way, Kazuya was suffering and he was immersing himself into a cold and harsh darkness. So, he let himself be driven by his madness and got close to Jin, gluing his body to his and circling his hands around his neck.

“I’m sick of talking.” He said with a purring voice, filled with unmasked desire. “You can have me.” He added before claiming Jin’s lips, licking and biting them so that he could enter that sweet and hot cavern of his.  His tongue slipped slowly, brushing tenderly against Jin’s, tasting his mouth, taking what should drive him over boundaries. Sex and drugs - that’s all Kazuya needed to live a perfect lie.

Kazuya slipped his leg between Jin’s and pushed up enough to rub his knee against his crotch. His hands were messing with the dark and soft mane, clutching hard when he deepened the kiss, when he changed the sweet and teasing kiss into a rough and possessive one. Jin moaned, half wanting to stop Kazuya because there were still things to talk about, half enjoying his treatment and not wanting it to end. He caught Kazuya’s leg between his and slowly raised his own legs to grind Kazuya more into him. His hands started roaming on the younger’s back, clutching the shirt that was stopping him from touching more skin and moaning into the kiss when Kazuya bit his tongue, letting his head fall back, arching his back and desperately wanting more.

With a swift move, he changed their roles and pushed Kazuya on his back, now Jin being on top, a wide grin on his lips as he leaned over Kazuya to brush against his lips. He licked them, playing with the boy’s tongue when he opened his mouth to let Jin enter the hot cave. “You drive me mad.” He whispered against Kazuya’s lips, kissing and teasing them, chuckling slightly when he saw how impatient was the younger. “God, I love you so much that I think I’m losing my mind.” Jin said with a husky voice, lowering his head and sucking the pale skin on Kazuya’s neck with an insatiate hunger, his hands slowly but firmly opening his shirt to have more access to the boy’s body.

Kazuya closed his eyes at the word love and dug his nails into Jin’s shirt, as if he was displeased to hear such words. “Hush, don’t talk about love now…” Kazuya whispered, his body writhing under Jin’s, his hands trying to touch more, to feel more. He needed sex that much it hurt; it was almost like his need for drugs. He had never felt this way before, it was yet another first. Kazuya jolted when Jin bit him a little harder, but shivered when the tongue soothed the sudden pain. His hand clutched into Jin’s hair and a sweet moan escaped his lips as the older teased him some more with his lips, teeth and tongue. Not wanting to simply receive, Kazuya slipped his other hand between their bodies and began to touch Jin, playfully skimming over the hot skin and teasing the lower part with innocent, almost unaware touches.

Jin growled, already feeling himself at his limit. Kazuya could always bring him so easily to his limit, making him feel like he had no self restraint at all. He bit his lip, trying to suppress a loud moan from escaping his mouth while his hands continued to undress Kazuya, slipping him of his shirt and pants, taking care to not touch his arousal as Jin still wanted to torture the younger a little more. Kazuya’s hands over his crotch seemed to be making wonders and Jin felt so hot that he couldn’t breathe. He tried to relax his pounding heart and his restless body, gazing deeply into Kazuya’s eyes when he felt like he was a little bit in control - control that he was losing with each thrust of the younger’s hand.

“Use your mouth.” He breathed over Kazuya’s lips, eyes closed and expression full of bliss. There wasn’t anything more that he wanted to feel in that moment than Kazuya’s mouth over his erection, his lips slowly licking him and his teeth gently scratching its length. He moaned in delight, his body already shivering in expectation while the younger seemed to think it over. Even if he had started all of this, Kazuya wasn’t that sure anymore that it’s the right thing to do. He wanted to run from Jin, but his method of shutting him up was to get even closer. And now he was so close that he could feel Jin’s heartbeat and it made him feel dizzy, weird. He tried to close his eyes for a few moments, to regain his breath and recover his courage, his will to get over any problems that came into his way with the same expressionless eyes.

Kazuya didn’t need a long time though and when he opened his eyes again, they were full with confidence and determination. He needed to do this and not just because Jin had asked him. He was somehow aware of the fact that a small part of him wants it too, a part that was starting to take control over his body when his eyes met Jin’s and something invisible seemed to connect them in that moment. He removed his hand from over Jin’s pants and pushed him on the bed with both of his hands, wearing a tempting smile. He could be alluring, Kazuya knew this very well, and although he still wasn’t that delighted with Jin’s request, he was willing to submit to the older’s will. So he lowered himself slowly, his mouth wetting the shirt Jin was still wearing, biting the skin underneath it. When the other managed to undress Kazuya so quickly, it was a mystery to the younger himself, but not like that mattered anymore. He straddled Jin, unashamed of his nudity, and he looked at Jin with a dirty smile, eliciting a deaf moan from Jin. He smirked and roamed his hands over Jin’s nipples, the hard contrast between Kazuya’s harsh touch and the soft material of the shirt dancing over his sensitive skin making Jin throw his head back, biting his lips to prevent any more sounds from escaping his mouth.

