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I’m already psyching myself out. My anxiety levels are starting to sky rocket and I’ve been trying my best to ignore them but in doing so I’ve been ignoring the things that I need to accomplish. Today I had my first exam due. The questions were hard, mainly because I am without the textbook still. We’re three weeks into the quarter and I still don’t have the required text. So half the questions I had to answer off of linguistic guesses based off of what I know about root words, a third I picked answers based off of other classes and other sociological texts I’ve read, and the last portion I just plain ole guessed. All gut jumping. I hope the financial aide office gets back to me within the next week about funding. I may end up working something out with one the students in this particular class; I just wish I would have approached someone before now. Not only this, but I have an exam in my math class coming up on Monday. Have I studied…some not everything. I still have time to make sure I fully understand these concepts and memorize the formulas. A good portion of this I’ve already studied. Guess what I did today? Studied through the class! Here I am sitting in the library studying and working on all three of my academic classes when I look at the time and see that I’ve studied through the first part of the review class for the math exam. Doh! From what I’ve seen of this professor she isn’t one to take people coming in even a few minutes late let alone about twenty.
So right now I’m fighting off an anxiety attack and working to keep a positive mindset about all of this. I still have time to study and this exam in particular is only one of four. Yes, it will suck if I do poorly but it won’t be the end of it all. I’ll be stronger with some of the materials we are covering later in the term.
This was the feelings I had before having major trouble every term that I’ve done poorly. I need to break these habits and attitudes now. How? I have made a step in acknowledging that it is a factor that I’m facing. Attending class has helped but I need to attend more for the math, the last few I’ve been feeling very under the weather and have missed due to the intestinal issues I’ve been facing. That is mostly gone now.
Okay, I thought this would help and now I’m much calmer and ready to go back to studying. At least I’m not completely wasting my time.
Anyone have any ideas on how to help me calm it down…I don’t think the venti chai latte this morning was too good and idea.
I will update on the things that have been going on since I moved back to Ohio for school. I've not really been wanting to relive some of it, so I just keep putting it off. Things have been tense.