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What was the point…?
Oh yeah.
1. Santa is not a Christian symbol.
2. I want to do something to help Sri Lanka
3. Sending “Jesus” to everyone in Mecklenburg county is a little excessive. And unwanted, frankly. Don’t waste the money on me…
4. I had a disturbing and vivid dream where I was under house arrest for being myself. I was under the care of Carrie’s Stepfather. And my mom was there, trying to help me, but only half-heartedly. There were cops, who didn’t tell me what I had done wrong, but just simply told me I had to be there.
5. I’m glad 2004 is over. It wasn’t a very good year for me, or the world, I believe.
6. I am very appreciative of all my friends and family. I’m just very absent-minded. Speaking of which, I really need to call Tingle.
7. Jasper said something fantastic. Incubating them to the age of 2 and flooding them with all the information they need to reach high school level.
8. I have a need to be loved
9. Yes, I do believe in destiny
10. Thank God for my experiences.
11. Thank God for the Way I was Raised. Thank God for my experiences.
12. You really do need to learn how to market yourself
13. I’m gonna pause now…
14. I can see the things I’m doing wrong, and I know that I need to change; I’m just not sure how to do it. But I’m figuring that out quickly. I know my dad isn’t going to stand over me any more and tell me that I’m shit. He has no right to, and he wouldn’t do it, besides. Frankly, the only thing the man can really do is tell me that I’m worthless, at this age, and that would be far worse than any belt across the ass.
15. JV has the right Idea. These little numbered lines are great.
16. Being john Malcovich should have told me that I just need to be myself, and stop second-guessing my need to be myself.
17. A happy existence is one that is lead to its fullest.
18. Live each day as though it’s going to be your last. It might.
19. My friends… Well, they’re my existence. What am I if not the sum of the relationships I have with other people? Be it a boss, be it a girl, be it my family, they’re all important, and they are all the sum of my existence.
20. That said, if you don’t attract my attention, you don’t get it. Sorry, that’s just who I am.
21. I LOVE my family. I really do. And They need to know that. And they do, I’m sure. I’m not sure how to let them know that, just like I’m not sure how to fix me, but I’ll come to it eventually.
22. I need to work with jasper more. It’s healthy for me, especially if the two of us stay moderately “clean”. But that’s beside the point. We simply get along well.
23. Kanye’s got the right Idea. Those degrees mean very little. I need to be an entrepreneur to make it in this world… now…. What am I good at?
24. Making silly little lists doesn’t do shit if you don’t read them later.
25. I WILL NOT FIGHT FOR A CAUSE I DON’T BELIEVE IN!
26. I Loves me iPod. Seriously I do.
27. The News made me angry again today… hmmm… If I care about something so much…
28. The only reasons I care about my grades from this past semester are Reggie and Dennis. Reginald Raymer is a man to look up to and be like. He is worthy of my respect, more so than say… jesus.
29. Jasper doesn’t like Tenacious D. Asshole.
30. I Love Megan Thomas. And it drives me crazy.
31. Worse, I Love Alisha Donaldson. More than I should. And it kinda sucks. I want her to stay in my life forever. I Truly Love her… and frankly, I want to fuck her, but that’s beside the point.
32. My room is a wonderful expression of my existence. I think It should be.
33. Turning 18 is a disturbing thing. Being able to say ‘fuck you’ to your parents certainly has its ups and downs….
34. Why is it that so much of the world has a fascination with intoxication? Why My Grandmother? Why My Mother? Why Me?
35. I’m just doing my thing. So Grateful for my experiences.
36. I will be fucking GREAT. My mother will be FUCKING GREAT. And knowing that makes me very very happy. This is her time to shine, and she deserves it. She taught me what I know, and we work as a team. I must help her, if she’s to help me. She has the experience that I need… blah, I need to get shit straight.
37. I want to be Eminem. I want To be Kanye west. I want to be Jack Black. And Jack White. It’s possible, and these people have influence over who matters. We don’t matter, the next generation does, and we need to realize that. Train your children right, they truly are your destiny.
38. I ain’t got no legs. Or no Brains.
39. Just Lose it.
40. I can tell my friends that I went to the tire bowl. And even tho it may not seem like it, I had an incredibly good time.
41. ANY time I spend with my Dad is registered as a good time in my brain.
42. Unclutter my iPod. Or Conversely, Learn to accept the Random Playlists Life gives you.
43. I really am A good writer, and I need to get over that, and just start writing. Abandon inhibitions, and just go with what works.
44. Fuck the Rules (if the rules don’t make any sense.)
45. There was a joke there somewhere.
46. I know I’m not crazy, just lazy.
47. America scares me. I know I may sound radical at times, but that may just be because it feels deserved at times… It may just be the folly of youth.