Kazuya pouted, wanting to hear more of Jin’s voice, to hear him begging for release, screaming his name and fully knowing who is the one doing this to him. He lowered his hands even more, brushing over Jin’s pants and opening the belt with a swift move. He slowly opened the zipper, his eyes studying every change on Jin’s face, watching him closing his eyes when Kazuya touched him and opening them again when the touch would suddenly disappear for a couple of seconds. He gently and slowly lowered Jin’s pants and underwear in the same time, leaning over Jin’s erect member to blow a whisper over it, almost like casting a spell. He grabbed his hard length with his hand, his fingers teasing it and brushing over the head, making Jin whimper and buck his hips into Kazuya’s hand, searching for more warmth, for more friction.

Jin’s eyes seemed desperate and his mouth was open, his lips red from too much biting. He moaned when one of Kazuya’s fingers went down his length, wanting to feel more of it, trashing in bed in an uncontrollable way and silently begging for more. But Kazuya didn’t want that, he wanted to hear Jin’s voice begging for it, not only his body. This was the only thing that he had control over and he planned to take full advantage of it. If Jin wanted sex from him, he would have to ask for it with his whole being, not to just order. Kazuya knew that it’s a risky game and that he can be overpowered in any moment if Jin’s patience runs out, but he didn’t want to back away. If he was in danger to lose everything he had dear, then he would take care that Jin also loses his mind.

“Kazu…” Jin cried under him, his eyes pleading but his mouth still not saying the words. He was already at his limit, only Kazuya’s naked body was enough to make him aroused. And when Kazuya used his fingers to tease his crotch, to brush over it making Jin feel the contact but leaving him earning for more, when his other hand slowly touched his balls, squishing them a little… he was already over the edge.

“What is it, Jin?” Kazuya replied with a playful voice, acting like he didn’t understand anything from Jin’s trashing under him. He lowered his head and licked the head of Jin’s erection, earning another moan from the older. Kazuya glanced at him, smirking when he saw Jin’s hard grip on the sheets, his body arched and his eyes closed again, already imagining how would Kazuya’s tongue feel against his crotch. He went down even more, tracing a wet line with his tongue and licking Jin’s member, his eyes glowing with excitement and power.

“Kazu, please…” Jin finally said the words, looking at Kazuya with a pitiful expression. The younger just grinned at him and took him fully in his mouth, Jin’s hips reacting immediately and bucking into his mouth. Kazuya released him quickly to not choke and glared at Jin while the older seemed to adopt an innocent expression. He pinched Jin in revenge and the older squealed, looking sorrowful at Kazuya and telling him sorry with his eyes. Kazuya rolled his eyes and took him again in his mouth, this time taking care to have his hands on Jin’s hips to stop any movement from the older.

Kazuya set up a slow pace at first, Jin squirming under his touch and breathing hardly. He gave Jin a few licks, just teasingly playing his tongue along with his mouth, letting his lips feel more of Jin and taking his time tasting him, making him beg for more. The older fisted the sheets in his palms, desperately trying to move but being confined by Kazuya’s hands still on his hips. He looked at Kazuya and a pair of brown eyes, clouded by desire and lust, looked back at him. He whimpered, biting his lip when Kazuya moved his head down still looking at Jin, his teeth scratching the length of Jin’s member.

“Faster, Kazu…” Jin breathed, wanting release but in the same time to feel more of Kazuya’s mouth on his crotch. His lips were cold and it gave a weird feeling at first, a feeling that was now driving him crazy and making him want more. His hand were stroking his balls as slowly as his tongue traveled on his length sometimes, when Kazuya wanted to torture him more and not let Jin fully enjoy the warmth of his mouth. His tongue circled around the pulsing member while he was looking at Jin with those blissful eyes, with that alluring and sexual expression Kazuya wore each time during sex, and Jin needed to close his eyes for a moment to not come only from his expression.

Kazuya abided his plea when he felt that Jin was slowly losing his control. He bobbed his head up and down, now with a faster speed, making Jin moan incontrollable. He freed the older one’s hips, letting him set the pace and search for his release, which Jin gladly obeyed, moving his hips and his crotch into Kazuya’s mouth, groaning when his teeth brushed along with his tongue on his member.

“Oh, God, Kazuya…” Jin growled, feeling closer with each thrust, each move of Kazuya’s hands on his balls and ass. He closed his eyes and came with a loud voice, screaming Kazuya’s name and watching the younger with clouded eyes how he drank all of his cum, thinking that it’s the hottest thing he had ever seen.

