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So after 3 weeks of France, the only thing i want to is come back to the US!!Actually not really, come back 6 month ago wihtout school!!!
Here in France, everything is beautiful!! It's always sunny and the landscape is extraordinary! but besides this...
I don't feel connected to anything; my friends, my family...
My sister has changed soooo much from the last time she came to visit us in February, and when i left for Florida!! I don't know how to explain it but it's weird!! We laugh alot but when we talk about serious stuff in our family, she seems to compare herself to me, a thing that she never did before!! I've always helped my sister emotionally and economically and she had done the same thing foe me, but since i came back from Florida, she started comparing herself to myself when it came about money and things like this...
The same for my dad..He will not support me, (besides the house) to return in Florida, so i have to make money to pay for the airplane ticket and to live for at least 2 month because i'm not going to sell a house in 1 week!!so i will stay until September in France!! and it's not my mom who can do something since she doesn't have a job and my dada is the one who has all the money...He wants me to find a job in France or start the University, and i don't feel like i'm going to like those two stuff compared to what's waiting for me in Florida!!
With that i saw the good majority of my friends in France, and to have fun it's great but that's it.. I miss the times at the beach drinking wine and talking about anything!!or the time at Josh's house smoking from the pipie and getting all emotional and meeting with molly and nicole at Denny's!!
They have changed so much it's incredible, or maybe i've changed a lot.. I don't really know but i don't feel confortable around them anymore...
So this is the story of my life!! It's The first time i get emotional on livejournal but it's good for me i think that i get all this out!!
G
Don't worry for me, it will be much better tomorrow, it's just on the moment!!
PS: Dave until when are you staying in France ? I don't feel like asking my sister her apartment right now, so if you could come later, it would be great!! What do you think?
Here in France, everything is beautiful!! It's always sunny and the landscape is extraordinary! but besides this...
I don't feel connected to anything; my friends, my family...
My sister has changed soooo much from the last time she came to visit us in February, and when i left for Florida!! I don't know how to explain it but it's weird!! We laugh alot but when we talk about serious stuff in our family, she seems to compare herself to me, a thing that she never did before!! I've always helped my sister emotionally and economically and she had done the same thing foe me, but since i came back from Florida, she started comparing herself to myself when it came about money and things like this...
The same for my dad..He will not support me, (besides the house) to return in Florida, so i have to make money to pay for the airplane ticket and to live for at least 2 month because i'm not going to sell a house in 1 week!!so i will stay until September in France!! and it's not my mom who can do something since she doesn't have a job and my dada is the one who has all the money...He wants me to find a job in France or start the University, and i don't feel like i'm going to like those two stuff compared to what's waiting for me in Florida!!
With that i saw the good majority of my friends in France, and to have fun it's great but that's it.. I miss the times at the beach drinking wine and talking about anything!!or the time at Josh's house smoking from the pipie and getting all emotional and meeting with molly and nicole at Denny's!!
They have changed so much it's incredible, or maybe i've changed a lot.. I don't really know but i don't feel confortable around them anymore...
So this is the story of my life!! It's The first time i get emotional on livejournal but it's good for me i think that i get all this out!!
G
Don't worry for me, it will be much better tomorrow, it's just on the moment!!
PS: Dave until when are you staying in France ? I don't feel like asking my sister her apartment right now, so if you could come later, it would be great!! What do you think?