Believe it..

[aromeoh]

It has recently occured to me that i may have been a bit out of line with my last "real" post. I mean ya i was angry and ya i wanted to lash out and ya i didnt think anybody would actually end up reading it, but i shouldnt have tried to be hurtful. Thats exactly the behavior that im trying to stay above. I apologize to the person it was directed at. On another note, due to recent conversations, i have figured a few things out that were bothering me immensely and a few of my why questions have been answered. Apparently i hurt someone much worse than i even understood and in the process of finding this information out, realized that i really dont deserve her.

But.
Shes the first person i think of in the morning when i wake, the last person i think of at night before i sleep, and the only girl who ill ever find in my dreams. She is more beautiful than any heavy handed words could explain and ive thought it since the very first time i laid eyes on her. She was my angel see. Here. In Ohio. And meeting her was the single greatest moment of my life.

I dont know what I expect. I already reduced myself to the fact that she hates me, and shes started talking to me. That, to me, is a miracle. And im happy with that. Whatever is supposed to happen, will happen and it'll turn out alright, im sure.

but im off to work now so i shall write more later. hasta manana