Jin needed some time to recover after the overwhelming orgasm he had just had and, even if he tried to hide it, Kazuya was also breathing heavier, Jin’s expression when he came and the way he moaned when Kazuya drank all of his cum making him hornier and needier for contact. He also needed some release but he bit his tongue and just stayed on the bed, hugging his knees while Jin came back to reality and his vision cleared, not wanting to admit the fact that he was aroused just by Jin’s imagine. He didn’t want that, especially after what had happened earlier, not when he could still feel the blade of the knife against his cheek.

Kazuya shivered and when he opened his eyes - not having a clue when he had closed them - he saw Jin staring at him with a smirk on his face and with his hand stretched towards him. “Come here.” The older whispered with a low tone, making Kazuya tremble and forcing him to bit hard on his lips to stop a moan from forming itself. Without knowing what he was doing, the younger found himself taking Jin’s hand and going closer to him, settling next to Jin and looking into his eyes. “Hello there.” The older said and Kazuya felt his heart beat faster in anticipation of what was coming next.

He had learned over the time that Jin is most of the time a man of few words - mostly because he didn’t know how to express himself and always ending up saying dumb things - and he proved it again when he didn’t say anything more and just pushed Kazuya over him, kissing and sucking his lips, groaning when he felt his own taste on the boy’s lips and in his mouth as Jin’s tongue continued to explore it, going deeper and deeper until he finally found that sweet taste of strawberry that was Kazuya. If you asked him, Jin would say that he has no idea how to describe the sensation when he was so deep into Kazuya’s mouth, but every time he kissed the boy, he would think at strawberries and only the idea of associating something this enjoyable with the younger gave him shivers and made him tremble with excitement.

Jin rolled them in bed to let him be on top and smirked into their kiss as Kazuya groaned, unsatisfied that he wasn’t getting the attention that he wanted. The younger grinded his hips into Jin’s body and as their cocks touched and brushed against each other, both of them moaned and stopped their kiss, breathing hard and trying to regain their strength.

“You naughty little boy.” Jin chuckled as he looked at Kazuya who stared back with a lustful expression.

“I’m also greedy.” Kazuya answered with a playful smile, his eyes darting from Jin’s eyes to the point where their bodies met, letting his gaze linger a little on their touching cocks and earning a little moan from Jin. “And needy.” He added as he lifted his lower part a little and grinded painfully slow into Jin, forcing the older to close his eyes and bit his tongue to suppress another pitiful moan from escaping his lips.

“And sadistic.” Jin completed the younger as their eyes met again and Kazuya just smiled innocently while he lifted his body once more to brush against Jin’s crotch in the same way. Their lips met again into a forceful kiss as Jin was feeling yet again impatient and wanting and panting with the desire of being the one who offers the pleasure that Kazuya seeks for. He stopped the teasing, knowing that he’ll end up being the one more teased, and slipped his hand between their bodies, catching the boy’s shaft and tracing lines with his fingers over it.

“Jin…” the name escaped Kazuya’s lips before he knew what he was doing and Jin smirked, enjoying the painful but lustful expression that the younger was showing when he squished a little his cock and made Kazuya starting to thrust into his hand for more contact. He didn’t deny it anymore and pumped the boy’s penis with fast and determined moves as he brought him to his release, kissing Kazuya’s body and sucking his skin to leave marks everywhere and to show everyone that he belonged to him. He kissed his lips again when Kazuya moaned hard and ejaculated over Jin’s hand, the older continuing to pump it until Kazuya finally settled down and regained his breath. He didn’t stop the kiss either and he felt the boy lazily answering it with slow moves as Jin sat down next to him and detached from him only to bring him back into his arms.

“I love you.” Jin whispered into the room’s silence as he placed a cast kiss over Kazuya’s temple. The boy ignored the words and the pain from his heart as he closed his eyes and forced himself to sleep, the events from the last hours helping him a lot and making him slip into a world where Jin didn’t exist.

Though Jin couldn’t sleep. Kazuya was back again in his arms but something still nagged him and stopped him from being completely happy and content with the situation. He was afraid and he couldn’t stop the feeling from taking control of him. Kazuya hadn’t really accepted all of this and now Jin was scared that he could try and run off in the middle of the night. What if he had done that just to make sure that Jin falls asleep right away and then he’ll sneak out and Jin will never see him again? What if he was just waiting for the perfect opportunity to disappear from Jin’s life?!

No, he couldn’t accept that. He needed to do something and he needed to do it fast because it seemed that Kazuya’s plan was working and Jin was starting to feel sleepy. Without thinking too much, he got off bed and searched through his drawers in silence, trying to not wake up the younger or to make him feel suspicious. When he found what he needed, a relieved smile curled Jin’s lips and he turned back to bed, looking for a few moments at Kazuya before inserting the syringe into his arm, doing it slow and carefully to not let the younger feel too much pain. The drug was the perfect solution because it will keep Kazuya on the land of dreams and it will give him the sensation that everything is okay and that he feels safe where he is. Still, to make sure that the effect doesn’t wear off until Jin wakes up, he proceeded to lock again Kazuya’s hands to the bed, only then succeeding to fall asleep next to Kazuya with a happy smile on his lips.

