Hindsight is 20/20.
There's this girl, her name's Lorelai.
Far back as I can remember, thanks to her Mom and my Dad bein' friends, we've been hangin' out. Either she and her family'd come down to Texas to visit me and mine, or I'd go over there. More often than not, for plenty of different reasons, I'd wind up goin' over there. So I'd get to spend all sorts of time with her, and her brother Sam.
And as we were growin' up, I got pretty close with them. In particular, Lorelai. And my Dad used to make all these little comments about that, seemin' to think somethin' was real funny, and I figured out what the hell he was goin' on about until I was at least eleven.
I had a big damn crush on her.
Now you figure I would've known 'bout this, and you're probably right, but I guess I just... I didn't think on it. One of the few times in my life I didn't go and overthink somethin'. I got comfortable with how things were, and I guess in the back of my mind, I knew thinkin' on that would ruin it. And I like bein' comfortable a whole lot better.
Of course it was goin' to be my Dad thinkin' the whole thing was so damn funny that would ruin it.
But anyway, I kept my mouth shut. Holdin' onto what I was gettin' from her was the only option, as far as I could tell, 'cause even when I was older, I sure as hell wasn't goin' to do anythin' about it. Still, I guess I was obvious anyway, 'cause every last one of my friends knew except her. 'Cause when Lorelai doesn't want to see somethin', unless you find a way to smack her with it, she's not goin' to see it.
So she was always datin' other guys, and I dated girls here and there, but she was still the only girl my mind was really set on. Even though I knew there was no way in hell I'd ever get her. I think maybe somethin' in me thought if I held out on gettin' serious with anyone long enough... Who knows?
Then she started datin' Miles. And Miles is an asshole. He's Sasha's ex, which is one of the reasons why she and Lorelai get into so many fights. The rest, I don't think's really my place to go talkin' about.
But the problem was, I was still holdin' out. Right up until Sasha and I had a fight over the whole thing. Which I'm not goin' to go into detail on either. Let's just say it sorta brought the whole thing into focus for me, made me think. And I guess around that time, I sorta grew out of the whole thing. 'Cause after that, she started feelin' like more of a friend and less like anythin' else.
Lookin' back on it now, I can see how stupid the whole thing was. I liked Lorelai 'cause she's everythin' I'm not. She's got a ton of energy, she's confident, she doesn't mind speakin' her mind, all that sorta thing.
But it never would've worked.
She doesn't have a whole lot of paitence, she gets moody to the point of where she's impossible to deal with, and she gets me sometimes about as much as I get her. Which isn't sayin' much.
I'm just over it. Bein' able to talk about this when I could never do it before is the biggest testament to that, I guess.
Only thing that might be trouble for me is, as it turns out, everythin' I'm not's still my type.
Muse: Shane Gannon
Fandom: Original Characters
Word Count: 612
Far back as I can remember, thanks to her Mom and my Dad bein' friends, we've been hangin' out. Either she and her family'd come down to Texas to visit me and mine, or I'd go over there. More often than not, for plenty of different reasons, I'd wind up goin' over there. So I'd get to spend all sorts of time with her, and her brother Sam.
And as we were growin' up, I got pretty close with them. In particular, Lorelai. And my Dad used to make all these little comments about that, seemin' to think somethin' was real funny, and I figured out what the hell he was goin' on about until I was at least eleven.
I had a big damn crush on her.
Now you figure I would've known 'bout this, and you're probably right, but I guess I just... I didn't think on it. One of the few times in my life I didn't go and overthink somethin'. I got comfortable with how things were, and I guess in the back of my mind, I knew thinkin' on that would ruin it. And I like bein' comfortable a whole lot better.
Of course it was goin' to be my Dad thinkin' the whole thing was so damn funny that would ruin it.
But anyway, I kept my mouth shut. Holdin' onto what I was gettin' from her was the only option, as far as I could tell, 'cause even when I was older, I sure as hell wasn't goin' to do anythin' about it. Still, I guess I was obvious anyway, 'cause every last one of my friends knew except her. 'Cause when Lorelai doesn't want to see somethin', unless you find a way to smack her with it, she's not goin' to see it.
So she was always datin' other guys, and I dated girls here and there, but she was still the only girl my mind was really set on. Even though I knew there was no way in hell I'd ever get her. I think maybe somethin' in me thought if I held out on gettin' serious with anyone long enough... Who knows?
Then she started datin' Miles. And Miles is an asshole. He's Sasha's ex, which is one of the reasons why she and Lorelai get into so many fights. The rest, I don't think's really my place to go talkin' about.
But the problem was, I was still holdin' out. Right up until Sasha and I had a fight over the whole thing. Which I'm not goin' to go into detail on either. Let's just say it sorta brought the whole thing into focus for me, made me think. And I guess around that time, I sorta grew out of the whole thing. 'Cause after that, she started feelin' like more of a friend and less like anythin' else.
Lookin' back on it now, I can see how stupid the whole thing was. I liked Lorelai 'cause she's everythin' I'm not. She's got a ton of energy, she's confident, she doesn't mind speakin' her mind, all that sorta thing.
But it never would've worked.
She doesn't have a whole lot of paitence, she gets moody to the point of where she's impossible to deal with, and she gets me sometimes about as much as I get her. Which isn't sayin' much.
I'm just over it. Bein' able to talk about this when I could never do it before is the biggest testament to that, I guess.
Only thing that might be trouble for me is, as it turns out, everythin' I'm not's still my type.
Muse: Shane Gannon
Fandom: Original Characters
Word Count: 612