Let's play the "Questions" game...
What now? What’s wrong with me? Why in the hell do I feel so useless? Am I bringing this shitty feeling down upon myself? Could it possibly be because I am? Am I trapped in my spiral, and just not fixing it? Do I continue to procrastinate? Isn’t it obvious? Why waste the time asking myself that question? What was the point in skirting the obvious?
Am I lying to myself if I claim that I don’t want to get high anymore? Did my friends destroy me? How can I possibly blame my descent into stupidity on anybody but myself?
How can I say anything at all about him, when I can see myself making mistakes?
Am I a fucking whipping boy? Why do I let myself stagnate? Why don’t I have a job?
How could I be so Fucking stupid? Aren’t I a genius?
Why can’t I wake up in the morning? How can I be such an egotist, and hate myself so much at the same time? What is my purpose in life? Why? Why won’t you fucking tell me? Whoever you are, just FUCKING TELL ME WHAT YOU WANT BECAUSE I’M SICK OF NOT KNOWING, AND I’M SICK OF MAKING THE WRONG DECISIONS, AND I’M SICK OF FEELING LIKE A GOD ONE SECOND, AND A GODDAMNED LONELY LITTLE TOAD THE NEXT! FUCK!!
…fuck.
I guess I lost.
Am I lying to myself if I claim that I don’t want to get high anymore? Did my friends destroy me? How can I possibly blame my descent into stupidity on anybody but myself?
How can I say anything at all about him, when I can see myself making mistakes?
Am I a fucking whipping boy? Why do I let myself stagnate? Why don’t I have a job?
How could I be so Fucking stupid? Aren’t I a genius?
Why can’t I wake up in the morning? How can I be such an egotist, and hate myself so much at the same time? What is my purpose in life? Why? Why won’t you fucking tell me? Whoever you are, just FUCKING TELL ME WHAT YOU WANT BECAUSE I’M SICK OF NOT KNOWING, AND I’M SICK OF MAKING THE WRONG DECISIONS, AND I’M SICK OF FEELING LIKE A GOD ONE SECOND, AND A GODDAMNED LONELY LITTLE TOAD THE NEXT! FUCK!!
…fuck.
I guess I lost.