Oh, hey there LJ
Hey there LJ, long time no see, buddeh.
I've got a buncha shit on my mind so I'm just gonna dump it all here, since it seems to be the most appropriate place to do so. Time to find out who still checks LJ!
But yeah, basically I'm getting kind of bummed because at this particular point in my life I'm kind of in work limbo. I'm probably gonna head back to school and try CS again in the Spring, but until then, I'm working a shitty mindless job at Walmart and just sitting at home and everything is just sort of stagnant. I hate when things are just kind of stagnant, it's hard to enjoy life when all you're doing is waiting.
I guess I could look at working 40 hours a week and making shitty money as some sort of divine retribution for doing so shitty at school the first time around and basically just waiting a whole bunch of time and money. I've been doing this for over a year now and I've made a little over $5,000 at this point, which I think barely covers a single semester. If not for the life experience, it would all seem entirely pointless. I think having worked all this time will probably help me in the long run though.
It's also aggravating because I have all kinds of games I'd like to play and projects I'd like to work on and even shit I'd like to study, but I have such a small window of free time and it's really hard to get anything done. If I decide to do one thing, I have to abandon several other things for a while, and some things, like studying Kanji, just flat out require some dedicated study over a long period of time and I simply don't have the patience to do so at the expense of everything else I'd like to do.
I've considered quitting, but then I'd just kind of be sitting at home doing nothing at all, and I really need to be able to chip in as much for College as I can at this point, even if it's just a drop in the bucket. At the very least I've got another month or two of work in me, but I think I'd still like to have some sort of break before getting back on the school horse. Maybe at the very least I can ask for less work time than 8 hours a day, 5 days a week. It gets kinda soul-sucking after a while.
But yeah, mainly I'm just sick of waiting for my life to get back on track. I still have nearly three months of this routine before anything's gonna change, so I guess I just gotta keep waiting it out.
I've got a buncha shit on my mind so I'm just gonna dump it all here, since it seems to be the most appropriate place to do so. Time to find out who still checks LJ!
But yeah, basically I'm getting kind of bummed because at this particular point in my life I'm kind of in work limbo. I'm probably gonna head back to school and try CS again in the Spring, but until then, I'm working a shitty mindless job at Walmart and just sitting at home and everything is just sort of stagnant. I hate when things are just kind of stagnant, it's hard to enjoy life when all you're doing is waiting.
I guess I could look at working 40 hours a week and making shitty money as some sort of divine retribution for doing so shitty at school the first time around and basically just waiting a whole bunch of time and money. I've been doing this for over a year now and I've made a little over $5,000 at this point, which I think barely covers a single semester. If not for the life experience, it would all seem entirely pointless. I think having worked all this time will probably help me in the long run though.
It's also aggravating because I have all kinds of games I'd like to play and projects I'd like to work on and even shit I'd like to study, but I have such a small window of free time and it's really hard to get anything done. If I decide to do one thing, I have to abandon several other things for a while, and some things, like studying Kanji, just flat out require some dedicated study over a long period of time and I simply don't have the patience to do so at the expense of everything else I'd like to do.
I've considered quitting, but then I'd just kind of be sitting at home doing nothing at all, and I really need to be able to chip in as much for College as I can at this point, even if it's just a drop in the bucket. At the very least I've got another month or two of work in me, but I think I'd still like to have some sort of break before getting back on the school horse. Maybe at the very least I can ask for less work time than 8 hours a day, 5 days a week. It gets kinda soul-sucking after a while.
But yeah, mainly I'm just sick of waiting for my life to get back on track. I still have nearly three months of this routine before anything's gonna change, so I guess I just gotta keep waiting it out.