I swear...Im loosing it!!!
Well Spring semester started and my New Year is going good...This semester seems a little tough and after my Nursing class yesterday I feel like entering the Nursing program is going to be harder then I expected. But I think ill be okay...Im really not in a rush and I will probably just wait and apply for the LVN program but we will see.
Ive been talking to michael a lot more then usual. It is kinda nice but im very unsure about it. I don't know what this boy wants. I feel like I get mixed signs and I don't understand them...I saw him last week and it was good. I try not to call or text him but then he tells me why don't I text or call him? When I do he is busy so why try! I think he just likes to know im always there...Well lately I have not been there. I don't text or call like I use to.....Im too afraid now and I wanted him to change and I see it slowly in him that he is or is he just playing with me?? I really don't know and I sorta feel like he is a little to late. Even tho I think that everything I see him or talk to him I fall for him all over again, It feels like the very first time I had ever meet him and I love that feeling...The thing is that he has no idea how I feel and I still can't get the nerve to tell him..I tell myself next time and next time but it never happens. I really don't know what to do and it is really driving me crazy. It makes me feel happy but sad how things are with us there going alright but I still wish he was the same michael i loved many years ago and I wish I could get him back.... And another thing that still bothers me is that time he got in an argument with me a couple of months ago those words he said still bother me even tho he said he was sorry...But still he shouldn't have said those things....
One thing I do love about him is that he remembers everything about us...Stuff I don't even remember!
I don't think anyone reads this and that's okay..... This is for me and I don't give me lJ out...Sooo If your reading then...I guess you can see this is just for me to vent. It helps me.
Ive been talking to michael a lot more then usual. It is kinda nice but im very unsure about it. I don't know what this boy wants. I feel like I get mixed signs and I don't understand them...I saw him last week and it was good. I try not to call or text him but then he tells me why don't I text or call him? When I do he is busy so why try! I think he just likes to know im always there...Well lately I have not been there. I don't text or call like I use to.....Im too afraid now and I wanted him to change and I see it slowly in him that he is or is he just playing with me?? I really don't know and I sorta feel like he is a little to late. Even tho I think that everything I see him or talk to him I fall for him all over again, It feels like the very first time I had ever meet him and I love that feeling...The thing is that he has no idea how I feel and I still can't get the nerve to tell him..I tell myself next time and next time but it never happens. I really don't know what to do and it is really driving me crazy. It makes me feel happy but sad how things are with us there going alright but I still wish he was the same michael i loved many years ago and I wish I could get him back.... And another thing that still bothers me is that time he got in an argument with me a couple of months ago those words he said still bother me even tho he said he was sorry...But still he shouldn't have said those things....
One thing I do love about him is that he remembers everything about us...Stuff I don't even remember!
I don't think anyone reads this and that's okay..... This is for me and I don't give me lJ out...Sooo If your reading then...I guess you can see this is just for me to vent. It helps me.