Mystery

[armoire_man]

It's odd being the son of a father who's mentally off, mentally ill, mentally retarded. He was my hero when I was a kid, more than he was to my brothers. I got stuck with him more deeply than they did

Comments

[baldanders]

Thank you for writing it.

[noveldevice]

*love*

[cardigirl]

Wondering "who was this person?" when you're going through their things... yeah, sounds familiar. No matter how open the person is, or how close, there will be things that just never got brought out fully. That's what personal privacy is about, at the core, even when it is *not* aggressively defended. It's just what a person does while living.

"sad, tender, open, delirious" ... *hugs* I hesitate to say this, but things will be raw for awhile to come.

[scarredbyitall]

You've written this so well. It's painfully true.

[neonnurse]

I don't know if it's harder to lose someone you had a great relationship with, or someone you had a crummy but still strong relationship with. I still have odd old memories of my dad pop up at weird times for no reason I can think of. I guess it's better than never having had anything at all....

It sounds like you have found a good starting place to begin to deal with the past and the near future. I think you are wiser than you give yourself credit for, sometimes.