Now he had no way of losing him.

*

Kazuya had his eyes open and was looking at the ceiling, seeming to be counting something. He was wearing an emotionless expression, on his beautiful face all you could read being tiredness and nothingness. He didn’t even move or react when the door opened and Jin entered the room. He simply stayed, looking up.

“You’re awake?” Jin’s voice filled his ears and the only movement of his being the slowly closing of his eyes.

“Like never before.” Kazuya answered on a hoarse voice, feeling his lips dry and numb.

Jin simply nodded and didn’t say anything anymore, like he was scared of what would Kazuya’s answer be. He just approached the younger and got out his knife again to cut on Kazuya’s bindings, working slowly and silently on them, avoiding Kazuya’s gaze and concentrating on his wrists.

“Thank you for making me forget about you last night.” Kazuya said, an insane tinge in his voice. Yes, Kazuya was grateful for Jin giving him the drugs, that being the only method for him to erase the despicable self from his mind, to rinse all the touches and kisses he had given and received. This way he could forget all was wrong and Jin altogether. “I appreciate the thought.” He smiled and looked at Jin, his brown and cold eyes boring into Jin’s.

“You’re welcome.” Jin replied with a dead voice, finally releasing Kazuya’s arms and then taking one step back to turn around and head out of the room. “I made breakfast if you’re hungry.” He added with the same defeated voice, feeling guiltier than ever for what happened. He hadn’t been able to control himself or his urges and he was painfully aware of the fact that he had managed to chase away Kazuya, maybe for ever. He knew that the younger hates him now, but he couldn’t even bring himself to ask for forgiveness. It hadn’t been his fault, it wasn’t him the one who tied up and drugged Kazuya the other night. It had been another Jin, one that didn’t trust anyone, one who was afraid of being left alone and of losing Kazuya.

He was a jerk, but he still loved Kazuya with all of his heart. He didn’t want to see him hurt, he didn’t want Kazuya to suffer because of him. And now he couldn’t even look at the younger, the pain and guilty carving into his soul and leaving deep marks. He sighed. Maybe it was better for Kazuya to be far away from him.

Jin stopped when he heard Kazuya laugh. “After all you’ve done, your reply is that you made breakfast?!” he shrieked, now laughter all gone, fury taking over. “Don’t make me sick, you bastard!” he yelled and got out of bed and hit Jin with all his might. “You think you can simply turn your back on me and after that come back smiling like nothing ever happened?!” he grabbed the older by the collar, wanting to hit him some more but simply not having the strength anymore. “You’re crazy! And you’re driving me crazy too!” he said ending up laughing again. Kazuya had this insane expression, the one that was saying that he didn’t care that much anymore and slowly, easily, he’ll come to not caring at all and probably that wasn’t the best option Jin had.

“And what do you want me to do?” Jin asked with a whispering voice. “I can’t control myself, Kazuya!!” he then raised his tone, facing the younger’s gaze. “I tried, but I can’t do it, I always go crazy when I think about losing you, about never seeing you again!!” he continued, catching Kazuya’s hands with his own but not removing them from his collar, just tightening his grip. “I love you, Kazuya.” He said for the nth time, with the same honest voice but now surrounded by pain and suffering. “But I don’t know what to do anymore.” Jin continued with a defeated voice, freeing the younger’s hands and letting them fall limp along his body. He lowered his head, fixing Kazuya’s fists with his gaze, thinking bitterly that he deserved to be hit. Because he had hurt Kazuya once again.

“It’s not love what you feel for me!” Kazuya hissed, his eyes narrowing dangerously. “You’re obsessed with me, you’re infatuated with me!! That’s all, you DO NOT love me at all!” he spat and pushed Jin from him, panting a little. He still felt dizzy from the drugs or from the pain in his head, he wasn’t sure which one was stronger. And the worst part of it was that he could understand Jin, he could see his reasons for his doings, even if all that meant that Jin was imprisoning him, was bringing him slowly on the edge.

Jin looked shocked for a few seconds and then his face became expressionless. He fisted his palms and took a deep breath to control himself. He didn’t want to lose his sense of rationality once more, he didn’t want to hurt Kazuya even if the younger hurt him with his words, more than he’ll ever know.

“What do you know?” Jin answered with a cold voice, angered and deep as it had never been. “What do you know about love to tell me that I don’t love you?” he continued, approaching Kazuya with small steps, almost like he was calculating his every move and doing his best to keep Kazuya trapped.