48. The fact that Alisha’s niece is about to repeat Kindergarten Scares me. Nobody deserves that type of beginning just because her parents are fucking Morons.
49. Even my mistakes are experiences. And I appreciates them so much, I almost can’t articulate it.
50. It makes me feel incredible to know that I got my parents to stop going to church. This truly is the age of Aquarius.
51. MY MOTHER goes to SCHOOL with me. I really could not ask for more from our relationship. Shit, what else could prove more that somebody a) cares, and b) is listening to you.
52. I cannot apologize to Sami Deeply Enough.
53. I will reconcile my differences. And I will become something beautiful.
54. How many thoughts do I have a day? How am I supposed to keep them all? How should I be expected to write them all down?
55. This is my new Year’s/ This is my awakening.
56. I feel so spoiled. I do. But you know what? If people are sharing, then fuck it… I may as well take while it’s being handed. Mom’s right, It may not come again.
57. I hate feeling like I’m lost. I hate feeling like I’m drowning, isn’t it ironic that my sign is the water bearer?
58. Is Tim going to hurt Beth? Film at Eleven.
59. I Hope Dennis lets me into Acting 2. I CAN DO BETTER.
60. Thinking of You. Thinking of you. Thinking.
61. I’m so glad this kid isn’t a crackhead. I could clear my conscience with him.
62. I wish I knew then what I know now. Luckily, as Jasper Says, we’re in our prime.
63. We must learn from our relationships… and as far as relationships are concerned, I need to learn from “My Best Friend’s Wedding”.
64. Thank god I have my Laptop…. I’ve missed it. And it works again, now. And I’m happy.
65. Some people have it, and some people don’t.
66. Will Beth and Jasper reunite? Exploding Penguins at Eleven.
67. Best friends are those you can be yourself in front of.
68. I need to look in the mirror more. Sometimes I forget what I Look Like.
69. I need to download the Russian protest song for Megan.
70. Meet PEOPLE!
71. The Person who says “Where do you Want to go” has the right to expect an answer, not “I don’t know, where do you want to go?”
72. I’m going to have to re-paint my walls….
73. I WILL Overcome my addictions.
74. My Room is a fucking mess! But, I really don’t care…
75. And still… I do.
76. I need to Read what I write more.
77. People have had these thought before… I mean.. come on… somebody came up with “Om.”
78. I have too many morals. Unexplainable ones, at that.
79. The point of a “Philosopher” Is to add to the contribution of written human thought. Otherwise, how do we know how we think?
Oh yeah.
1. Santa is not a Christian symbol.
2. I want to do something to help Sri Lanka
3. Sending “Jesus” to everyone in Mecklenburg county is a little excessive. And unwanted, frankly. Don’t waste the money on me…
4. I had a disturbing and vivid dream where I was under house arrest for being myself. I was under the care of Carrie’s Stepfather. And my mom was there, trying to help me, but only half-heartedly. There were cops, who didn’t tell me what I had done wrong, but just simply told me I had to be there.
5. I’m glad 2004 is over. It wasn’t a very good year for me, or the world, I believe.
6. I am very appreciative of all my friends and family. I’m just very absent-minded. Speaking of which, I really need to call Tingle.
7. Jasper said something fantastic. Incubating them to the age of 2 and flooding them with all the information they need to reach high school level.
8. I have a need to be loved
9. Yes, I do believe in destiny
10. Thank God for my experiences.
11. Thank God for the Way I was Raised. Thank God for my experiences.
12. You really do need to learn how to market yourself
13. I’m gonna pause now…
14. I can see the things I’m doing wrong, and I know that I need to change; I’m just not sure how to do it. But I’m figuring that out quickly. I know my dad isn’t going to stand over me any more and tell me that I’m shit. He has no right to, and he wouldn’t do it, besides. Frankly, the only thing the man can really do is tell me that I’m worthless, at this age, and that would be far worse than any belt across the ass.
15. JV has the right Idea. These little numbered lines are great.
16. Being john Malcovich should have told me that I just need to be myself, and stop second-guessing my need to be myself.
17. A happy existence is one that is lead to its fullest.
18. Live each day as though it’s going to be your last. It might.
19. My friends… Well, they’re my existence. What am I if not the sum of the relationships I have with other people? Be it a boss, be it a girl, be it my family, they’re all important, and they are all the sum of my existence.
20. That said, if you don’t attract my attention, you don’t get it. Sorry, that’s just who I am.
21. I LOVE my family. I really do. And They need to know that. And they do, I’m sure. I’m not sure how to let them know that, just like I’m not sure how to fix me, but I’ll come to it eventually.
22. I need to work with jasper more. It’s healthy for me, especially if the two of us stay moderately “clean”. But that’s beside the point. We simply get along well.
23. Kanye’s got the right Idea. Those degrees mean very little. I need to be an entrepreneur to make it in this world… now…. What am I good at?
