Weird.
Fuck, I totally just had a high moment without being high.
I was thinking about how I felt at this time last year. Whenever I went out (and sometimes at home, Ha!) I would listen to Rihanna's Good Girl Gone Bad album and I felt really connected to the album and felt it described what I was going through at the time (mostly good things). The album was pretty much an anthem for all of last year.
This year has been complete hell for me. And I just listened to Rihanna's "Disturbia" which has a much darker tone than any of the songs on Good Girl Gone Bad. And the song def. describes how I've felt since moving here.
Check out the lyrics:
What’s wrong with me?
Why do I feel like this?
I’m going crazy now
No more gas in the rig
Can’t even get it started
Nothing heard, nothing said
Can’t even speak about it
All my life on my head
Don’t want to think about it
Feels like I’m going insane
Yeah
It’s a thief in the night
To come and grab you
It can creep up inside you
And consume you
A disease of the mind
It can control you
It’s too close for comfort
Throw on your break lights
We’re in the city of wonder
Ain’t gonna play nice
Watch out, you might just go under
Better think twice
Your train of thought will be altered
So if you must faulter be wise
Your mind is in disturbia
It’s like the darkness is the light
Disturbia
Am I scaring you tonight
Your mind is in disturbia
Ain’t used to what you like
It’s a thief in the night
To come and grab you
It can creep up inside you
And consume you
A disease of the mind
It can control you
I feel like a monster
Faded pictures on the wall
It’s like they talkin’ to me
Disconnectin’ your call
Your phone don’t even ring
I gotta get out
Or figure this shit out
It’s too close for comfort
Release me from this curse
I’m trying to remain tame
But I’m struggling
You can’t go, go, go
I think I’m going to oh, oh, oh
It's fucking creepy.
I was thinking about how I felt at this time last year. Whenever I went out (and sometimes at home, Ha!) I would listen to Rihanna's Good Girl Gone Bad album and I felt really connected to the album and felt it described what I was going through at the time (mostly good things). The album was pretty much an anthem for all of last year.
This year has been complete hell for me. And I just listened to Rihanna's "Disturbia" which has a much darker tone than any of the songs on Good Girl Gone Bad. And the song def. describes how I've felt since moving here.
Check out the lyrics:
What’s wrong with me?
Why do I feel like this?
I’m going crazy now
No more gas in the rig
Can’t even get it started
Nothing heard, nothing said
Can’t even speak about it
All my life on my head
Don’t want to think about it
Feels like I’m going insane
Yeah
It’s a thief in the night
To come and grab you
It can creep up inside you
And consume you
A disease of the mind
It can control you
It’s too close for comfort
Throw on your break lights
We’re in the city of wonder
Ain’t gonna play nice
Watch out, you might just go under
Better think twice
Your train of thought will be altered
So if you must faulter be wise
Your mind is in disturbia
It’s like the darkness is the light
Disturbia
Am I scaring you tonight
Your mind is in disturbia
Ain’t used to what you like
It’s a thief in the night
To come and grab you
It can creep up inside you
And consume you
A disease of the mind
It can control you
I feel like a monster
Faded pictures on the wall
It’s like they talkin’ to me
Disconnectin’ your call
Your phone don’t even ring
I gotta get out
Or figure this shit out
It’s too close for comfort
Release me from this curse
I’m trying to remain tame
But I’m struggling
You can’t go, go, go
I think I’m going to oh, oh, oh
It's fucking creepy.