Kazuya snorted ironically. “I know enough to tell that you’re a psychopath and you simply enjoy having me around, just because you can.” He replied, not taking even a step back. He wasn’t backing down on this, no, Sir, he was going to confront Jin head first. “You just want to show off that you can have me and I can’t do a shit about it. You are obsessed with me and that’s pretty damn clear.” He laughed, his eyes as cold as Jin’s voice.

“You don’t know a damn about me!!” Jin raised his tone, his eyes sparking with a weird glint. If it was madness or fury or simply sadness, Kazuya couldn’t tell. But it seemed dangerous, Jin looked like he was close to snap again and the desire to hurt someone was clear on his face. “Don’t fucking act like you understand me, because you don’t! You have no idea how I am, you never cared enough to look at me and see me for who I really am!” He accused, feeling the anger boiling in his blood when the image of Kazuya kissing that bitch came into his mind. He grabbed Kazuya’s arms and clenched his hands on them, his nails digging into Kazuya’s skin, his eyes boring into the younger’s, challenging him even if his words told the total opposite. “Don’t make me do this, Kazuya.” Jin pleaded, even if his voice didn’t have even a hint of remorse or sorry for what he was about to do.

“Do what?” Kazuya asked, low and purring voice. “Hurt me?” he continued, smiling like a madman. “Tell me something new, Jin and I might tremble.” He provoked, perfectly aware that he could be hurt again. But did it matter? Kazuya wasn’t sure anymore.

Jin felt confused, like a million of strange feelings started to battle inside of him, each of them wanting to get out and take control but the others not letting it do as it pleased, them also wanting to be the ones in charge. It was weird because in one moment he wanted to kiss Kazuya and in the next he wanted to kill him with his bare hands. He wanted to strangle him to stop him saying such things but in the same time he wanted to hug the younger and tell him how much he missed the last days, when they just laughed together and everything was fine. He felt cold and a death wish was surrounding him, he felt hot and wanted to fuck Kazuya senseless. He was trembling, affected by the younger’s words and he was calm, planning his moves as always. He didn’t know which side he wanted to win, he wasn’t so sure anymore about anything. But he knew he loved Kazuya, this was the only thing he was sure of.

And that was why he had to keep his emotions under control and act like the normal Jin. The heartless one, the one who Kazuya met the first time and the one Kazuya had been attracted to. Maybe he’ll manage this way. Maybe he’ll destroy even the last connection between them. Fear had Jin paralyzed but he had to do something. He took a deep breath and released Kazuya’s arms, backing away from him. He started to walk through the room, silence reigning over the room for a couple of minutes, trying to clear his thoughts and think at the best solution.

“As I said before, the deal is on.” Jin started, his voice trembling a little at first but then it regained its vigour and seemed cold and emotionless, with a little hint of playfulness in it. He gulped, his back turned on Kazuya and he threw himself in the bed, making himself comfortable, the smirk back on his lips. “And there are new rules.” Jin added, showing a goofy smile like this was entertaining for him.

It was easier than he had thought, Jin realized with a sigh of relief. He just had to forget everything about Kazuya and his feelings for the younger and imagine this was the beginning. They could build another one and Jin would make sure that this time it will work out. He just had to forget about his own heart too.

So that’s the way Jin wanted to play. Well, Kazuya was more than pleased because this way he could care less about what’s happening and he could pretend that he was the victim, the one always suffering. He closed his eyes and allowed himself a small smile - a genuine one. Kazuya opened his eyes and looked at Jin before slowly starting to advance towards him. He stopped in front of the older and smirked.

“What kind of rules?” he asked, superiority in his tone. Weird enough, Kazuya felt in control this way.

“Haven’t really thought at it.” Jin confessed with a sheepish smile, running his fingers through his hair and messing it. He refused to admit that it was because he had felt so guilty when he woke up that he had wanted to cancel every deal. Kazuya didn’t need to know that. “For starters, I’ll want to know your every move and you’ll have to ask me permission if you want to meet someone or go out of your house.” He continued, furrowing his eyebrows as he tried to think at other things. “Oh, and I think I have a surprise for you for when you’ll go back home!” he exclaimed happily, clapping his hands in excitement and changing his position on the bed that now he was sitting on his knees, his eyes trained on Kazuya’s face to observe his every emotion.

“So now I can go back?” Kazuya arched an eyebrow, not really paying attention to Jin’s rules. And the surprise Jin talked about made him… well, shiver.

“Yeah, you can go.” Jin replied with a grin. “Eventually.” He quickly added. “Tomorrow.” He finally seemed to decide.

“Am I to babysit you for another day?” Kazuya rolled his eyes. “I want now.” He demanded, crossing his arms.

“Well, too bad that I don’t care anymore.” Jin simply shrugged, enjoying to play like this with Kazuya. It was somehow empty because it lacked any feeling, but it was alright. Jin could get accustomed with this, even if it wasn’t what he really wanted.

