it cant rain all the time..
well here i sit. broken once again. but this time for a different reason. or rather same reason, different how. long story short, anna and i started talking again and things were going wonderfully, then her mother got the phone bill and was surprised to see my number all over it. anna had neglected to tell her. so her mother made a decree that anna was not to talk to me, not to see me in any way shape form or fashion. which includes, but is not limited to, phone calls, texting, aim, in person visits, dinner, lunch, brunch, and life in general. and if anna did partake in such actions, her mother would then cease and desist on all payment of school and any other monetary or emotional support, including the use of "her mother's car." (in fact the mother being threatened that if anna disobeyed, her father would fly out and drive the blessed thing back to colorado) so now, anna has reasoned that she has no alternative but to obey her mother's wishes. which means that she and I are to be separated (again) for circa eight(8) months.
How do I feel about all of this you ask?
%#%#&$$@!@#!#%%&%&$$@$#!@!$#&%%#%%$%#$#%@@@!!&%&%$&$%#$@#$$%#$$#!!!!
but i suppose when life gives you lemons, what can you do besides make lemonade?
(actually my answer would more closely be to throw the lemons at stupid people, but..)
so like i said..here i sit. i suppose at least i know that she loves me this time and im not guessing at that. but in some ways-lol-that makes it even harder.
Have Faith....have faith in her and have faith in yourself. and in your love for each other. (what my heart keeps telling me-i find it hard to ignore)
so once again its going to be hard but i gotta do what i gotta do-i cant give up after all. its not possible.
more later perhaps..but for now im gonna go take a shower, watch a good movie and hit the bed. hard. nite all..
ps. anna, if you read this, dont ever-EVER-forget that i love you with my whole heart and i will do anything it takes to make you happy and to have you in my life. this all has a purpose-eventhough its a bit hard to figure..and it will be ok.
How do I feel about all of this you ask?
%#%#&$$@!@#!#%%&%&$$@$#!@!$#&%%#%%$%#$#%@@@!!&%&%$&$%#$@#$$%#$$#!!!!
but i suppose when life gives you lemons, what can you do besides make lemonade?
(actually my answer would more closely be to throw the lemons at stupid people, but..)
so like i said..here i sit. i suppose at least i know that she loves me this time and im not guessing at that. but in some ways-lol-that makes it even harder.
Have Faith....have faith in her and have faith in yourself. and in your love for each other. (what my heart keeps telling me-i find it hard to ignore)
so once again its going to be hard but i gotta do what i gotta do-i cant give up after all. its not possible.
more later perhaps..but for now im gonna go take a shower, watch a good movie and hit the bed. hard. nite all..
ps. anna, if you read this, dont ever-EVER-forget that i love you with my whole heart and i will do anything it takes to make you happy and to have you in my life. this all has a purpose-eventhough its a bit hard to figure..and it will be ok.