24. Making silly little lists doesn’t do shit if you don’t read them later.
25. I WILL NOT FIGHT FOR A CAUSE I DON’T BELIEVE IN!
26. I Loves me iPod. Seriously I do.
27. The News made me angry again today… hmmm… If I care about something so much…
28. The only reasons I care about my grades from this past semester are Reggie and Dennis. Reginald Raymer is a man to look up to and be like. He is worthy of my respect, more so than say… jesus.
29. Jasper doesn’t like Tenacious D. Asshole.
30. I Love Megan Thomas. And it drives me crazy.
31. Worse, I Love Alisha Donaldson. More than I should. And it kinda sucks. I want her to stay in my life forever. I Truly Love her… and frankly, I want to fuck her, but that’s beside the point.
32. My room is a wonderful expression of my existence. I think It should be.
33. Turning 18 is a disturbing thing. Being able to say ‘fuck you’ to your parents certainly has its ups and downs….
34. Why is it that so much of the world has a fascination with intoxication? Why My Grandmother? Why My Mother? Why Me?
35. I’m just doing my thing. So Grateful for my experiences.
36. I will be fucking GREAT. My mother will be FUCKING GREAT. And knowing that makes me very very happy. This is her time to shine, and she deserves it. She taught me what I know, and we work as a team. I must help her, if she’s to help me. She has the experience that I need… blah, I need to get shit straight.
37. I want to be Eminem. I want To be Kanye west. I want to be Jack Black. And Jack White. It’s possible, and these people have influence over who matters. We don’t matter, the next generation does, and we need to realize that. Train your children right, they truly are your destiny.
38. I ain’t got no legs. Or no Brains.
39. Just Lose it.
40. I can tell my friends that I went to the tire bowl. And even tho it may not seem like it, I had an incredibly good time.
41. ANY time I spend with my Dad is registered as a good time in my brain.
42. Unclutter my iPod. Or Conversely, Learn to accept the Random Playlists Life gives you.
43. I really am A good writer, and I need to get over that, and just start writing. Abandon inhibitions, and just go with what works.
44. Fuck the Rules (if the rules don’t make any sense.)
45. There was a joke there somewhere.
46. I know I’m not crazy, just lazy.
47. America scares me. I know I may sound radical at times, but that may just be because it feels deserved at times… It may just be the folly of youth.
48. The fact that Alisha’s niece is about to repeat Kindergarten Scares me. Nobody deserves that type of beginning just because her parents are fucking Morons.
49. Even my mistakes are experiences. And I appreciates them so much, I almost can’t articulate it.
50. It makes me feel incredible to know that I got my parents to stop going to church. This truly is the age of Aquarius.
51. MY MOTHER goes to SCHOOL with me. I really could not ask for more from our relationship. Shit, what else could prove more that somebody a) cares, and b) is listening to you.
52. I cannot apologize to Sami Deeply Enough.
53. I will reconcile my differences. And I will become something beautiful.
54. How many thoughts do I have a day? How am I supposed to keep them all? How should I be expected to write them all down?
55. This is my new Year’s/ This is my awakening.
56. I feel so spoiled. I do. But you know what? If people are sharing, then fuck it… I may as well take while it’s being handed. Mom’s right, It may not come again.
57. I hate feeling like I’m lost. I hate feeling like I’m drowning, isn’t it ironic that my sign is the water bearer?
58. Is Tim going to hurt Beth? Film at Eleven.
59. I Hope Dennis lets me into Acting 2. I CAN DO BETTER.
60. Thinking of You. Thinking of you. Thinking.
61. I’m so glad this kid isn’t a crackhead. I could clear my conscience with him.
62. I wish I knew then what I know now. Luckily, as Jasper Says, we’re in our prime.
63. We must learn from our relationships… and as far as relationships are concerned, I need to learn from “My Best Friend’s Wedding”.
64. Thank god I have my Laptop…. I’ve missed it. And it works again, now. And I’m happy.
65. Some people have it, and some people don’t.
66. Will Beth and Jasper reunite? Exploding Penguins at Eleven.
67. Best friends are those you can be yourself in front of.
68. I need to look in the mirror more. Sometimes I forget what I Look Like.
69. I need to download the Russian protest song for Megan.
70. Meet PEOPLE!
71. The Person who says “Where do you Want to go” has the right to expect an answer, not “I don’t know, where do you want to go?”
72. I’m going to have to re-paint my walls….
73. I WILL Overcome my addictions.
74. My Room is a fucking mess! But, I really don’t care…
75. And still… I do.
76. I need to Read what I write more.
77. People have had these thought before… I mean.. come on… somebody came up with “Om.”
78. I have too many morals. Unexplainable ones, at that.
79. The point of a “Philosopher” Is to add to the contribution of written human thought. Otherwise, how do we know how we think?