Kazuya sighed and turned his back on Jin. “Then, bye.” He said and made a dash for the bathroom and locked the door behind him. If Jin wasn’t letting him to go, then he wasn’t obliged to see his face, right?

Jin’s first instinct was just to stare. He stared at the place where Kazuya was a few seconds ago, still seeing his figure but knowing perfectly well that he isn’t there anymore. He needed a few moments to snap back at reality and when he did, the only thing he felt was rage and a maddening urge to make Kazuya pay. He rushed to the bathroom’s door, trying to open it even he had heard when the younger locked it.

“Kazuya!!” he called the boy, banging on the door, kicking it with his foot and still trying the door knob. “Kazuya, open the door or I swear to God that I’ll break it down and you don’t want to know what will happen then!!” he threatened, starting to lose his patience that he never had.

“Like I CARE!” Kazuya shouted from the other side of the door. “And go ahead, break it down! It’s not like I own it.” He added and got away from the door. If Jin was indeed going to tear it down, he wasn’t that happy to receive the bits. Also, for precaution, he took a mop in his hands, just in case.

Jin snorted, annoyed by the younger’s answer. This really was ridiculous, what were they, three to play like this?! He rolled his eyes and hit the door some more. “Kazuya, open it now if you don’t want to stay there for the rest of the week!” he resorted to threats, not really liking the idea of breaking his door. After all… he indeed would be the one to pay for it.

“Even better!” the younger laughed. “I get to die and you’ll live happily ever after. Perfect ending, don’t you think?!” Kazuya shouted, the irony and tease clear in his voice.

“Oh, for cryin’ out loud, you won’t die if I leave you for a week without food.” Jin rolled his eyes, somehow starting to become entertained by Kazuya’s naivety. Maybe it was better to leave him there. He would be more than delighted when his friends will ask about him and Jin will tell them the truth. And then he suddenly had an idea. “You know, Ueda knows where I live.” He said as a matter of fact, the smirk on his face obvious even in his voice.

Kazuya was ready to answer that he’ll eat soap and still die when Jin mentioned Ueda. The air stopped in his lungs and he almost dropped the mop. No, he shouldn’t be thinking of his friends right now. Ueda will be fine and… even if he knew Jin’s place, they’ll never look for him here. That if Koki won’t interfere and… oh, no! He should stop or he’ll have Jin win over him, over his control and he can’t let this happen!

“So what?!” he shouted back, braver than he felt.

“I was just saying…” Jin trailed on his words, pausing a little to increase the drama. “Maybe I should call him. Maybe he can help me to get you out of there.” He added with a casual voice, letting his body fall along the door, crouching his legs under him and supporting himself on the door.

“Do that and I swear that I’ll never get out from here!” Kazuya retorted, not really believing that Jin would call Ueda. “And I’ll do so much more that you’ll pray that you never did that!” he then threatened, already thinking of possibilities to get back at Jin. And the best option seemed the one where he simply vanished from Jin’s life.

“We’ll see.” Jin replied with a shrug. He opened his mouth to say something more but he was cut off by the doorbell. “Look, maybe he knew that I miss him and he’s already here!” Jin exclaimed with a happy voice, already raising himself from the floor. “He does have the habit to show unexpected and he’s the only one who doesn’t call beforehand…” he added as an afterthought, leaving his room before he could hear Kazuya’s answer.

No way! Ueda couldn’t be here, right now! Kazuya was thinking, looking scared at the closed door. If he were to open the door then he’d risk a lot and he didn’t want that, he didn’t want to see Jin anymore and he’d do anything to avoid him. So he stayed there, silently waiting until he decided to go and listen to the door, expectant of any sign of the sudden guest.

But Kazuya waited for ten minutes and he still couldn’t hear anything, not even one voice, not even one sound. He jerked when a loud sound came into his ear and when he looked inquiringly at the door, he realized what it was: Jin was really trying to break down the door!!

“You had your fun, now it’s time to have mine.” Jin growled under his breath, kicking the door with his foot, putting all of his strength in it. The younger quickly grabbed the mop and held it high, watching the door with increasing attention. It didn’t move at first, but slowly and firmly, Jin could see how it started to break down and with a last kick, the door went flying into the bathroom, Jin stepping victoriously on it and grinning stupidly. “You really don’t want me to do that again.” He hissed annoyed, now looking at Kazuya and raising his hand towards him. “Come here.” He barked, already at his limit.

But Kazuya wouldn’t listen and lifted the mop in defense. “No!” he replied, quite amused by the situation.

“Kazuya, don’t make me lose my patience.” Jin sighed tiredly, not moving one inch.

“I’m amazed that you still have it.” Kazuya teased, knowing perfectly well that he was playing with fire. What? He loved fire, especially if it made him believe he was in charge of everything.

