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so last night was my first night in the dorms. The first time i actually spent the night. The first day i went out with sarah at night, and slept at her house, then i slept at home the day after. So I dunno, I think it's better here than CMU, but still weird. I went home today for about an hour, and picked up some stuff i forgot. Then later i got my parking permit and shit. At this point I kind of want to just commuter here. But I really feel like I have to get used to this, it's either now or never. I need to just stick it out and used to it. It's just like at pioneer, the first few days, weeks, whatever, are a little rough just because it's new. But eventually you get to know the place, and get comfortable in your surroundings. I don't really feel depressed, I did a little earlier, so I took a pill and a half. Caroline told me she ate dinner at home last night and stuff, and she's been going out with TeeJay at night, so I mean she's still kind of living the same life, just in a different spot. I just don't like the complete schedule change, it's like I just need more structure. Right now I still feel like I can't really do homework here, like I have to be at home in my room in order to do it. I know I'll get used to it soon, but it's weird right now. Like being at home would make things better just because that's still fimiliar. I have a new school I go to, but at the end of day I still come home to my room. Maybe at first I'll spend the weekends at home or something. I dunno, I can always stop there during the da if I need to but I feel like it would better for me if i just stayed here and stuck it out. I really just want to be at home, and I could go there, but it's not worth explaining to my parents why i came home, and I'd have to get up early for class tomorrow. My roommate is very antisocial, and he doesn't try to meet people, so it's kinda just been us two. Like I'd rather have him like this, than all crazy and having people over all the time, but whatever. Once class starts I'll meet some more people and it'll be cool. Still I can't wait til next year, when I get an apartment. See living on my own wouldn't be as bad, if I was in an apartment, and not in some tiny ass dorm room. Whatever though, I know I'll feel better after I go watch Nip/Tuck in the RA's room. I'm a little nervous for classes, because I don't really know where my first one is, and I have to take a bus to go to the others, which sucks, but whatever. Mom is IMing me hold on.