One Long Post about... a lot of things
Fuck!!!
I'm thinking again of what i am!
Today, was lovely! Long computer day with my 'grand-pa' . He made me realize that i didn't know anything about life compared to him and his citation of well-known people!!
Still the same with my sister - No talk since i don't even know!! Too long i'm thinking! I don't know how to stop this because i'm half responsible for what happened and in a ew weeks i'm not going to see her for at least 6 month!
People are calling me on my cell phone! People i don't even know; random phone numbers that i don't know and since i don't like answering to unknown call i don't know who is calling me!!
This post is for a change! A change for everything! I have to start thinking what's good for me and what i want to do and not what other will think! I've been broad up in this kind of environment where people's view was better than mine! It started in 5th grade when i started doing stupid shit and ever since i've been scared of 'making the wrong choice'!
Last year made me think differently and thanks to a lot of people that i meant! Listening to some opinion that my cousins have make me want to start arguing but then i tell myself that it's not worth it and it won't do anything because they are stuck in their vision of the world ( i guess you could call it this!!)
Watching soccer tonight made me think that i'm doing exactly what a 50year old guy would do! Sit and watch TV all night! Besides this i thought that i would use my time wisely and start writing a post!!
I don't know what's happening to me!I've been alone since too long! Because i don't want to commit myself to a relationship; i'm scared of what would happen! I'm scared of the result of a relationship!!!
But when i'm looking at those two person sitting on the bench( the same everyday) in front of the office where i work, it makes me imagine how nice it would for me, this same kind of love!!!!
Love is what i need maybe!!!
I'm going to think about this tonight while i'm waiting to fall asleep!!
I'm sure that if i wanted a relationship i will be happy for a while and i will do whatever i can to make it work out!!!!
but is it what i want exactly!?????
I'm going to try to stop being an ass! that mean start answering phone calls from unknown numbers, and try to have a relationship !! LOL i sound like malcom!!!
and if it doesn't work out, well i'm going to the vatican for sure to become a priest!!!!
Goodnight Biatchessss!!!
I'm thinking again of what i am!
Today, was lovely! Long computer day with my 'grand-pa' . He made me realize that i didn't know anything about life compared to him and his citation of well-known people!!
Still the same with my sister - No talk since i don't even know!! Too long i'm thinking! I don't know how to stop this because i'm half responsible for what happened and in a ew weeks i'm not going to see her for at least 6 month!
People are calling me on my cell phone! People i don't even know; random phone numbers that i don't know and since i don't like answering to unknown call i don't know who is calling me!!
This post is for a change! A change for everything! I have to start thinking what's good for me and what i want to do and not what other will think! I've been broad up in this kind of environment where people's view was better than mine! It started in 5th grade when i started doing stupid shit and ever since i've been scared of 'making the wrong choice'!
Last year made me think differently and thanks to a lot of people that i meant! Listening to some opinion that my cousins have make me want to start arguing but then i tell myself that it's not worth it and it won't do anything because they are stuck in their vision of the world ( i guess you could call it this!!)
Watching soccer tonight made me think that i'm doing exactly what a 50year old guy would do! Sit and watch TV all night! Besides this i thought that i would use my time wisely and start writing a post!!
I don't know what's happening to me!I've been alone since too long! Because i don't want to commit myself to a relationship; i'm scared of what would happen! I'm scared of the result of a relationship!!!
But when i'm looking at those two person sitting on the bench( the same everyday) in front of the office where i work, it makes me imagine how nice it would for me, this same kind of love!!!!
Love is what i need maybe!!!
I'm going to think about this tonight while i'm waiting to fall asleep!!
I'm sure that if i wanted a relationship i will be happy for a while and i will do whatever i can to make it work out!!!!
but is it what i want exactly!?????
I'm going to try to stop being an ass! that mean start answering phone calls from unknown numbers, and try to have a relationship !! LOL i sound like malcom!!!
and if it doesn't work out, well i'm going to the vatican for sure to become a priest!!!!
Goodnight Biatchessss!!!