Jin growled, painfully aware of the younger’s words. It was true, he had lost his patience long ago so he still didn’t know why he wasn’t stopping this silly game right here and now. “This is insane, Kazuya. What do you think you’ll obtain with this?” Jin asked, now crossing his arms and leaning to the wall.

“Nothing. It just makes me feel better.” Kazuya shrugged, a glint in his eyes. “And everything with you is insane, I don’t know why you’re so surprised.” He then added with a small laugh.

“Oh, really?” Jin raised an eyebrow, looking at the mop that Kazuya was still holding. “And what are you doing with that mop?” he asked with an ironic tone. “Cleaning?” he mocked the younger.

“If I could have cleaned you out of my life, then I would have done it long ago.” Kazuya replied with a cool voice, enjoying the twist of words. “But with this, I’m planning on hitting your head.” He then added with a lovely smile.

“Tough luck then.” Jin replied without flinching. Both of them knew that Kazuya can’t run of Jin, it was already impossible and no matter how much Kazuya tried, he won’t succeed. “And how are you planning on hitting me?” Jin asked, now clearly amused by the younger’s ideas.

“Only if you approach me, I’ll hit you.” Kazuya answered, looking warily at Jin. “A wrong move and…” he trailed his words, not finishing his sentence.

“Ok, then I’ll take a shower.” Jin suddenly said, shrugging a little and starting to get undressed, first his shirt and now he was working on his belt, the smirk not leaving his lips.

“You’re crazy.” Kazuya’s eyes flickered and lingered at Jin’s waist as the man slowly was unbuttoning his jeans. “But be my guest.” He then added with the same smirk as Jin and thinking that this would prove to be the best opportunity to leave the house… or to get himself locked in another room if the door’s entrance wasn’t an option anymore.

Too bad that Jin wasn’t planning on letting Kazuya get away this time. He threw his pants on the floor, his underwear also disappearing with it and he approached the younger, trying to pretend that he wanted to get to the shower. The mop also came flying towards him and Jin had to use his hand to stop it, disarming Kazuya with a swift move and turning him with his back on him, gluing his body to Kazuya’s and breathing slow puffs on his neck. “But I’ll feel so lonely…” Jin whined on a childish voice, his tongue licking Kazuya’s skin and his member pocking his ass.

“Gerroff.” Kazuya breathed and trying not to get distracted by whatever Jin had planned on. “I’m not planning on sleeping with you.” He added and tried to move, to throw Jin off him. “You blew it last night.” He hit Jin’s stomach with his elbow, gaining a low groan from the older.

“Who said anything about sex?” Jin still grinned, blowing air into Kazuya’s ear and feeling him trembling in his arms. “I just want to take a shower and you’ll help me.” He continued, starting to walk backwards until he hit the cabin’s door, opening it with his free hand and stepping inside, still dragging the younger after him - not like he had any choice, no matter how much he struggled.

“Like hell I will.” Kazuya retorted but nonetheless, entered the cabin. “And like hell you simply want to take a shower.” The younger laughed and turned his head a bit to look at Jin. “You just want to fuck me and I can clearly tell. It’s written all over your face and your body doesn’t help you either.” Kazuya smirked and blew a kiss towards Jin.

Like hell he was letting Jin fuck him.

“Well, I always want to fuck you, nothing new in this.” Jin stated with a shrug. “Especially if you’re wet, in my arms and so close to me…” he continued with a whisper, lowering his head to bite gently Kazuya’s shoulder, while his free hand blindly searched onto the wall to turn on the water, succeeding exactly when he finished talking.

The cold water made him jolt and soon Kazuya started to shiver even with all the clothes on him. “Make it hot, make it hot.” He urged Jin, trying to control his shaking but not succeeding.

“So now you want it hot?” Jin chuckled at his ear, releasing Kazuya’s arm and bringing his hands on the younger’s chest, lifting his shirt over Kazuya’s head and throwing it on the floor. “I can easily do that.” He added, pinching Kazuya’s nipples with one hand while his other turned on the hot water, balancing the cold one. “Better?” he purred biting Kazuya’s ear and grinding his hips into the younger in search for more friction.

“Lousy job.” The younger replied, now facing Jin, and tried to push the older away from him, though his low voice seemed inviting, tempting. “And you said you wanted a shower, not a fuck.” He then added, lowering his eyes on Jin’s body, looking obviously. “And I intend to respect your wish, my love.” Kazuya continued on a husked voice and distanced himself a little from Jin, now the water pouring down mostly on the older one.

“I did say that.” Jin seemed to think for a while. He leaned on the cabin’s wall, pouting at Kazuya and puffing his cheeks. “But that’s not fun at all.” He said with a whine in his voice, playing with his fingers, his eyes concentrated on them.

