Feb 07, 2007 00:27
So I went back and purchased book one and two. I've finished book one already and now book 3 makes a lot more sense than it did before. Lathely things have been really weird. My mind has been completely wandering along with my emotions and senses. Quite often things seem to be a blur and lot me seems to be fighting for order while bits and pieces are surviving purely from moment to moment.
I find myself ecstatic for no reason, which I can't say I don't enjoy. While other times I've succumbed to an overwhelming sense of remorse. My dreams have been franctic, fast-paced, yet they seem to be meaningful and suggestive. I've also heard about different people having dreams that have involved me as well.
I've found a sense of curiousity to dip into the past as well. As if there was something along the path that I missed that I need to find. That I need to correct or go back upon. Something unfinished or that's to be revisited for some reason. I've caught myself staring blankly at the screen, even though it's all a blur, or at a mirror, or out the winder, or to the side, or into the back of my eye-lids for seconds, minutes, hours... Just letting time pass by.
Why? What or Who is it that's out there that is trying to reach out to me?