“Then have fun with yourself.” Kazuya wished with a little smile and made a move to leave the shower’s cabin.

“Don’t leave me!” Jin quickly reacted, grabbing Kazuya’s arms and stopping him. His eyes flickered and for a moment, Jin seemed embarrassed for what he had done, cursing himself for letting once again his emotions get the best out of him. “I mean…” he released the younger, ruffling his hair and making it look even messier than usually because it was wet now. “I promise I won’t touch you if you don’t want. I just want to be with you.” He finally seemed to decide on something to say, his eyes boring into Kazuya’s and watching him with intensity.

Kazuya seemed to think the situation over. He looked at the wet Jin and his pulse rushed a little. He wasn’t immune to Jin’s sex-appeal, but he won’t give in that quickly. “If you wanted that, you should have used the tube.” Kazuya suggested with a tilt of his head. “It’s better there.” He shrugged, not really minding if they were just going to take a bath together and nothing else.

“I don’t usually use it, I prefer to shower because it’s faster.” Jin smiled sheepishly. “But… would you stay with me if it’s just the tube?” he then asked, somehow excited at the idea that Kazuya was finally starting to give in - even if Jin didn’t know what he did to earn that.

“I’ll stay.” The younger agreed, not really knowing where all of this would lead.

Jin smiled, an honestly smile this time, and stopped the water from pouring over them. He took Kazuya’s hand, the happy expression on his face making him look a little younger, looking more like a child than the adult he was. He got out of the shower with Kazuya following him and turned on the water from the tube to let it fill with water. He then turned to Kazuya and with shaking hands, he approached the younger, searching for an answer if he was allowed this kind of touching. He felt stupid once more, like a schoolgirl who didn’t know what do to. For now, Jin had forgotten his resolution to keep Kazuya chained to him and decided to simply enjoy the moments like this one, without thinking at the consequences or the fact that Kazuya didn’t want anymore to be with him. He could worry later, he’ll have enough time.

The younger gave a slight nod, understanding Jin’s desire, truly wanting to let himself forget about everything else and simply enjoy. So Jin got even closer to him, gulping and cursing when he raised his hands and saw that they were still trembling. He bit his lip and took a deep breath, not really understanding why he was acting like this, why he couldn’t control his fear or what he was so afraid of. He shook his head and slowly touched Kazuya’s waist, letting his palms feel the cold skin under his burning fingers. He slightly brushed against it, tracing an invisible line on it until he got to the button from Kazuya’s jeans, opening it and zipping down his jeans. He stopped for a moment, his eyes searching for the younger’s, still uncertain and not knowing if he’ll be rejected again. When he didn’t see any disapproval, he continued his task and slowly tucked down Kazuya’s pants, Jin also lowering himself with them, hovering a little above Kazuya’s crotch, breathing over it a low whisper and then disappearing. He raised himself up again and smiled at Kazuya, stretching his hand towards the younger and inviting him in the bath, with him.

Kazuya was holding his breath when he took Jin by the hand, because being touched, teased and blown over like that had him shiver and aching. Both of them entered the tube, the water slowly rising and flowing over. It prickled their skin, it warmed and soothed both. Kazuya wore a large smile and looked at Jin, bringing his legs to his chest and letting Jin slide his around his waist, both of them still facing each other. Soon, he felt like a child and splashed some water into Jin’s face laughing at the wet and puppy face the other make… that until he received a splash too. Now it was Jin’s turn to laugh and Kazuya’s to pout. Both of them played, laughed and touched each other, feeling childish, feeling good and happy.

After a while, Kazuya began to wash Jin’s body, slowly soaping it and rinsing it after. These were innocent touches, but ones that kept on lingering because Jin would still feel them long after Kazuya finished washing him. It was like the younger imprinted himself on his body, not letting him forget or control his need for Kazuya. He tried to close his eyes and think at something else, but the image of a naked and panting Kazuya came to his mind and Jin opened his eyes wide, making Kazuya laugh of his reaction. The older pouted but nevertheless kept his eyes opened, following each move of the boy’s and enjoying the treatment he was receiving.

But soon Kazuya finished and Jin offered to do the same thing for the boy, signaling to him to turn around so that he could wash his hair, feeling that it would be a fatal error to start with the younger’s body, even more if he stopped to think that he was getting a little aroused. He started with gentle moves, massaging the boy’s scalp and smiling happily when Kazuya closed his eyes and let Jin take care of him. He rinsed the boy’s hair by pouring water over his head using a sponge, making Kazuya cringe a little even if Jin had tried to cover the place where it hurt with his hand, but not succeeding to hide it completely. He was feeling guilty seeing what he had done to Kazuya, but there was no turning back and all he could do was to cause less pain. Time will heal everything, Jin was sure of that.

And they had all the time in the world.